bellamandu
August 14th, 2009, 10:12 PM
i need a reading and due to what it is about and my current emotional state i dont feel comfortable doing it myself.
ive taken a bit of a leave from MW because of everything that has been going on. let me explain...
recently after moving back to the beach i started trying to build my relationship with my (adoptive) father. so, as a result, he was spending a lot of time with my daughter, keira.
he would babysit her every so often for a few days at a time. so anyway, things continue and i was under the impression that we were making progress. one night (i didnt have a vehicle at this time) he came to pick keira up for the weekend and i tagged along for a family night sort of thing. on the way home we get into some pretty heavy conversation and it ends up on the subject of my now deceased (adoptive) mother. they got divorced when i was a young age and i dont really remember much about it, except that for a time she became a drunk and i wasn't allowed to see my father. i remember there was a lot of drama involved and i remember my mom was constantly asking me if dad had ever touched me improperly or anything like that...
so anyway...
we both get upset and get into a fight. i end up storming into the house crying as he drops me off back home and he speeds off.
days pass. no word on him bringing her home. i call. he wont talk to me but his new (and his first, he was married like 8 or 9 times) wife tells me that everything is ok, he just wants to help out by keeping keira for a little while to help potty train her as she was having some issues with it..
more time passes. i call several times asking for keira back and to no avail.
finally i get frustrated. by this time i had gotten a new roommate that just so happened to have a vehicle so i called to tell him i was coming to pick keira up. he said no way, i wasn't going to get her back, he was taking custody, and so on...
i told him i would call the cops if need be and it ended up coming down to that.
the police officer put it in initially as an attempted kidnapping, but told me that once we got there (the sheriff escorted me there, i had to stay in the vehicle) if he gave her back willingly that charges would be dropped.
so he did.
onto the drama....
next thing i know the officer is bringing her out. she has her head completely shaved and the officer is royally pissed at me. he said that dad told him all this nasty stuff about me. and supposedly had to shave her hair because it was so nappy and even showed his supposedly nasty clothes that i packed for keira to wear, told him my house was nasty and that we didnt have any food.. and so on..
the officer said he had to investigate my house now. and that if these things were true he would immediately take custody of keira. he said that "if this stuff is true, i have to be honest i wouldn't even let my dog walk around in a place like that..."
so he gets to the house and does the inspection. everything clears. he tells me to keep an eye on dad, that if he is telling the officer all this stuff, in his opinion, he is trying to cover up for something. he says that he feels that my father is a nutso now and that i shouldn't let keira be around him anymore.
i asked him to write a report of the stuff that just happened, and what he just told me, just in case i would need it. he said it would, but that since there were no longer kidnapping charges that it would just be a "dialogue report"
so the day goes on. we all notice that keira is acting very weird. she seems very scared of everyone, and freaks out when i tried to undress her to take a bath. she wont let anyone touch her. she doesnt want to sit on anyone's lap.
finally she says "papa hurt me" clear as day.
i grab the camera. we start asking questions. she shows us on her baby doll where "papa" hurt her, between the baby doll's legs.
i immediately take her to the ER. she is examined. the doctor cant get her to stay still long enough to look between her legs, she is hysterical. ive never seen her like this before. the doctor says that just by the way she is acting it is obvious she was abused, so she sent us to a specialist at another hospital in the next county.
we see that doctor. she says there is no tearing or bruising so she can't determine if she was sexually abused or not.
we talk to a police officer, file a report, and talk to a caseworker at the hospital. they say they are starting an investigation and would contact me if anything came up..
and then there was nothing. i pushed and i pushed. finally i discover that the case was dropped completely, never even investigated. the so called reports dont even exist, just a dispatch record from when dad wouldn't give her back.
im devistated. i work for nearly a month trying to push it. everyone says they cant do anything, there is no evidence, everything is circumstantial... etc etc
i know when something is wrong with my daughter.
as things escalate, a spirit starts bothering us. it is moving doors, furniture, beds, knocking on windows and doors... keira says she sees "meme". the name my mother used for her grandchildren. ive talking about her, but never called her meme.
i try to make contact.
it is my mother. i am certain of it. there are things that she told me, things only i should know, she said what she knew i would need to know to know for certain it was her.
but somewhere i still have my doubts.
she tells me that there will never be legal justice, but that there will be "justice" of some sort... something about my father feeling guilty. something about an inhertance or a will or something... among other things that dont relate to this at all. she tells me that not only did he molest keira but he molested me too. but i dont remember. i am still so confused. i dont know whether to believe it. i dont know if i should trust it, or what it even means sometimes. but i can't stand to talk to her again, its just too much to deal with. i know its her, but sometimes i still have my doubts. i dont know if this supposed "justice" is enough for me.
can someone help? i need some insight into this...
ive taken a bit of a leave from MW because of everything that has been going on. let me explain...
recently after moving back to the beach i started trying to build my relationship with my (adoptive) father. so, as a result, he was spending a lot of time with my daughter, keira.
he would babysit her every so often for a few days at a time. so anyway, things continue and i was under the impression that we were making progress. one night (i didnt have a vehicle at this time) he came to pick keira up for the weekend and i tagged along for a family night sort of thing. on the way home we get into some pretty heavy conversation and it ends up on the subject of my now deceased (adoptive) mother. they got divorced when i was a young age and i dont really remember much about it, except that for a time she became a drunk and i wasn't allowed to see my father. i remember there was a lot of drama involved and i remember my mom was constantly asking me if dad had ever touched me improperly or anything like that...
so anyway...
we both get upset and get into a fight. i end up storming into the house crying as he drops me off back home and he speeds off.
days pass. no word on him bringing her home. i call. he wont talk to me but his new (and his first, he was married like 8 or 9 times) wife tells me that everything is ok, he just wants to help out by keeping keira for a little while to help potty train her as she was having some issues with it..
more time passes. i call several times asking for keira back and to no avail.
finally i get frustrated. by this time i had gotten a new roommate that just so happened to have a vehicle so i called to tell him i was coming to pick keira up. he said no way, i wasn't going to get her back, he was taking custody, and so on...
i told him i would call the cops if need be and it ended up coming down to that.
the police officer put it in initially as an attempted kidnapping, but told me that once we got there (the sheriff escorted me there, i had to stay in the vehicle) if he gave her back willingly that charges would be dropped.
so he did.
onto the drama....
next thing i know the officer is bringing her out. she has her head completely shaved and the officer is royally pissed at me. he said that dad told him all this nasty stuff about me. and supposedly had to shave her hair because it was so nappy and even showed his supposedly nasty clothes that i packed for keira to wear, told him my house was nasty and that we didnt have any food.. and so on..
the officer said he had to investigate my house now. and that if these things were true he would immediately take custody of keira. he said that "if this stuff is true, i have to be honest i wouldn't even let my dog walk around in a place like that..."
so he gets to the house and does the inspection. everything clears. he tells me to keep an eye on dad, that if he is telling the officer all this stuff, in his opinion, he is trying to cover up for something. he says that he feels that my father is a nutso now and that i shouldn't let keira be around him anymore.
i asked him to write a report of the stuff that just happened, and what he just told me, just in case i would need it. he said it would, but that since there were no longer kidnapping charges that it would just be a "dialogue report"
so the day goes on. we all notice that keira is acting very weird. she seems very scared of everyone, and freaks out when i tried to undress her to take a bath. she wont let anyone touch her. she doesnt want to sit on anyone's lap.
finally she says "papa hurt me" clear as day.
i grab the camera. we start asking questions. she shows us on her baby doll where "papa" hurt her, between the baby doll's legs.
i immediately take her to the ER. she is examined. the doctor cant get her to stay still long enough to look between her legs, she is hysterical. ive never seen her like this before. the doctor says that just by the way she is acting it is obvious she was abused, so she sent us to a specialist at another hospital in the next county.
we see that doctor. she says there is no tearing or bruising so she can't determine if she was sexually abused or not.
we talk to a police officer, file a report, and talk to a caseworker at the hospital. they say they are starting an investigation and would contact me if anything came up..
and then there was nothing. i pushed and i pushed. finally i discover that the case was dropped completely, never even investigated. the so called reports dont even exist, just a dispatch record from when dad wouldn't give her back.
im devistated. i work for nearly a month trying to push it. everyone says they cant do anything, there is no evidence, everything is circumstantial... etc etc
i know when something is wrong with my daughter.
as things escalate, a spirit starts bothering us. it is moving doors, furniture, beds, knocking on windows and doors... keira says she sees "meme". the name my mother used for her grandchildren. ive talking about her, but never called her meme.
i try to make contact.
it is my mother. i am certain of it. there are things that she told me, things only i should know, she said what she knew i would need to know to know for certain it was her.
but somewhere i still have my doubts.
she tells me that there will never be legal justice, but that there will be "justice" of some sort... something about my father feeling guilty. something about an inhertance or a will or something... among other things that dont relate to this at all. she tells me that not only did he molest keira but he molested me too. but i dont remember. i am still so confused. i dont know whether to believe it. i dont know if i should trust it, or what it even means sometimes. but i can't stand to talk to her again, its just too much to deal with. i know its her, but sometimes i still have my doubts. i dont know if this supposed "justice" is enough for me.
can someone help? i need some insight into this...