Another Candle

[Flar's Freyja]

Mother, please protect this precious gift you have given me as he enters the physical space which is intended to bring healing but exposes him to risks of new illnesses and pain.

Guide and protect all who are there to care for him and energize his medicines to perform their intended tasks effectively. Wrap him in your arms and shield him from all harm. Let the love that you and I have for him pervade every single cell, strengthening and healing his body and energizing his will.

I am grateful to you for every new day that you choose to bless me with his light.

As I will, I make it so. So mote it be.

[Faery-Wings]

So mote it be!

[Old Witch]

So mote it be!!

[WandererInGray]

*soft smile*

So it is said. So it is done.

[Flar's Freyja]

It has begun already, he burns with fever. While I am grateful that his body can still fight, it breaks my heart to see him in any kind of pain. Mother, be with my love this night and bring healing with the dawn's sweet light.

[MammaStar]

So mote it be!

[WtchyChick13]

So mote it be. :)

[Flaire-FireStar]

(((((Freyja))))) :heartthro

Great Mother, please watch over him. Wrap him in your arms and keep him from harm. So mote it be.

[Flar's Freyja]

I light his candle on my altar and notice the two holey stones that we found together one afternoon, and it strikes me that one of them should be with him. I will bring it with me tomorrow after charging it with Reiki.

Mother, you helped me work through my fear and go forward, and I am many times blessed. You know that my greatest fear was my own lack of belief in miracles, and you also helped me to confront that.

Tonight I am angry and I am filled with fear. The only drug that could have a substantial effect on this thing is one that he can not take. He accepts this, and he accepts and tolerates all that he has to go through. But I refuse to accept it and I refuse to believe that you would give us this just to take it away.

I am grateful for the miracle of our love and the healing that he has brought me and I know that I should be satisfied with that, but I need to see a miracle for him. Let my will be your will.

So Mote It Be.

[Flar's Freyja]

He's better today. Thank you. Another one of my emotional crises has passed, and I thank you for not letting this one last too long. Thank you for the strength that You have given me thus far, and thank You for all that I am learning about myself. Thank you for light and laughter and letting me hold him all night long to wake up next to him.

This, when I thought I would never love again, is the most powerful love I have ever felt other than what I feel for my sons and it strengthens with every second I spend with him.

Blessed Be

[Flar's Freyja]

Thank You for another day and a lighter heart.

Blessed Be

[Faery-Wings]

Blessed Mother, keep Freyja and Flar wrapped in your arms. Keep them safe and healthy and strong.

So mote it be.

[Flar's Freyja]

Thank You for long talks late at night and for allowing me the honor of taking care of Your precious child. Thank You for letting me trust again so that I can feel the joy of opening myself completely to another person. Thank You for a love that grows stronger every day. Thank You for shared meals, friends and pets. This abundance that you have filled my life with is worth more than any material thing that I could possibly desire.

Thank You for loving me enough to use me. Continue to guide me to do whatever is necessary to heal him.

So Mote It Be

[Flar's Freyja]

Mother, Sister, Friend, I asked You to be with us and you are there. Our love is intensifying every day and we share the joy of so many mundane things. Thank you for the love encircling all of us these past few days. Thank you for the love and friendship that is developing between me and his mother.

Thank You for being with me to soothe my heavy heart. I was so disappointed today when I found that the job I interviewed for pays so little money, and I am grateful that I can hear Your voice telling me that I am worth more than that. Please continue to guide me in this endeavor. Please provide work that is satisfying and beneficial to others that does not take so much energy from me that I have none left for those I love.

So Mote It Be.

[Faery-Wings]

Mother, please help Freyja find a job that pays her well, she deserves only the best. And keep her and flar in your love too.

So mote it be.

[Flar's Freyja]

Thank you for guiding me to find something very special in an unlikely place today, Mother. Thank you for getting me through a job interview with a slamming head and a sick stomach.....

I'm becoming so frustrated, and wondering if I am not overqualified for some of these positions. I'm worried that employers may hire someone with lesser qualifications to save money, and I'm tired of submitting resumes and receiving no response. I don't know how I'm going to get through this month.

You have always provided and I will continue to trust You.
So Mote It Be.

[Flar's Freyja]

Thank You for small rewards and blessings. The time that I spent with my son yesterday was precious. He has grown into a fine young man and it is so wonderful to be able to relate to him as a friend as well as my child.

Please relieve the headache that I have had for two weeks, which is interfering with my energy level so that I can do what needs to be done. Continue to guide me and help me to understand the dreams and omens that You have given me recently. Help me to act upon them according to Your will.

Blessed Be.

[morgainne]

Freya
I'm sorry for your pain and that of your true love. Please accept the reiki I send you both

With Love
Blessed Be
Morgainne

[Kahlan]

Mother/Father

Bless these two people who you have given one of the greatest gifts, that of love. May it thrive in their hearts and bring with it a life full of happiness and many blessing.

Blessed Be

[Flar's Freyja]

Mother, while listening to an old Wendy Rule tape in the car tonight you told me that you are here.......I've been drawing closer to you for the past few weeks because I'm in one of my freeze frames. I feel so overwhelmed that I can't get anything accomplished, and I'm feeling somewhat depressed. Tonight I was reminded of the reasons I am stressed and it was pointed out to me that I don't like to look at the fact that the man that I love has a chronic illness. Thank you for omitting the "fatal" part. Yes, I don't like to look at it, but I've been through several crises and every time I think I've worked through it, here it is again. Please show me what to do to deal with this, because I now realize that it's lurking there underneath all of the happiness. I need your help and guidance because no matter what kind of pain this brings, I am not going anywhere. I need your strength to face whatever comes.

I want many, many years with him and I realize that this may not happen, but I also know that focusing on the negative will not bring peace and will cause me to miss the joy and blessings of each precious moment. Thank you for hearing my request.

Blessed Be.

So Mote It Be.

[Flar's Freyja]

Mother, thank You for his sweetness, his stability and the comfort that he gives me so easily. I have never felt so supported by my partner in any relationship.

I didn't get the job that I applied for and I've been in tears on and off all day, but it's not really because I wanted it that badly. In fact, I had some reservations about some things it would involve. I'm feeling depressed and discouraged in that I can't seem to get excited about any job that I've seen. You know that my life has changed and I have many issues to consider now and that I need a job that will fit in with the new developments in my life. This past year has helped my health improve quite a bit and I am worried that a long commute or a high stress position would only cause my health to deteriorate again. I need what little energy that I do have more than ever now.

Please open my mind to be aware of any opportunities that I should pursue. You have always provided and I trust that You will do so now.

Blessed Be.

[Flar's Freyja]

Mother, thank You for lightening my heart today. I know that I need to be specific in what I ask of you, so this is my list of requirements for a job:

It has to be within decent driving distance from my new residence
The salary has to be enough to support my son and contribute to living with my partner, a minimum of $30,000 per year
It has to be low stress and leave me enough time and energy to care for my love so that his health can continue to improve
I have to have a job within the next week, no later than October 15, 2002
It has to utilize my skills even if it's not within my degreed profession

This is my most pressing need today. I'm having difficulty seeing money flow to me although I know You have always provided. My depression has reared its ugly head and I am having difficulty raising energy.

Thank You for hearing your daughter. Blessed Be.

So Mote It Be

[Flar's Freyja]

Mother, Sister:

You have presented quite a few career possibilities in the last few days! You are quite the tough chess player, and now I am confused as to which way to go. I know that you will continue to guide me. Thank you for the joy that fills my heart as you remind me that I am never alone. In every fiber of my being, I know that something good and right is coming and I hail you for bringing me such blessings.

As I look upon my friend, soulmate and lover as he sleeps, my heart is warmed by his light. Each day he fights his own battle with his body and yet he shares his strength with me, holding me up when I can barely walk another step. He loves me when I look tired and have a rash of bumps on my face, he loves me when I am weak and he loves me when I am having a hard time loving myself. Never have I known what it is to be truly and unconditionally loved. Hail Freyja, who claimed me one year ago and has protected and blessed me despite my own failings.

Bless and heal this gentle man, who brings joy to so many. Is that you, Mother, in the cats that cuddle with him as I write? Thank you for allowing me to watch him play with them with the gentleness and innocence of a little boy and thank you for the honor of being with someone who has the wisdom of an elder with the wonder of a child. Every minute that I spend with him makes me long to be with him for every second of the rest of our lives.

I see You in the sun and I know that the darkness is over. You have promised me the dawn and I can feel its closeness. I look forward to seeing Your face in the sunrise.

Hail Freyja!

[Flar's Freyja]

Mother and Father,

Every day I work at appreciating our bliss and not focusing on the negative but I am constantly reminded that this awful beast is there. These last few days, I gaze upon my love and am filled with admiration for his strong spirit. He accepts all that he has to deal with and flows along with it, never complaining. He loves life. I love the smile that flashes across his face whenever he begins sharing his many stories with me. He makes me laugh. He worries about me when his own body is attacking or failing him. I look at him and am filled with great love and fear at the same time. What will I do when You take him from me? How can I know how much time you will bless us with? How can I allow myself to become so close to someone knowing more than I would in a relationship without this cloud that I will lose him someday? Every moment with him is a precious memory, where will I ever find room to store them all to draw upon them?

He never complains, so much so that when we are so happy his pain sometimes goes to the back of my mind. If I did not go to his doctor's appointments with him each month, I would never know everything that is going on. We had our first argument over that yesterday. When he hurts, he simply lets it draw him in and stays there until it's over. I do what makes sense to do but I feel so very helpless. Please, please guide me, sharpen my intuition and show me how I can best help him. Most of all, remove the cause of his pain. If he has to live with this thing, please let him live with it in a way that allows him to continue living such a full life. I want him with me for a very long time and I will be here no matter how bad it gets, so I need Your strength and guidance.

Thank You for this love, that he becomes more beautiful to me with each passing day, that my heart's desire has been fulfilled and that I no longer have to doubt love in this sense. Thank you for all of the blessings that have come out of challenging times, especially my sons. Thank you for all of the blessings that are to come.

So Mote It Be.

[Flar's Freyja]

Mother, Sister,

I run to your loving arms so that you may soothe my aching spirit as I reflect on the emotions rising from my soul over a very small issue. Forgive my harsh thoughts and allow me to understand the way I myself wish to be understood. Cleanse my mind and heart as I open it to your wisdom.

Thank you for granting him some respite this afternoon. I am in awe of your love every time I'm blessed with his sweet smile. I let myself flow into the healing darkness and use this time for cleansing and rebirth. I welcome the darkness and its power. With gratitude I accept the energy that is available these next few nights and I am secure in the love that you and the gods surround me with now.

Blessed Be

[Flar's Freyja]

Mother, Sister, Father, Brother....

This would be almost funny if it weren't so difficult to go through......it seems that I lose it about once a month, right before New Moon....or maybe he gets sick once a month, or says something that makes me think too much once a month.......

Then we have one of our late night talks, I end up in tears, he comforts me, he feels guilty and I feel worse for making him feel that way...........and then I feel a little better until next time......Maybe it's healthy for me to release this now and then but what it puts him through is not fair. I'm asking you for the strength to control myself and release this appropriately whenever it comes up. I have come to know the love of the god through this man, another blessing that is so new to me in this life.

I worry that every time he gets sick, his body is a bit more weakened and this is going to take a few more minutes, days or hours off his life. I'm doing my best to live in the present and love and appreciate every minute You give me to spend with him but I can't seem to keep that shield built up. It's not very strong and it doesn't take much to knock it down again.

The blessings are far more abundant than the pain and I have made a choice to be here, a choice that I would not change. The thought of what I will do when he is gone is so frightening and painful and You know the reasons for this. I have waited all my life for a love like this, a love that in my wildest dreams I never thought was possible.......and never expected someone so awesome and special to come along with it. His light is so beautiful.

I am inspired and motivated to return to serious study and practice and I thank you for giving me the vehicle that is the right one for me right now. I thank you for the darkness both in my heart and in the physical world. I withdraw into my cave with Sister Bear and look forward to a long hibernation until the return of the light.

[Flar's Freyja]

Just for today, I will drop my standards. I will not do anything for anyone that is not specifically requested. I will not invest energy into performing in a way that I assume is expected with the understanding that the rest of the world's standards are not on the same level with mine. I will drop resentment for lack of appreciation for things I've done that nobody asked me to do in the first place.

Just for today, I will give myself permission to be less than my own perfect standards.

I give myself permission to Just Be.

[Flar's Freyja]

Crone Mother,

I am chilled to the bone yet exhilarated. Thank You for the honor of assisting in setting up Your altar at public ritual tonight, cleansing the members of the circle, and calling the quarters. Thank you for the night, the clouds, the brisk air, the unity of the few who braved the weather to attend, the laughter and the learning. How beautiful to hear my dear friend sing his invocation to the West, to feel the energy flow through our hands, to send it where it is needed - to my loved ones and to those I have not met. It seems like it has been so long.......I am balanced, centered and renewed.

Tonight is just the beginning of our work together and I remain between the worlds. Such a magickal time for me......for it was two years ago this night that You claimed me as Your child in such a powerful way that I knew in every fiber of my being that I am Yours. Only two years.......yet I feel that I have been with You always.

"For I have been with you from the beginning, and I am that which is attained at the end of desire".

I know.

Blessed Be.

[Flar's Freyja]

Let not my discouraged heart cause me to stop giving of myself. Let me remember that Your blessings are unseen and unexpected.

So Mote It Be

[Flar's Freyja]

Thank You.

[Demonictrinity]

So mote it be always

[Mythrel]

So Mote It Be

[Flar's Freyja]

Ancestor Spirits,

Thank you for old friends and new friends. Thank you for the balance and reconciliations you have given in the last few days. Thank You for being with me in ritual, for allowing me to feel Your presence all around me in such a powerful way, for healing me and comforting me.

Mother and Father,

Please help my friend get through this difficult time and the long road ahead. It took so much courage for him to do what he is doing and lose everything in the process. Despite it all, he looks so well and happy and I know that he has made the right choice. Forgive me for being judgemental and not recognizing what was happening over a year ago when our friendship became distant. I know in my heart that what went on between us was part of the beginning of the changes taking place in his life. Thank you for the blessing I received when his eyes returned love and trust again to me last night. He will need you both more than ever for a long time. It was You who brought him to this place, I know this now. Continue to give strength to all who are supporting him through this time that they may also be there for him as long as he needs them. Let him be accepted and warmly welcomed wherever he goes in this community. His courage is awesome.

Please heal her heart also. Their relationship was so special, to see it dissolved in such a way hurts all of us who love both of them. Please see that she doesn't stay away forever because of this. We miss her and we need her sweet spirit and strong energy. We have all learned so much from her.

>sigh< And as for me, please strengthen my will and resolve, make Your will my will. Help me stop disappointing myself. Give me the energy to act on all I know that I must do so that this difficult time will come to an end. Thank you for the insight that You have given me and help me act on it. Guide me to where I need to go.

So Mote It Be.

[WtchyChick13]

So mote it be. :)

[Flaire-FireStar]

:heartthro So mote it be :heartthro

[Flar's Freyja]

:) Thank You for caring friends and the focus that you helped me achieve yesterday. I feel good that I spent time sending applications to every company I could think of. It is encouraging when they at least send an acknowledgement that they have received the application. This is better than I've done so far. I am trusting that the perfect job is on its way to me.

Thank you for getting me here safely last night in the darkness and the rain, and thank You that the small animal that ran across the road got to the other side safely. I've hit two of Your creatures on that road this summer and I ask that You continue to protect both me and the animals as darkness increases with the turn of the wheel.

Thank You for quality time with my son and his girlfriend last night and thank You that I found out that my client's check bounced before it was too late......although I am disappointed that I have less money than I thought I did. Let me take this day to be with my love and give him my full attention, as I had trouble shifting gears and relaxing last night. Thank You for allowing him to be in my life. I love this man so much and I am so very blessed.

Blessed Be.

[Flar's Freyja]

Yabo, Yabo, Yabo
Hey Hey
Etundewa!

Hail to the Lord and Lady and WhooHoo! Thank You for the inspiration that I received this morning, while reading someone else's work. I've been moved to write for years, have actually started a book three or four times and it never felt right. Now I know exactly what I need to write and I am so fired up! Right now, I make a commitment to You and myself to spend at least four hours per week working on this project. Thank You and Blessed Be.

Thank You for being with me during a cleansing and house blessing ritual today and thank You for this precious man who sleeps near me, for his beautiful light and presence in my life.

All is well.

So Mote It Be.

[Flar's Freyja]

Mother, Father, Sister,

Thank You for another job lead today and forgive my fear of yet another disappointment. I did what I needed to do and need to let it go at that. Last night, You gave me a dream that told me to be ready to drop everything for an interview. I commit myself to being prepared for this and fully expect that You will provide this opportunity.

Thank You that my heart does not feel quite so heavy today and that I will be able to spend another day with my love.

Please help me with this financial issue. I don't know why my client chose not to show up to make good on his check. I am looking at this in a positive manner. Since he failed to show without explanation, I can fairly charge an additional fee, so You have allowed me to make money for very little work. Bless and protect me as I travel this night. As always, give my love health, strength and breath and bless us with many years together.

So Mote It Be

[WtchyChick13]

Please be with her.

So mote it be. :)

[MagickHLHgurl]

Mother father be with my dear friend as she walks throug her life. Keep her head and spirits high.

So Mote It Be.

[Flaire-FireStar]

Mother, watch over Freyja. Please, keep her spirits up,

so mote it be

[Flar's Freyja]

Thank you for loving and caring friends. Bless and protect all of them, always.

Okay, I admit it. I have stress. As much as I try to have faith and be trusting, there is reality. I have no real job and Yule is coming. I have lost count of how many resumes I have sent out with no response. Although this year I will not waste my money on gifts for extended family as I have learned my lesson, I do want to give to my boys. They're old enough to understand this type of thing now but it means a lot to me to be able to materially show them how much I love them. The bills are piling up. I'm still having a battle with my youngest son and now he's gotten himself into financial trouble. I am feeling very negative, easily offended and I can't get excited about anything; when I do, it's very short-lived. And of course there's that other fear that's always in the back of my mind that I spend a lot of energy trying not to focus on..........

The black candle burns and with it I banish poverty, negativity and all obstacles.

So Mote It Be.

Dammit.

[Flar's Freyja]

Good Morning, Mother,

At least there were some responses this morning; someone who doesn't have an opening but at least answered and another that is a two hour drive. Still, they are an indication that I'm not completely wasting my time.

Giggling, I pluck wheat out of the flowerbed that has nourished and supported nothing but one lone iris in five years. You really do have a sense of humor. Not only is this a sign that You do the unusual and impossible, it is such fitting Thanksgiving decor for my yard. I've placed it as an offering at my altars in both houses. The ivy that I planted in that bed also died, but ivy began growing in another flowerbed where it wasn't even planted........and our next-door neighbor just gave us a pretty trellis that he was going to throw away. I've gotten another month of free online service and the rep that I spoke to also gave me some leads on where to look for employment, so You are speaking to me in Your unexpected, loving ways.

Thank You for bringing me here safely again last night. Is my night vision improving or is it just that I replaced that headlight? I actually believe it is the former, thank You - because it looks like I'll be doing a lot of night driving for a long time. Thank You for snuggles and sacred union and laughter and a good night's sleep and the sunshine that brightens my day.

Blessed Be!

[Flar's Freyja]

Mother, Sister,

The emotions are going up and down again, and it doesn't help that I'm not feeling that great. My legs hurt when I move them and that's usually sign that my back is getting ready to give me major trouble......but I haven't had a smoking relapse and I'm grateful for that.

Please bless and protect Flar's dad as he travels today and tonight. We enjoyed his visit, thank you for letting that happen. Please watch over my son 24/7. There's nothing I can do about the stupidity of his youth and his stubbornness and I refuse to get my stomach into a knot again like I did the other night. Thank You that my oldest is doing so well. Bless the middle one and my growing grandbaby. I have faith that You will provide the opportunity and means for me to be able to meet him or her face to face in the near future.

Please renew my faith in a positive employment situation. We made holiday arrangements in faith and trust that I will be employed by Yule and unable to take time off to travel.

Thank you for Your many blessings and guidance.

So Mote It Be.

[Nissala]

so mote it be

[Flar's Freyja]

Mother, You Rock!

And please forgive my insecurity. I just got another call for referral for my services and I'm meeting with an attorney tomorrow. So many times these referrals haven't materialized into work, and I'm nervous. Please give me the confidence to trust You.

Help me work through my dilemma of possibly being able to work full time and not knowing what to do now. You know my deepest heartfelt desire to be with my love, have time to write my book and be able to pay the bills.

The energy and love that I felt during my working last night was incredible and I thank You for being here with me. Watch over me as I travel tonight and as always, fill my love's body with your healing energy and light.

And please watch over my cat, Buddy. He's wheezing really bad and I'm not sure what's causing it, hairballs or the fact that he's getting so fat.

So Mote It Be.

[AmbivalentMirage]

Mother Shekhinah, be with Freyja and grant her peace. Mother Geburah, also be with Freyja and assure justice in her favor. Lastly, Father Hesod, lavish her with mercy and love in this situation. Above all, HaShem, grant her the desires of her heart and guide her in this step. So mote it be.

[Flar's Freyja]

Hail Freyja, Hail Odin, Hail Thor!

To You, Sister Freyja, for love and youthful energy, To You, Father Odin for wisdom and comfort and to You, My Dear Friend Thor, thank You. I received a call this morning for a job that I didn't expect to hear about for a few weeks, the full-time job that has health benefits that I need, and the salary is decent. Please be with me this afternoon as I speak with an attorney about prospective work, and thank You for the call I received yesterday about even more prospects for freelance work. I smile at Your sense of humor and I trust that this will work out to the benefit of all concerned. Mother Hekate, I know that you are with me at this crossroads and will point my face in the right direction.

Mother Selene, thank You for fueling the creative fire. I am full of ideas for my book and although it may take quite some time to finish it, (I already plan to completely re-work the first piece that I wrote) I feel secure that it will be perfect.

Thank you for the energy of the past few nights that I have been able to put into my workings. Thank You for the glorious light that lit my way as I traveled last night and chanted as You rode before, behind and alongside me:

Hail to Thee, O Jewel of the Night
Hail to Thee, O Lady of the Heavens
Hail to Thee, O Jewel of the Night
Hail to Thee, O Queen of the Stars,
Hail to Thee, O Jewel of the Night
Hail to Thee, O Mother of the World

Blessed Be!

So Mote It Be

[Flar's Freyja]

Gracious Mother,

I enjoyed your light again last night as I drove through the velvet night, so beautiful. Thank You for being with me in my interview today, for letting me accomplish so much. I want the job, but I won't get hung up in the outcome. If it is Your will, it will happen. I also feel incredibly motivated toward really putting energy into my freelance services. I guess I got so discouraged that I stopped doing that.

Bless and protect my boys as they live their lives. Thank You for giving them to me. My love is not doing well. He is so tired. Please give his body the energy to fight the sickness that is trying to knock him down. Renew his body, mind and spirit as he sleeps here next to me.

Be with my friends tomorrow as they welcome new life!

Blessed Be.

[WtchyChick13]

Please let you light guide my friend in the right direction.


So mote it be. :)

[Flar's Freyja]

Gracious Mother and Father,

Thank You for giving me some time to spend with you these past few days. Thank You for wonderful friends that want to help, and thank You for the money that comes in to meet my need just as I need it most. I'm still confused as to which direction to take and will just flow with whatever You send my way. At this point I at least have hope that I can dream what often seems to be the impossible. The money that's come in this week is again just enough to get me by and for this I am grateful, but my car is in need of repair and property taxes need to be paid. I continue to trust that You will also meet those needs.

I'm in need of good health right now. These allergies have turned into a bad cold and I can handle what's going on right now but it will be difficult to handle more. I ask that You stop this where it is, even if it doesn't improve quickly. As always, fill my love's body with strength and healing and thank You for leading me to him. Thank You for my wonderful sons, especially the one who lives with me and often worries me. Please protect them all as they follow their own paths. Blessed be.

So Mote It Be

[Flar's Freyja]

Gracious Mother and Father,

As usual, I know what is wrong with me and I will give myself some slack in that I do have many stresses and obstacles to get through. If only I didn't have to keep up a second residence......this is becoming more and more difficult to deal with. I thought that when I opened myself back up to a full-time job, one would come through but it hasn't. I feel stuck and frozen and can't seem to do everything I need to be doing. The situation seems hopeless in that there is nothing I can do to change the situation. I want to just let this house go and be out from under it. This is going to cause ongoing stress that is going to detract from what should be the happiest time in my life. And we already know that this time may be very short and I'm having trouble dealing with that. I know that I have choices, but in this situation there is no choice. Turning my back and walking away is totally out of the question.

Thank you for the extra money that came in this month, but as usual, it isn't enough. I haven't balanced my anger enough yet to truly be sorry for going off on someone yesterday but I do ask your forgiveness. I'm having a hard time justifying this person's behavior as just doing her job, because there is still no excuse. I intend to file a formal complaint and this is difficult when no one at that company will provide information as to how to do that, but I will find it.

Show me what to do because I am lost.

Blessed Be

[Flar's Freyja]

:D

Please forgive my evil giggle and smugness - but I just found out that this company has had a complaint filed against them in the state of West Virginia and were sanctioned.......

Thank You, and Blessed Be.

[Flar's Freyja]

Gracious Mother,

I've not only accepted that I may have to go back to work for the state....I'm actually looking forward to it if it's meant to be. Running into several ex-co-workers the other day and being back in the building made me realize that I do miss them. Understandable after spending five years there. I am grateful for the ones that are trying to help me find a position where I won't have to deal with the stresses that I did before. I know that You will guide the situation.

Thank you for getting me here safely last night in the dark of the moon and the freezing rain, and thank You that I have someone who loves me so much that he makes it all go away......

Blessed Be

[Flar's Freyja]

Gracious Mother,

I remain in my constant state of confusion.......I've done some desperate workings over the past few weeks which have manifested in winning a little money gambling and my son giving me some rent money of his own free willl as well as some extra work. When these kinds of things happen, I feel that there may not be a need for me to return to work full time.......and based on my lifestyle and schedule for the past week and this week to come, a full time job will simply not fit in.

A few weeks ago, You gave me the gift of knowing that I need to write and what I need to write about. How cool is was to go to Women's Circle and be offered my choice of a huge selection of books and tools for writers that had been donated, including a very expensive set of tapes that I'd seen in a catalog, wanted and could not afford. Help me find the time and discipline to finish what I have started.

Thank You for filling me with gratitude for the ones I love and appreciation of the little things that they do that might get on my nerves but will be the things that I love and remember most about them should they be gone someday. Thank You for reminding me that this respiratory thing that I've got would have been much worse if I'd been regularly smoking.

Thank You for drawing me ever closer to You and for the new burst of energy and hope that I've had recently despite being sick. Apparently, that antidepressant was not the right one for me, and it is very possible that I don't need that type of medication any more. It seems that working part time has benefited my emotional and psychological health as well as my physical health.

Please wrap your arms around my Lil Sis and so many friends as they go through dark times. Fill my love's body with your brilliant light as he again goes into the place that has the potential of harming as well as healing him. Thank You for always being with me.

Blessed Be

[Flar's Freyja]

Gracious Mother,

I light a candle for my brother today on his birthday. I do not know where he is or what he is doing. I send him peace and healing and hope for the future.

Things have gone so well in the past few weeks and I feel more energized and motivated. But at this moment my heart is breaking because my love is sick and with fever and I can not be with him tonight. I have not been able to stay away for the past week and the long list of things that need doing have been neglected and will continue to be neglected, because I don't intend to stay away any more than I have to. The coming week or two will be worse because I have now added driving back to his house every few days to check on the kitties......while I am not resentful at all about the extra load and responsibilities, I worry that things will blow up eventually. You know me, Mother, Taurus that I am......I stuff and swallow and push aside and suddenly blow up at nothing. Why does there not ever seem to be enough time in each day? Why do I feel like it's all getting away from me at times?

Leaving him today was so hard. His words tell me it's all right but this heart of mine that is so bonded to his tells me otherwise. And this heart breaks when I can not be there for him. I could hear his pain in his voice on the phone tonight and I just want to cry.

I am angry, angry, angry. I hate cystic fibrosis. I hate it and I want it to go away and I want him to be well. I will Your brilliant white healing light to permeate every cell in his body and heal him. Show me a miracle.

As I will, So Mote It Be.

[Flar's Freyja]

Gracious Mother,

Things are moving, in many ways. More calls for work, a letter from my sister, changes in my love's health and my soul. I feel more motivated and I hail the energy of Isa which has served its purpose and is now moring with some force. I believe more in my dreams and abilities and thank You for the messages You have sent to increase this energy. I accidentally stopped taking the antidepressant and am not afraid to hope that I no longer need it, since I seem to feel so much better.

I know that I am strong and can handle whatever comes. Thank You for being with me in my time of darkness, despair and weakness, You are always there to hold me up and I am never alone. You shower me with gifts and blessings in both worlds and I am grateful. You have given me a gift of healing to share and its power leaves me awestruck. Help me to continue to use it wisely for all who need it. I have a long list of plans and goals now - although they excite me it's a bit overwhelming but I know that these desires will manifest. I know that you will continue to push me along.

Thank You for whatever energy You are giving my son to make him so joyful and generous right now. His light and energy are as bright as the returning sun and it warms my soul to watch him have the life that every young person should be allowed to enjoy. Continue to guide and protect him always. And as always, thank you for sending my love to me. It's hard to believe that it's been nearly a year, and I look forward to all of the precious time You plan to bless us with.

So Mote It Be.

[Flar's Freyja]

Mother and Father,

Please forgive my pissy mood and ingratitude. You have blessed me with work and much-needed money - and a beautiful snow that has created complications. I've allowed myself to dwell on the negative aspects and I recognize this.......and today I will focus on the positive ones. Although I have been blessed with a new family and an awesome love, I do need to remember that my son needs to remain a priority. I thank you that this has created an opportunity for us to spend more quality time together.

Last night was quite the comedy - cats chasing ribbon and wrapping paper, one of them climbing up and breaking my favorite, irreplaceable cookie jar, my cutting myself trying to find all of the pieces, discovering that one of the gifts I bought needs to go back to the store and I'm snowbound, one of the cats throwing up.....my getting stressed and my son coming out to see what was wrong......and when he did, I laughed at myself. Thank You for that.

I know that the coming year is going to be one of the best of our lives, and I await your blessings with open arms and an open heart. Thank You for claiming me as Your child.

Blessed Be

[Flar's Freyja]

Mother and Father,

Please forgive my pissy mood and ingratitude. You have blessed me with work and much-needed money - and a beautiful snow that has created complications. I've allowed myself to dwell on the negative aspects and I recognize this.......and today I will focus on the positive ones. Although I have been blessed with a new family and an awesome love, I do need to remember that my son needs to remain a priority. I thank you that this has created an opportunity for us to spend more quality time together.

Last night was quite the comedy - cats chasing ribbon and wrapping paper, one of them climbing up and breaking my favorite, irreplaceable cookie jar, my cutting myself trying to find all of the pieces, discovering that one of the gifts I bought needs to go back to the store and I'm snowbound, one of the cats throwing up.....my getting stressed and my son coming out to see what was wrong......and when he did, I laughed at myself. Thank You for that.

I know that the coming year is going to be one of the best of our lives, and I await your blessings with open arms and an open heart. Thank You for claiming me as Your child.

Blessed Be

[Flar's Freyja]

Gracious Mother,

Please continue to help me nurture the energy and motivation that I've felt for the past few days. I know in my heart that the coming year is going to be much better and that I will be closer to achieving my dreams.....and may actually get to that goal.

Please wrap my love in your healing energy. He looks so tired, his breathing is not good and I am so worried about him. Please guide me toward what I need to be doing for him at this time.

Thank you for a wonderful Yule, for helping me recognize that I do provide a valuable service and that I should not feel guilty about charging money for it, for wonderful children, friends and family and for the opportunity to experience your awesome beauty through a sunset over miles and miles of snow early in the morning. If I had not had to work, I would have missed that. Thank you for reminding me that You are always there.

Blessed Be.

[Flar's Freyja]

Gracious Mother,

Thank You that he is better, and help me deal with my guilt over how he deteriorates when I'm not here. Give me the energy to get through these next few weeks, with all that has to be done. Help me set and organize my priorities. Help me with decisions regarding work. I'm really enjoying what I do, and I realized over the holidays just how valuable my service is. I just need to make enough money to pay the bills.....and take care of my health. Until I have insurance, please guide me in finding low or no cost health care. I thank You that I've done pretty well over this past year with no serious illnesses or injuries occurring - and that even with my fibromyalgia, I feel so much better than I did when I worked my previous job. Thank You that the natural treatments I have been trying have finally started to work, and it even shows in my looks. I haven't had symptoms for three days and for this I am so grateful.

Again, thank You for all of the blessings in my life, and the precious hours we spent together last night. It is so good to be in a relationship where there is so much love and just plain fun. I am having such a good time.

Blessed Be!

[Flar's Freyja]

Good Morning Mother,

I love to watch him sleep....and I love to wake up in the middle of the night to catch him looking at me. This love you have given me is more beautiful and romantic than anything I could have ever dreamed possible. I am becoming so excited about being heartjoined with this man. Please guide me in planning the most important ritual of our lives........

Thank you for my work this past week. I have realized how much I really enjoy it, and am finally recognizing how valuable my work is in serving others on several levels. I trust that if I continue to do what I love, the money will follow.

So Mote It Be

[Flar's Freyja]

Gracious Mother,

I am so in love! How sweet to drive to work with a smile on my face, my heart so warm and full of love, my mind full of visions of his sweet face and his light, my soul filled with the sound of his voice, constantly hearing the things he says to make me laugh.....

This man shows me what life really is, what is important and the meaning of abundance. He has so much to deal with every second of his life.....he accepts it, faces it, moves through it and moves on, never thinking of himself and bringing joy to everyone. He truly is my Joy Boy......

I never feel like I do enough for him. At least this morning I got my lazy self out of bed to go and get his medicine for him. He's so used to doing it all for himself, and I want to help, to make his life just a little easier, even if it's just walking a few feet and bringing him something so that he doesn't have to get it himself.

What a joy it is to know beyond any doubt that our life together will be perfect. His light, his love help me face whatever may come. Nothing worries me seriously any more, and for this I thank You.

I am so very blessed. Tonight I experienced even more joy, a simple supper with my son, good conversation and more love. What a wonderful adult he has grown up to be. He will always be my son, but he is also my friend and it is the most awesome feeling!

Blessed, blessed be!

[Flar's Freyja]

I'm worried about him. He's sleeping more than I've ever seen him sleep since I've known him and he hasn't gotten much better since he's been home from the hospital. He can't seem to get through the day at all. Although he looks better, I can't push aside the fear that he's getting worse. I remind myself that he did just receive a Reiki attunement and could be in the midst of a healing crisis. And I was so tickled when he rolled over after chest percussion the other night and said "I'll take my Reiki now." I'm looking forward to my III attunement. Help me to know and remember that I am a healer and help me to use my gift for its highest good.

It hasn't helped that I haven't felt well for the past few days - but I am thankful for the physical shift I've been having. I am grateful that I can still cycle despite a hysterectomy ten years ago and that I have been made aware of what a powerful time this is for me spiritually. Physically, I feel lousy but I am awed that I can still be part of the cycles of the moon and even more grateful that my moontime occurs at new instead of full moon. I know that the dreams I am having now are already manifesting.

Guide me to right choices in my career. Help me control my words and my temper tomorrow when I speak to the boss at the restaurant. I'm still very angry, and I wish that I could just walk out but that's not possible right now. I am ready to be out of there, and I ask that you replace this with something better.

It seems that our handfasting ritual is coming together and I am looking forward to celebrating our love with joy and magick.

So Mote It Be

[WtchyChick13]

Please be with these very, very special people during this time and surround them with your love and healing light.

So mote it be. ;)

[Flar's Freyja]

Gracious Mother,

Thank You, Thank You, Thank You for helping me keep my mouth shut. What a surprise to walk into work this morning to find out that the person who gave me my schedule had given me the wrong information and I had gotten upset for nothing - and it was very nice to sit down and have lunch with the manager today. I am always grateful for confirmations of spiritual and personal growth. Thank You for giving me the sanity and strength to control myself and not take any action - and for taking care of the situation Yourself, as you always do.

Thank You for my wonderful son, who is working around the house this afternoon. The work he is doing would cost me hundreds of dollars if it were done by a professional and I am so grateful that he is willing and able to do these things. Please continue to hold Him in your arms, especially if he should receive orders for deployment. I am so proud of his positive attitude. He is ready to go if necessary, but of course we'd both rather not have that happen.

Blessed Be.

[Flar's Freyja]

Beautiful, Benificent Mother ~

My mood has swung today from feeling that I can conquer the world to sinking despair ~ reality is sinking in and it was inevitable. I know that you will help me salvage what I can.......and I thank You that even though I feel like there's a brick in my stomach right now, my reaction is nowhere near what it would have been five, or even two, years ago.

I continue to trust You ~ but I petition You now for a great move of energy, that my financial needs will be met swiftly and completely. I refuse to lose hope and I refuse to let anyone steal my dream. It is time for me to claim the abundance that my family and I deserve. I accept that I am not meant to have a full time job. Help me make the most of the opportunities that are given to me now.

Thank You for my Love ~ he is my calm, beautiful sea, my hollow in the woods, the warmth of the arms of the gods. When we embrace under the ecstasy of Your grace, he is my warrior god and there is no illness or weakness. Thank You for the sweet light of my son, who brings joy to my heart even when I am frustrated with him. For wonderful, beautiful, amazing friends - who are all working to give us an unforgettable handfasting and all of those here who care so much.

Please wrap your arms around the friends who are also dealing with chronic pain, and especially my friend who is addicted to her prescription drugs. Heal all those who are also struggling with financial issues. I was floored by the sight of all of the businesses that I noticed have shut down as I drove through town this afternoon.

I know that you are all there for me - Freyja, Nike, Brighid, Fortuna, Lakshmi, Nemesis, Habunda and St. Terese'.......and more, for thousands of goddesses can dance on the head of a pin.............

So Mote It Be

[Flar's Freyja]

It has been a long time. I have written much but not directly to You. I should get back into the habit of getting up early and writing with pen and paper like I used to. I know that You and I are in constant dialogue, especially in the car, but I do miss this special way that we used to talk.

I feel so selfish and whiney. In the next room, he coughs and isn't feeling well and he deals with this every day and now has to deal with me and my moods too. I do thank You that I am not taking it out on him, but I know that he feels hurt and confused and thinks it's his fault.

Thank You for letting me have that little outburst in the car tonight - and that there were no other cars around so that I could yell and cry in peace. I needed that. Thank You for making me realize all that I have been carrying around. Rather than deal with my anger, I just walk away and this is just as bad as stuffing it. I need to tell my family how they have hurt me, how their actions have impacted my life. I know that they won't get it, but I need to get that out and in their faces. You know that I tried, I tried so hard not to be ashamed of them, embarrassed by them, but when it crossed over into my job, what I had worked so hard for, it was just too much.

Please help me break out of this depression. It's not doing me any good and is making things so much worse. This is the worst it's ever been, and it's even more difficult because I know what's wrong and I know what I need to do and I just can't seem to do it. But I also feel that i deserve a break, not only for myself but for him and his parents as well. We have all been through so much. I feel that no matter what I do, no matter how I try to make my life better, it stays stuck because something always seems to come along to detract from any progress I've made. I just can't take any more disappointment.

I ask You tonight for a healing dream, rest for my body and mind and renewal for the coming day. I have so much to be grateful for, I know that. Especially this new family, what amazing people his parents are. They deserve to be showered with gifts and blessings. Let me be part of that.

And thank you for the orders that I am receiving. It may not be a lot of money but it is a very nice boost.

Blessed Be.