Several Questions on magick

[Deinarious]

Okay, I had a few questions.

First of all, I've been experiencing bad feelings and readings recently, and my guide tells me that a lot of the stuff I've been trying to do has been caused by a delusion induced by negative magick. Now, could someone detect if there is any harmful spells on me (Deinarious) or on my guide (Wroni), and also if there is a way to remove these such spells without tools or with something that can be done with intrinsic magick?

Second, what are some recommendations for intrinsic magick for beginners, like spells and stuff? Keep in mind that this is all without tools. Also keep in mind I cannot buy any books as I live in a house with a person who controls my spending (i.e. a payee).

Finally, how would I do a reading on myself of how to determine my status, like if I'm in danger, if I'm blessed, and stuff?

Thank you very much.

[Cat]

Odds are there is no spell on you, though I couldn't swear to that without seeing you in person. But it is very common for beginners to think there is. That's because your mind has some dark corners in it and IMO people become more aware of those when they start esoteric practice.

You don't really need ANY tools beyond what you were born with. Try the library for books. If you have the urge to have some tools anyhow, designate a utility knife, stick from a tree or even a chopstick, saucer of salt or dirt, and cup as your tools. Candles and matches and stick incense cost very little. You may not be able to afford tarot cards, but you can scry in a bowl of water (not that it's ever worked for me, but theoretically you can). Go on a nature walk and collect stuff. Grow some herbs.

I suggest you find a local group offering 101 type classes. If the classes are not free, don't sign up. There are also classes offered for free on MW.

The best thing for you to work on right now is shielding and warding. I do not have the time at the moment to explain, and I don't know how much you already know, so I'll just hope that someone jumps in and writes it better for me. The brief version follows:

Visualize a protective light around you (its usually blue, but suit yourself). That light is your shield. Pump energy into it and keep it always up, mainly you won't need to think about it after a while.

I use holly for warding, just hang some over every entrance and window in my home. I also draw pentacles across the doorways and charge them with protective intent.

Also do a ton of reading.

[Lunacie]

Cat wrote a very good post and the only thing I would add at this moment is about shielding and warding. Elise has posted some very good information on this in the Circle of Teaching forum under "Protection from the Dark Arts". And I believe she includes the information that when you draw on your energy to shield yourself you can find your shield failing just when you need it most - when you are sick and your energy is all going to fighting off your illness. But if you draw from the Universe or the Cosmos or Mother Earth - the energy is limitless compared to our personal human energy and will always be there, whether we are sick, or whether we have just been startled out of our wits by a sneak psychic attack, or whatever.

Once you learn how to draw those energies and create a shield, and you can learn this from reading some of the posts in that class, you can create a shield and ask your own gods or guides or angels or whoever to help you banish anything negative that may be attached to you and prevent it from happening again.

[Deinarious]

Thank you for your replies. I live in an extremely conservative Christian community, so going to classes offline is not possible. I'm the only pagan, practicing or not, I know lives where I live. Also, the local library is free of such books, so I'm screwed there.

I have been working on shielding and stuff. I also work on psionics, mainly energy manipulation and telepathy (I'm a natural psychic). I somehow managed to figure out everything I know so far on my own or with my spirit guides' help. Despite only truly practicing magick without anyone influencing me (there was at least one negative spell on me according to my guide, something that someone put on me to cause delusions and to think I'm stronger than I actually am at this time) for about three maybe four days now, I feel more skilled than I probably should. It could be that magick comes naturally to me, who knows?

I'm not in a position to own books that are, say, in a hardcopy format, or own tools of any kind. I'm not even allowed to own knives right now that aren't used for cooking. Blame probation for that (misdemeanor assault with a bar of deodorant.). All the books I have are e-books I got from a free e-book website, but I have come up with some spells on my own. The one that banished the harmful spell that was placed upon me utilizes my strongest element, Fire, and it's strong enough to remove a lot of negativity, if not all.

I also have been studying magick and stuff for longer than I've been successfully practicing (2 years) and have quite a bit of knowledge. I for example know that the strongest spells a mage in training as I call myself can use are ones thought up by one's self. That is, originality = strongest spells. Plus, I know that numbers and symbols play a big part in various things, like the numbers 3, 7, and 13 are very useful in strengthening spells.

Plus I know that no one can ever be truly bound and rendered powerless by anyone or anything unless they consent. Not even the gods themselves can override that. It took me a year to figure that out though, but oh well.

But still, I should focus on shielding and warding at first like always. I've almost got that down already, but I have no one to really test my shields against, unless it's a psionic combat shield, then I just have to ask an acquaintance at PsiNet to send a blast my way. The only time I did that my shield only got severly damaged, not destroyed. But that's psionics.

Anyhow, maybe I should post a few more questions I have here... Hmm...