Lonely on Solstice

[Amethyst Rose]

I always get slightly down during the sabbats, simply because I end up feeling a little lonely.

When I was in university, I started a pagan club (that is still running, I'm proud to say), and I gained a lot of friends, and we would have parties during the esbats and sabbats, and a small group of us would perform rituals.

Well, that was years ago, and I haven't had any real life contact with other pagans since then, and I really, really miss that connection that we had.

It's times like these that I wish my husband was a pagan, or that I lived next door to my best pagan friend (who I've only known online), or that I hadn't moved away after University. So the best I can do is come online and talk with my pagan friends from around the world, and try not to feel so alone.

So to all of you that are alone this solstice (and to those of you who, luckily, are not).... have a happy solstice, and toast the sun for me :) Lots of hugs and kisses to every one of you.

[Stacy]

Awwwww ((((Amethyst Rose))))

I know what you mean..I get like that around the holidays..

4 years ago I left my country and everything that I built my entire life (including my family and friends) and move to US..

Usually I'm fine.. But when holidays come I feel soooooo lonely..

So, if its of any help to you, know that you are not the only one that feels that way.. But, that's why place like this exist, for you to know that you will never be alone, cause all of us are here to talk and listen..

You can always email me, as well :)

:) :sunny:

[WtchyChick13]

(((((Big Hugs)))))))

You guys know that you will never be alone as long as you have us, right??? :D



I'm sending love, light and happy smilie energy your way and have a wonderful Yule. http://64.207.13.28/mysmilies/contrib/anym/snowman.gif

[Old Witch]

((((((((((Amethyst Rose )))))))))))

[Sequoia]

awww. . . . *BIG HUGS*

my sweetheart and I were going to try to do several things this week, solstice-related. . . but between work and pain and weather, nothing managed to turn out. *hugs* I can kind of understand. *is hobbling around her house like an 80-year-old after work*

[Danustouch]

(((((((((((((Amethyst)))))))))))))))) I know how you feel hon. I miss my pagan friends from my hometown all the time, and the great circles I used to have with them. A few years ago, I HighPriestessed the Yule Circle, with my friend Tom. The whole ritual room was decked out festively. Fire roaring in the fireplace, Yule Tree, Yule log, wreathes, candles everywhere. Pine boughs. It was so amazing. We sang Yule carols, old and new. Chanted, drummed, the energy raised was amazing.

Now here I sit this year....on the computer. John is in the livingroom watching a horror flick, my altar is all set up and decked out..but... I just don't have the energy, physically, or spiritually, to do a ritual. I will probably do something tomorrow. I hope to be feeling better by then. John has to work in the morning, though, and we've decided that because of budget constraints, we won't be exchanging gifts this year...maybe a few weeks from now. Meanwhile, I know my friends in CT are having a big circle. And my family in CT will be celebrating Christmas in just a few days. Decorations, and food everywhere, mounds of presents. They miss me too, and wish I could be there. But I can't even afford a bus ticket home. And I probably wouldn't go anyway, since I have no gifts for them. Maybe in a few weeks...

John isn't speaking to his family, so though they'll be gathered at his parents house, which is only the next block over, we won't be going there. They didn't invite us. They usually draw names from a hat earlier in the year, kind of a "secret santa" type deal. They excluded him from that, without consulting us, and without even knowing our financial situation. Simply because last year, we didn't make it back from my family's in time to go to their house. We went over the next day last year, and exchanged gifts..but they are holding a bit of a grudge. John is hurt. And a bit bitter.

Basically, this is my worst Yule yet. Even though I have someone here with me, he doesn't share my beliefs, and doesn't really "get into" the holidays as I do. Thus, he never plans ahead. And puts no real energy into making them special. And since he's the sole breadwinner, you know what that means.

Despite this, tomorrow I will cook a special meal for him to come home to. Maybe bake some cookies with him, and TRY for a little bit of holiday spirit, though I haven't a clue where i'm going to find it within myself.....

[Witchy Cowgirl]

((((Amethyst and Danustouch)))) ((((and anyone elese who needs one))))

I feel for ya'll and will send energy to you. Tomorrow my family and I will celebrate Yule. This will be our first Yule and I invite the two of you (and anyone elese who needs to) to visit with us spiritual. Nothing fancy but lots of love and cheer to be spread around. We're gonna have a bonfire right at sundown, I'm going to explain to the kids what Yule is about and then everyone will have a small gift to open.

I understand it's not the same as having folks (warm, live, and breathing) with you but your MW family will always be there for you and I'm sure ya'll know this. :) Not only will I send energy to you but also some Yuletide and Holiday Cheer will be coming your way too!:D ((((Hugs again))))

[Danustouch]

Thank you Witchy :) The extra energy would really help :) Knowing that I'm not crazy for feeling so depressed, and knowing that people care means alot.

[Faery-Wings]

Hugs to you both Amythest and Danu ((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))

I will light a candle for all those who need a bit of extra energy and love tonight.

And like Witchy said, your not truly only since you have all of us. I know it is not the same, but it something.:heartthro :heartthro

[Jazzmine]

I know what you both mean about feeling lonely. Except for this website, I don't even know any other pagans. I do the rituals alone with my God and Goddess. My husband supports and doesn't put me down for my beliefs, but he doesn't share my beliefs. He is working anyway. In his job he has to work all the weekends and only gets 2 days off for Christmas and 2 off for New Years. So most of the time I will be here alone. My son is home from College for vacation, but he has been doing alot of running with his friends, so I don't see much of him either.

Anyway, I know exactly what you mean. I did a ritual for Samhain, but can't seem to get in the Yule spirit. I told myself this year I would start anew and do something for every Sabbat, but if you have no energy, it wouldn't be worth the time. Maybe I'll feel better later today and do something.

Happy Yule to everyone. I hope that most of you have your family and friends with you and can do your rituals as a family.

Love you all.

[Danustouch]

((((((((((((Jazz)))))))))))))) hugs to you too!

[Jazzmine]

Thanks, babe. I needed that. And a big one back to you!

[Emaleth]

I understand all of you very well. I'm always alone during sabbats, esbats and other rituals. I really wish I knew other pagans (in reality I mean:) ) and work in a circle with them......

Well, there's nothing I can do about it, I should try to get used to working alone...... Or move to another country:rolleyes:

[Cait]

((((((Amethyst/Danustouch/Jazzmine))))))

I'm feeling a bit alone at the moment too. Being solitary isn't always good... :/ Perhaps I should try harder to find others wrounf here who share my beliefs. Could be a new year's resolution... ;)