The escape from Christianity...

[TheKingOfImmortality]

I am in tight spot.



I am an ex-Christian and I want to find a new path with other people but my old religon is holding me back. At the moment I cant drive and I cant aford a car. So I cant just simply go out and find Pagans, Buddhist, Hindus, Unitarins, ect or buy any new books about those religons with out my whole famliy knowing about it.

My famliy has never shown any respect to fact that I want to leave the Christain religon behind and there taking advatage of the fact that I cant drive and that I dont have alot close freinds in this new place we are living in. Every time I say I want to explore other paths my mother will go on about how there not going to welcom me and Jesus is the best.

I have wanted to buy books on islam, Wicca, Buddhism, Atheism, Hinduism, Humanism and few other groups but my famliy will not show any respect to any of these.

When I bought a Koran my mom fliped and years before my sister try to by books on Wicca/Paganism and she threw them out whe she discoverd them.

I have bin able to sneak a few books on Buddhism and Hindusim in, but I want to MEET Buddhist and Hindus. I want to go into a Moss, see a wiccan covnet, a buddhist meditaion center, hindu tempal, ect. but my famly only want me to try out the new Presbyterian Church they have found. I did want to go, (at frist) just to meet people but its clear they want me to be a member. Now I am not going at all.

My step father has never shown any respect to my views on religon (even when I was a Christian) my mom think Jesus is best way to go so I am wasting my time with ideas of atcully trying to make freinds face to face with the Pagans, Buddhist, Hindus, Muslims, ect.

I feel like every one I know has turned against me since I have admited that I no longer belive in Christ. (and the christian religon was not helping me, it was making life worse for me, and still is) I want to meet people with out them knowing it yet and I want to have my own books on wicca, Hinduism, buddhism, Atheism ect. But there seems to be no way out.

I need a car of my own, I need these people, I need these book, I need my own place to go, I need to escape from Christainty once and for all.

[Cloaked Raven]

Energy and warm thoughts sent. May you finally get to meet others who walk the same path you do. :hugz:

[LadyLuthien]

I have never really been in this situation myself given that my mother didn't raise me under any belief system. But my boy friend's whole family is Christian. Aside from two of his sisters and himself. His younger sister is 16 and she's doing a lot of exploring just as you want to. My advice is that you should go take the bus out to the mall and go to the book store. Spend hours there reading. That's what I did when I was first starting to look. I am 22 myself and I don't have a car either. Finding people to talk with and information is really hard when you can't really get around well enough yourself. But you're my age. You should be able to make choices for yourself. If your family's faith doe snot fit you, than so be it. If you explore and find that it does some how, than that's fine too. It never hurts to look.

Life wouldn't be so vast if we were not meant to explore.

[Nitefalle]

I agree with Lady Luthien - are you able to take the bus anywhere? You only have a few close friends, you said - are they able to give you a ride anywhere? A book store would be a good idea because at least there you could chat up anyone else you found in the Metaphysical section.

Now, I don't know your situation that well, but were I you, I would be asserting my adulthood all over the place. You are 22 - they don't really have a choice as to what you want to believe or read or where you want to hang out. Granted, your choices are a bit limited due to lack of wheels, but as for the rest, that doesn't mean you couldn't take control of at least your private living space and/or bedroom. Put a lock on the door.