Horrible nightmare about my mother

[Ziana]

I just woke up from a horrible dream. It started out with the old house I used to live in being flooded. Not from mother nature or anything but because of the water heater. it then switched to a dream about a woman on a date who is asked to babysit an adolescent son of a male friend of hers (asked to do so while on the date, by someone other than her date) then it switched to a bunch of people playing in water, and I remember thinking about how much I hate to be splashed in the face and dunked. Then someone came up to me and told me that the problem with the water heater that I thought I had fixed, was still broken and now the entire neighborhood was flooding because of it. I went back to the house with my husband and a couple of people I obviously knew well in the dream, but in actuallity the woman is a passing aquaintance of mine, and the man I don't know at all. When we get there I find that two books have been delivered in the mail. One to a friend of mine, and another to me. The house that I used to live in is about three hours from where I live now, but all the people in the dream are ones I met after I moved, and have no connection to the old town. Anyway, I remember thinking 'wow, my mom wrote a book before she died". Why I assumed it was from my mother at that point I don't know. I only remember 'knowing' that there was a connection between the book itself and my new town. (Both towns were mentioned specifically at some point before this, and both tied into recieving this particular piece of mail.) So when I opened up the packaging it turns out the book was a Junie B. Jones book. (Childrens book series). But when I opened the book there are words highlighted in yellow throughout the book. The words highlighted spell out a story of their own, saying that 'he did what he had to do" and that she was 'tied up and put in the trunk of the car and driven around for many hours'. At this point I remember my husband in the dream putting his arms around me and crying with me, and my thinking that I had to get back to my kids and see that they were safe. Something in real life woke me up a moment and when I went back to sleep the same dream continued, only this time i only found out that the flooding problem was not because the water heater broke, but that someone had tampered with it.

At this point my real life baby woke me up. I took care of her and couldn't get my mind off this horrible dream. After I awoke it took me awhile to remember that I was told she died in a car accident, but then I remembered the little fact that I really only have my brothers word that that is how it happened. I never saw a body either because my brother had her cremated so fast. For the past ten years I have often dreamt that my mother was actually still alive, but this is the first time that I have dreamt of her being murdered. Odd how sometimes people who are only trying to save their little sister from seeing the results of their mothers fatal car wreck only serve to keep that person from getting closure.

I tried to wake my husband up to get a little comfort, but got no where. he just got up to use the restroom and then went back to sleep. All the while I am sitting there with tears running down my face. I don't really know which situation upsets me more.

Thanks. I really needed to get this off my chest and written down.