Im so confused. (A rant, maybe

[Amemphis]

For ten months I loved this guy. With my full heart. We both did things we shouldnt have, and said things were shouldnt have. Like all couples.He moved about six months into the relationship but we decided to try to make it work. Love will conquer all, ect.
It seemed fine at first and then it dwindled. And a week ago I found out he cheated on me. Humans make mistakes, right. So I told him I loved him and forgave him. He dumped me. The girl he cheated on me with is pregnant. He told me he doesnt love her, and were still friends but Ive already been botherd by her twice in one day. I hate him, but I love him, then I feel neither. Were friends but I dont think I can deal with the stress. I dont know how I feel about the child. I love it from the sheer fact it came from him. I hate it because the girl it came from and how it could ruin his future. Im lost, confused, and hurt. I dont know what to do or feel. I want to love it and bless it, but in the same moment want to kill it and curse it. This sucks.

[Semele]

Originally posted by Amemphis
I hate it because the girl it came from and how it could ruin his future.

You have no right to hate this child, in fact you have no ties to it whatsoever unless you and the father plan to be married at some point. It sounds like you are just trying to be friends...if you can't be a supportive friend to him then it is better to just move on in my opinion. By the way..."it" wont ruin his life..."it" is an innocent child.


Originally posted by Amemphis

Im lost, confused, and hurt. I dont know what to do or feel. I want to love it and bless it, but in the same moment want to kill it and curse it. This sucks.

I think I can understand how you feel and I am sorry for your pain. I still think the best thing for you would be to move on with your life and cut your losses in this case. Why stay around when it causes you pain and will eventually cause pain to the child. This child will have a hard enough time in life with the circumstances of his/her birth and parents who are not together. There is simply no need to risk adding to that pain, when you will likely not benefit yourself. Hope I don't sound too harsh!