Pan
November 4th, 2002, 04:34 PM
Mother,
I'm trying my hardest to make you proud.. but you always cut me down. I'm pretty in many eyes, but not yours. My sister is always the beautiful one.. who should wear form-fitting clothes. I should wear baggy clothes to cover myself from prying eyes.
I married first, but you didn't cry.. You said I would be the first to have children.. but not anymore. My sister suddenly gets a boyfriend and she will have twins. That hurt. You know how much I want twins.
I'm out of a job. Hubby's going into the military. You don't agree with the military. You don't think I can make it through. You don't think I can do it. You idolise the Navy.. hate the Army, Marines, Air Force, Nat'l Guard.. you love the Navy, yet hate it at the same time.
When will it be my time to shine?
Father,
I'm still your little girl. I still love you. You didn't cry at my wedding.. you never say anything. When I go into the kitchen to talk.. you leave to play the PS2. Don't you love me anymore? When's it my time to shine?
Self,
We have a lot to change. We have a lot to do. Get your rear in gear and get a job. Keep the job. Do your best. Put on your mask and live life the way others want you to. Do your best to do that for them!
Stop telling your sister what you like. She is your Sae. You are her Momo. Don't let her be Sae! Don't let her copy you and steal what you like! Kick aside her pettiness and greed. Put on your smiling mask and walk away.
I'm trying my hardest to make you proud.. but you always cut me down. I'm pretty in many eyes, but not yours. My sister is always the beautiful one.. who should wear form-fitting clothes. I should wear baggy clothes to cover myself from prying eyes.
I married first, but you didn't cry.. You said I would be the first to have children.. but not anymore. My sister suddenly gets a boyfriend and she will have twins. That hurt. You know how much I want twins.
I'm out of a job. Hubby's going into the military. You don't agree with the military. You don't think I can make it through. You don't think I can do it. You idolise the Navy.. hate the Army, Marines, Air Force, Nat'l Guard.. you love the Navy, yet hate it at the same time.
When will it be my time to shine?
Father,
I'm still your little girl. I still love you. You didn't cry at my wedding.. you never say anything. When I go into the kitchen to talk.. you leave to play the PS2. Don't you love me anymore? When's it my time to shine?
Self,
We have a lot to change. We have a lot to do. Get your rear in gear and get a job. Keep the job. Do your best. Put on your mask and live life the way others want you to. Do your best to do that for them!
Stop telling your sister what you like. She is your Sae. You are her Momo. Don't let her be Sae! Don't let her copy you and steal what you like! Kick aside her pettiness and greed. Put on your smiling mask and walk away.