The Ancient Tree

[PeleRising]

October 5 2002

In the center of the valley is an enormous tree…. I walk towards it… the grass and flowers brushing against my bare legs, and catching at the hem of my knee length shift. I push my hand through my hair and hear bracelets of silver and amethyst ring in the quiet stillness. My pace quickens as I approach The Tree…Home at last… I smooth my hands over the bark of the trunk… and then swiftly climb to its lower branches. I wrap my arms around the tree…my tears of sorrow and joy mingling and honoring the beloved… “thank you for my blessings O Great Ones….thank you for the gift of my help-mate, soul-mate, and best friend. Thank you for the gift of our daughters… as trying as they may be *sigh*, I truly do love them and am so thankful to have them in my life. Thank you for the family that surrounds us… giving us love and strength… I thank you for being there for me… and for calling “awaken and see!” Thank you for the gift of your wind (which called to me first)… that refreshes me and reminds me that change can be a good thing, thank you for your rain… that reminds me that all can begin anew… thank you for the warmth and light of your sun…. that reminds me that in everything there must be balance… dark to light… and thank you for the land… from which life flows and is nourished. I am grateful for so many things…but I am sad too. I feel the return of my depression… and fear it. I am scared that I will return to that woman I once was… I am not sure what is bringing this on…I feel such great loneliness… even in the midst of a busy family and a new job. Please help me to find my way … help me to gain the courage to face and overcome this … If this is my path to walk alone… a journey of learning… so be it… I will take the path with as much courage as I can gather… but I pray for the energy to not fall into old patterns… I pray for the wisdom to seek out and learn the cause of my sadness… and I pray for persistence… that I may continue till the truth is known…

To the Mother I give thanks…
To the Father I give thinks…
For all of creation… I give thanks…
Blessed be, Blessed be, Blessed be

[PeleRising]

October 9 2002

I drag myself crying to the base of The Tree...I am so angry... so hurt!!! I feel like im the forgotten one... that i am invisible. "Do you see me Goddess... I am here!" I scream

I have been so sad lately.... Today is my birthday... Im 37! My Mom and Dad arent here to celebrate it with me and Im so mad at them!!! Mom died in 95 from a sudden heartattack... and Dad died in 99. Mom went fast... but I watched my dad die very slowly with lung cancer that spread to his brain... I MISS YOU BOTH!!!!! Everytime I asked them to stop smoking... I felt like they just werent listening...but now they are gone... and i still need them...my children deserve to have grandparents... All my friends forgot my birthday too... Not one remembered.... I try to be the one who listens if a friend needs an ear... if they need help i am right there helping... but when I need something ppl just disappear. What am i doing wrong goddess... Its like im not even here... Please take this pain away... i feel so worthless... I try so hard to be thankful for my blessings.... but right now i feel nothing but anger and sadness... Is it so wrong to want ppl to notice me? Is that selfish...

Help me Goddess... Help me Goddess.... I feel so alone

[PeleRising]

October 10 2002

Climbing into the lower branches of The Tree... I clasp my arms around its trunk and smile gently.... "thank you Goddess for the lesson I need so badly to learn... Im not sure of the whole of it yet... but im willing to listen... and learn. *grins*

I thank you for the gift of the wind... the rain, the sun and the land... I thank you for my guide who has been so very quiet lately... waiting for me to listen again. I thank you for my family... near and far...

To the Goddess I give thanks…
To the God I give thinks…
For all of creation… I give thanks…
Blessed be, Blessed be, Blessed be

[Lord_Raven]

I must say that I feel that was the most wonderfulest
prayer Ive ever come across and I feel that if one must
pray at a most sacred place it would have to be the ancient
tree what a moving visulization this prayer was to me and most
of all FOR ME thank you so very much.

BB/MP
Lord Raven¥(*_*)¥

[PeleRising]

Climbing onto the lower branches of the tree i clasp my arms around its trunk and press my face into its sweet smelling bark.

I feel so lost... I can't hear you anymore. My footing is perilous... I can not see the path. I feel like a small child who has become lost and separated from her parents... I am crying out ... please come find me... I cant find my way back to you!

[Nighthawk]

:hugz: Hoping my white wolf can help to guide :hugz:

[PeleRising]

*kneels down before the tree and lights a candle on the altar.

Thank you for my friend Pumpkin Smart.

*lays jingle ball on altar.

Thank you for the time he graced us with his presence. Thank you for all the times he would come running and stick his cold wet nose on my face. Thank you for all the laughter he gave to us... and the love we shared with him. Thank you for guiding those who found him to us so that we didnt wonder forever where our punky was.

Thank you for the kind voices here at MW who shared my grief... and the voice of warning in the midst... Bless her please... she is tired, and worn from her battles to protect and I am worried.

Thank you for showing me that I am not alone... that if i reach out there will be an answer.

Thank you for my children's laughter today... and my husband who encourages me to dream.

Thank you for the rain, washing away the old and bringing on the new. Tomorrow will indeed be a new day.

For the wind who called me
for the sun who warms my face
for the rain that renews me
for the earth that sustains me

I thank you.

[PeleRising]

*Dances into the valley with flowers in her hair.... runs up to the tree and wraps her arms around it..

Thank you so much... for everything... oh i dont know where im headed from here but just knowing the truth... and hearing Im sorry meant so very very much to me. I am so happy... the fog is gone... and i can see. I never realized how bad I felt... how worthless. Yes the past will remain in the past... and I will move on... but i can... i can move on now. I can look at the past as a lesson learned... but its over... its over thank goddess.

*lights a candle... and scatters tobacco at the base of the tree.

Thank you for my blessings

[PeleRising]

*sits crosslegged at the base of the tree

How do I help? What can I say? So much pain and I dont know where to start. Please show me the way...


For the wind who called me
for the sun that warms my face
for the rain that renews me
for the earth that sustains me

I give thanks!