SilverClaw
November 7th, 2008, 12:17 AM
I just needed a place to put this. I woke up this morning from a dream and though I remembered the last part of it as I woke up I knew there was a part I was missing and there was a strong feeling I had about it.
Then about an hour after I woke up I remembered the part that had the real strong feeling about.
I was with my mom and the words I was telling her I realized in the dream that they were the same words I wrote in my letter as part of my letting go ritual on Sahmain. I also realized that my moms friends were in a circle watching what I was saying to her. Then the background behind her changed and it was like she was outside and I was trying to make sure she understood what I asked of her in getting help and after I talked to her my uncle started in on about things and I just tuned hime out.
I think this dream was caused because of letting go of my mom and worrying about what her friends may say or do only getting her side of the story. Some of them have no clue about her mental illness and think no matter what she does she is always right and I am wrong.
Anyways Before that part of the dream and after was weird it was a sunny day in a trailer like park with blue and white houses and moble homes. Kids were playing and some were surrounding me and this man I was with. It was someones birthday and I was going then I got sidetracked. And went some where with this other person.
Next thing I know is I have a hawk perched on my arm and I am back with the kids and then inside the house. I saw the brithday cake and the kids. next thing I know the guy I was with before I got the bird was rushing me to the far side of the house and telling me to get out.
I see coming through the front door a woman who looks out of it and is being aided by two others as she walks.
Then I woke up.
I knew dreams about my mom were coming that was to be expected but this hawk thing makes me think I need to check out the hawks meaning more.
Then about an hour after I woke up I remembered the part that had the real strong feeling about.
I was with my mom and the words I was telling her I realized in the dream that they were the same words I wrote in my letter as part of my letting go ritual on Sahmain. I also realized that my moms friends were in a circle watching what I was saying to her. Then the background behind her changed and it was like she was outside and I was trying to make sure she understood what I asked of her in getting help and after I talked to her my uncle started in on about things and I just tuned hime out.
I think this dream was caused because of letting go of my mom and worrying about what her friends may say or do only getting her side of the story. Some of them have no clue about her mental illness and think no matter what she does she is always right and I am wrong.
Anyways Before that part of the dream and after was weird it was a sunny day in a trailer like park with blue and white houses and moble homes. Kids were playing and some were surrounding me and this man I was with. It was someones birthday and I was going then I got sidetracked. And went some where with this other person.
Next thing I know is I have a hawk perched on my arm and I am back with the kids and then inside the house. I saw the brithday cake and the kids. next thing I know the guy I was with before I got the bird was rushing me to the far side of the house and telling me to get out.
I see coming through the front door a woman who looks out of it and is being aided by two others as she walks.
Then I woke up.
I knew dreams about my mom were coming that was to be expected but this hawk thing makes me think I need to check out the hawks meaning more.