Scarlett's Alter

[Scarlettvixen]

Mother I hurt so much today
I hurt for me, but I also hurt for Calixxx my love

So far since October he has submitted over 150 applications for jobs, with 50 rejection letters and 100 that we have heard nothing back from.

I finally convinced him to think outside the square and look for a job outside the IT industry - and the letter came in the mail today rejecting him from that too. i dont have the heart to give it to him, he has been so down lately

and then to top it off my period starts today - im only 2 weeks late! and had been letting this small hope form in my heart that at long last maybe i was pregnant

i feel like my world is ripped apart yet again
please mother
i waited 36yrs to find my soul mate
i so need some good news for him and us

[Scarlettvixen]

Mother
I dont know your purpose today
Marys pregnancy had been perfect
the baby was healthy
she went into labour at 2am this morning
at 6am the baby was born - dead

I hurt for her and Michael
I hurt for Ryan her angel
they would make perfect parents
in this not so perfect world

Please help me understand this tragedy

[Scarlettvixen]

Mother
life is throwing up a few options here
i seem to wait all the time for a sign
i need to know do i wait some more or do i act?
questions i need some advice on are:

do we give up looking for work for calixxx and buy into the franchise.... will it work?

do i go for ivf, or accept the fact that i am not meant to be a mother?

mother please protect and guide yr child through these troubled times

[Scarlettvixen]

life has settled somewhat mother
i give u thanks for that

calixxx still needs to find his lifes work please! he needs it so much for his self-esteem

blessed mother hear my prayer