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Pan
August 11th, 2002, 11:29 PM
My name used to be Pan Blackthorn. I have since found my place amongst myself. I changed my name to Loki Panwit.. embodiment of power, trickery, merriment, and danger.

Loki is my god that has claimed me. I have chosen the name Loki to be my own in tribute to him. I've worked with him for over 2 years now, and have decided to embrace him as my own. Though he can be frightening, so can all gods.

I've come back to MW as a friend. ^^ I've come back to rekindle friendships that I cut off too soon.. too quickly.. too harshly.

Finding your home isn't about finding it outside of you.. it's about finding it inside of you.

With the awakening of the day a few days ago.. with the sunrise kissing my face.. I shed my former skin. I shed my depression to blow away with the wind. I made the choice to make myself better than I was before. I made the choice to be free of me.

With that fateful dawn, I have become happier.. though depression still does hang onto me like a fish hook aching for meat. I know why I'm depressed, and am trying to work on that. I have no friends. But I am slowly trying to make new ones.

I can hang my crimson hat with the blue-black plume.. I can look around, breathe deep and say.......

I'm home.

What was once Pan Blackthorn.. is now... Loki Panwit.

Flaire-FireStar
August 11th, 2002, 11:30 PM
((((((Hugs)))))))) :heartthro

Welcome back :)

Mithrea
August 11th, 2002, 11:34 PM
Welcome Back :wave:

Rubi Waters
August 11th, 2002, 11:59 PM
welcome home!!!! :)

Witchy Cowgirl
August 12th, 2002, 12:33 AM
Nice to meet you!

Old Witch
August 12th, 2002, 06:36 PM
You are wrong......you always had friends here.................:p

Eeluna
August 13th, 2002, 02:42 PM
Sounds like you've gained some hardwon wisdom. Welcome back and Blessed Be during your future journeys.

Flar's Freyja
August 13th, 2002, 02:56 PM
:heartthro

Heilsa and Welcome Back

Desert_Shadow
August 13th, 2002, 10:16 PM
Welcome Back!

earthcat
August 14th, 2002, 12:01 AM
A pleasure to meet you! :wave:

Scarlettvixen
August 14th, 2002, 05:46 AM
namaste and merry met Loki

shnen
August 14th, 2002, 07:21 AM
(((((((((((((((((loki)))))))))))))))))))))

welcome back hun. :)

Faery-Wings
August 14th, 2002, 07:33 AM
Welcome back!

I love your description of how you shed your skin, makes me think of the Death card in my Celtic Dragon Tarot. I feel the need to do the same, I am just not sure how.

I am sure you will make many new friends here too. :)

Pan
October 6th, 2004, 11:10 PM
Since there are so many that are depressed, and I'm still going through old subscribed threads, I thought this might help.

:smile:

Terestai
October 6th, 2004, 11:30 PM
What a feeling that is, eh...? :hugz: I had one of those myself, and I always smile when I hear of other peoples'. Glad to hear it happened to you! You deserve it...

Pan
October 6th, 2004, 11:53 PM
Thank you! :hugz:

That was such a very long time ago, it seems.