What do I do?

[TheKingOfImmortality]

I dont come to religous website as much as I use to and I think its becasue somthing went wrong in my spirtaul path. I was brought into the whole subject threw Christainty and there is one person I give much cretete to opening me up to a speritual life. I latter rejected the religon and much latter on watch my freind relived that she was involed with somthing that reminded me of a cult. She wanted me to reject a college level biology class out of fear it would teach evolution, belived islreal comes from God, ect. The problem I am having now is that now that I can see the women who got me to fall in love with the wrold of religon in the frist place is actully an extreamist is there any reason for me to keep exploring? How do I know that faith is not somthing harmful after just watching my old friend who got me to have faith to begin with showe me why it is harmfull?


How do I know the things that I thought were God or whatever you call it effecting my life were not simply made up in my own head?

[Sequoia]

Man, I am so right there with you. I've been RIGHT exactly where you are.

When I was first introduced to paganism, it was through a little close-knit cult-like group that my new (then) boyfriend was a part of. I "learned" so many things about psychic stuff, and "past lives" that I supposedly had, and some seriously messed up energy work...

After I finally got out of it all, and it took years to get out of, I ended up going through just what you're going through. Was ANY of it real?! Was anything to do with paganism REAL, or VALID? I went through some serious soul searching, and ended up rejecting just about all of it.

I'm very, very slowly easing my way back into spirituality as a whole, and paganism in general.

I can't offer you much advice, but to do some soul-searching. Lots of it. Take time with yourself and ask your very spirit what feels true. Not what someone else tells you is true; not what you're overly excited about. But the quiet truths that only your spirit can reveal to you.

In my own opinion, there is truth in the Divinity. Call it God, or Goddess, by names or by nouns, address them or speak of them... I think that it/they exist(s).

Bottom line is, you've got to ask that quiet part of your soul just what it believes in. Start with one thing. "I Believe in God." In which god? How? How do you know? What do you feel that tells you it is right?

Follow the feeling of your quiet spirit self. Ask yourself questions, answer randomly and without forethought, and listen to the answers you give.

And know that you're not alone. :hugz: