The "Sometimes you have to cry" Thread

[FaerySong]

Kinda like the Screaming thread, but not yelling stuff out. this one is for stuff that is just nagging on your mind and you just want to cry it out. (Hence why i think this may be a lease-frequent use)

It takes alot of stuff to build up for me to cry, most of the times. But now I need to, and I can't. But i'll do it here.


My Dad pissed me off, my mom could have had cancer but she's fine, my brother tries to piss me off and succeeds, some people are so cruel to me at school, I play in my head.


:wah2::wah::wah2::wah::wah2::wah::wah2::wah::wah2:


*shrug* I might be the only person living in this thread, but use it if you wants to. Blessed be,
Caitlin

[Stacy]

I wrote one really long post, but than I earsed it..

I just feel today very, very sad and I need to cry for a while and this is the perfect place for it..

My dad is comming to visit me (after couple of months) bringing with himself all his little torturing tools.. In short: he's just a sadistic person that enjoys briging people pain.. Not physical, but psychological..

There is this great sentence that I heard in some movie (and I appologise if it hurts anyone, but it completelly describes my situation): "The only bad thing that comes right after the situation of not having a father is having one like mine."

I know, it sounds weird, but that's why I cut the story short and would leave at at this.. Just knowing that I shared it in here makes me feel better..

Oh, well, I'll survive those weeks as a I usually do..

[Thorferrer]

Sorry, but I can't help but add my 2 cents here.

Why merely survive, as if being reduced to merely an existance. Why not change something. All outside changes are brought forth by someone using their internal power to make a difference. We humans being one of the few creatures who can actively, on a premeditated basis, seek and embrace change, might as well use it to our advantage.

[Stacy]

FaerySong, *hughs* thank you for creating this tread..

I'm very gald about your mom :) :sunny:

If it helps any: you are always listen to in here, and you can share every tear with us.. cause we all cry at that times (hiding it or not).

Thorferrer you are right, people have that strength to change anything.. But, when you are entirelly depending on someone (in my case my Dad), right now I can't change anything untill I get my first job and lift myself on my feet..

Right now, I just need to keep up with psychological torture, beacuse if I say saomething he doesn't like: he would barry me without a scond thought.. That's what he did with my sister..

Until I get on my feet, I can just try shutting myself down and wait.. Which is THE HARDEST thing to do..

And it makes me sick: it's all for material support..

Sometimes I hate myself, but reality is what counts..

Oh well..

[shnen]

oh no hun, you aren't the only one living in this thread...

I would explain my tears but I am afraid it would seriously disturb some of the members... but hugs and love are welcome, and in addition to it all, my step mom went in for a lung biopsy on tuesday, i spent the day with my dad and her in the hospital... they think it might be cancer... I am praying its not.

healing, hurting and becoming stronger every day.

[Stacy]

Originally posted by shnen
oh no hun, you aren't the only one living in this thread...
I would explain my tears but I am afraid it would seriously disturb some of the members... but hugs and love are welcome, and in addition to it all, my step mom went in for a lung biopsy on tuesday, i spent the day with my dad and her in the hospital... they think it might be cancer... I am praying its not.
healing, hurting and becoming stronger every day.
shnen, no tears can disturbe people that care for your happiness!! In one way or the other, we are all alone, but places like this give us the strenght to balieve that that might not be true.. Best wishes for you step mom :heartthro

If it helps any, there are A LOT of people diagnosed with cancer, and they survived and are living normal life. My mom, about 2 years ago was diagnosed with breast cancer and wen to surgery and than radiations and kimo (sp?) therapy.. and so far so good. But, than like 4 moths ago she fell down the stairs and hurt her spinal cord and now she's entirelly paralized, and noone knows (not even doctors) if therapy (and extersises) will help any.. But, I try thinking positevely.. And she's optimist..

So, there's alwasy a hope, just keep that in mind and only think positevely (even though that's one of the hardest things).

I'll light the candle for your step mom and sending all the energies and wishes for her strenght (and yours!!) :heartthro :heartthro

Let us know, when ever you get chance how it all went..

*hughs and best wishes*

[Thorferrer]

If I may wimper and use this thread a bit, I am being threatened, and by the looks of it blackmailed as well, by someone from a car club I belong in, and the worst part is that he must be making it up, because I don't know of anything that I have done worthy of blackmail???? To top it all off, he posted my address publically and gave me the "IF I HEAR ONE MORE WORD" statement. :wah:

[shnen]

can't you get something done? thats a threat!

[Thorferrer]

yes, I contacted he authorites (decided to be reactive about it instead of letting it slide, and it appears that they are dealing with it). Starting to feel more relieved now, thanks.

[Stacy]

Thorferrer, I think you did a good move!!

Glad you're feeling better and hope everything works out in the best way for you :sunny:

[FaerySong]

Shnen, I could put my earlier pain on here if I had found it, but you know...


I'm glad other people have found uses for this thread. =)

[Danustouch]

Is it okay to not name the thing which is making us want to cry?

:( :( :( :wah2: :wah2: :wah2: :wah2: :wah: :wah: :wah: :ack: :ugh:

[Stacy]

Originally posted by Danustouch
Is it okay to not name the thing which is making us want to cry?
I think it is.. as long as we know we're not alone..

[FaerySong]

=) yes of course it's alright. if u just want to put a ":wah:" then go ahead if it makes you feel better.





I'm upset right now over trivial things. :wah2:
My dad promised that if I did my homework the whole week, we'd go see LOTR. we haven't, and won't be this weekend. But that's ok I'll live with that.
He said we could go to the beach to my Favorite Spot (the first time I was there, it was seriously Magickal. I know I connected with Them there) but we apparently "don't have time"

I think i'm used to people not keeping their promises, not just my dad too. But I'm sad about it. =(

[shnen]

*hugs*
first of all I am seriously jealous you can go to the beach in January... :shaker: I can hardly make it to the corner store ;)

[Semele]

I seem to have a lot of things making me want to cry after my first full week-end back at work...but I kind of feel more like screaming and then crying...maybe I should stop off in the primal scream thread first.

One of my favorite patients passed away and I looked around me and realised fully for the first time that I don't want to see so many friends go before me. But I can't see me doing anything else for a living...and I don't wanna become hardened or insensitive to the emotions. Sigh.

I think I may go scream for a while.

[stormyray]

glad this thread is here ....

My 25 year olds sis was told she has cervical cancer and has no kids they may have to do a hysty on her .. I am crying for the children she may never have..

[Mnemosyne]

Hugs everyone! :heartthro

Sometimes, it is ok to cry. I've been pretty devestated the past few days. My bf and I were together for over four years. Then, we broke up. Right when we broke up, he got with some girl even though we still had feelings for each other. We fixed our relationship, so we got back together. We have had the most fabulous times lately. We have even talking about moving in with each other and travelling. Well, his ex girlfriend just came back in his life last week. He said that he didn't love her and everything was all right. Well, things aren't. He suddenly broke up with me. I'm so hurt. I've got to put a smile on face and think of all the positive things going on in my life at the moment. I know that the Goddess will be with me and has great plans with me.

[Danustouch]

Okay..i'm going to try to speak in generalizations at this point...because the details are much too personal.

Ever want to kick yourself repeatedly, adn very hard, because you let the window of opportunity slam shut? Im kind of going through that right now.

But..it's a bit more complex than that.

*sigh*. Sometimes, BOTH people let the window of opportunity slam shut, out of fear, or stubborne blindness. And you're left sitting there wondering.."What might have been happening...now....if we'd only.......".

There's a song by a Folk Singer called Christine Lavin, called "The Kind of Love You never recover from". I guess that that describes it best.

We both made our choices, but for a while, both admitted the candle was still in the window......that ...maybe "someday" things would be differen't...and I guess both of us have just come to the conclusion that *someday* is too far off...that neither one of us is ready to make that choice now, at this time, to take a leap of faith. And the one moment when it COULD have been right to do so...when I was leaving my husband, and he was single...etc...we both mucked it up royally. Got scared, ran away. Me back to my marriage out of a sense of "Obligation to give him another chance" and him out of frustration at my indecision. Now....i've been giving hubby another chance...but...not feeling truly fulfilled. And HE (the coulda been guy) has moved on.

He called me briefly on New Years day, as the Year before I met my husband, he and I had spent new years together, and the conversation hung thick with regret.

But "Someday" seemed too far off for both of us. And neither one of us was willing to trust... and have faith...... and so now...we've come to that point of going in opposite directions..

And although it may be right, and may be fair, and may be healthy, it's still a hard place to be. We loved eachother for a long time, and were friends even longer than that. And now, because of the love feelings we finally admitted to eachother when I was in the process of leaving my husband, it's kind of impossible to carry on any sense of "normal friendship". So we've lost both at one time.

I love my husband. And didn't cheat. I love my husband, and decided to try to work things out...but there's that little nagging "What could have been" voice that haunts me sometimes. And when he writes to me, and mentions his new relationship, it still hurts, a bit. And when I write to him, and tell him of John it still hurts him.

I believe that the human heart is big enough, that it can hold many rooms, for many loves. But you shut the door to most of those rooms, deciding which one to focus on. I made that choice, but...the little ghost lurking in one of those rooms, haunts me.

:(

[FaerySong]

Originally posted by shnen
*hugs*
first of all I am seriously jealous you can go to the beach in January... :shaker: I can hardly make it to the corner store ;)

:D the beauty of Florida, yet it's getting a little chilly- like...60's and lower :blushake: see, when it gets cold in Florida, I'm freezing. But when I go back up to NC to visit relatives, and it's like...20 degrees, I go around without a coat and I'm fine. I don't understand it :lol:

[shnen]

you should come here now... -20C with windchill this morning....

its always good to cry... the great thing about this thread is to know you aren't alone... that even tho we all go through our own personal things, that we are never alone...

*hugs to MW*

[FaerySong]

yeah, this is a wonderful site, I'm so thankful They led me too it, I've learned so much. ^_^ *hugs all around*



:D and another thing, we have mountains of donuts and rivers of drink. And can't forget all that chocolate for when we're sad!!! :D

[FaerySong]

:wah: my head is splitting...:wah2:

[Stacy]

:dis:

One of my friends that I valued and respected hurted me badly today..
Placed me on the lowest position that I have ever been before..

And right after my dad left today, I was so happy and full of energy, and than *smash* right into my face.. A knoked down, completely unexpectedly..

I'm sad now, but I'll get over it.. After all, ovbviously I didn't loose a thing (he's not the real friend), but he lost a lot, cause I was his loyal friend..

Oh, well.. life can be a b*tch sometimes :rolleyes:

[Thorferrer]

Part of the reason why it hurts is because you lost something too (as unfair as it may be). You lost the years of trust and investment compiled into the friendship......that is definately something worth a tear (sp).

[Stacy]

Thorferrer, I think you are right.. Otherwise I wouldn't write about it here..

:dis:

[FaerySong]

*big hug for everyone* :heartthro

[Thorferrer]

*big hug #2*

[Flaire-FireStar]

((((((((((((Stacy))))))))))))))))

:heartthro

Like I said before....that 'friend' is an arse. There shoudl be no reason for him to say to you what he did. :mad: (It just makes my blood boil! :flamer: )




.....I almost crashed the truck today.....

[Thistle]

Like Danustouch said, the details are much too personal. Besides, they hurt too much.

I'm crying over my relationship with my daughter. I did the best I could do in raising her. I did the best I could do as a human being. Parenthood is probably the hardest, most important thing most of us ever do, and none of us is perfect. Not me, not her. She blames me for everything, won't take any responsibility at all, and has said and done some things to me that are so painful I don't know how I will ever get over them. I haven't spoken to her in more than 2 months. If I didn't love her so much, I would hate her. Does that make any sense?

My husband is a stoic, stiff-upper-lip kind of guy, he gets frustrated that I feel bad and doesn't want me to express my grief the way I need to. I think it scares him. So I try not to let him see it.

Thank you, shnen, for saying that we are never alone. I needed to hear that, because I feel so alone. I'm glad this thread is here.

*Hugs to everyone*

[FaerySong]

*hugs thistle* awww I'm so sorry that's happening. It makes me realize how lucky I am to have a good bond with my mom and dad. ((((((Thistle)))))) I hope your daughter comes around, and you two can talk again. I know i'm just a little girl (heh) but I know how important that is and I understands. =)

[Thistle]

Oh, FaerySong, thanks so much (((hugs)))! You are lucky to have a good bond with your mom and dad. I thought my daughter and I had a good bond, too, but she's been having a hard time for the past year or so. I'm thinking maybe she's having some sort of brain ph@rt, or something. (Can I say that?) I talked to a therapist, who said basically that, (only in more technical language) and also that I'm taking the brunt of it because she feels safest with me. It doesn't make it any easier, though.

You may be young, FaerySong, but you're wise and understanding, maybe more than you realize. And you got me to smile, too:) ((((more hugs))))

[Stacy]

((((Flair)))) Thanks :heartthro :heartthro

I feel better now.. at least I told him so much in response and feel better (in my mind placed him in right place).. although I don't think that he cared a bit..

((Everyone))) sending lots of energies and best wishes :heartthro :sunny:

[Flaire-FireStar]

(((((Thistle)))))) How old is your daughter?

Ma & I haven't exactly been getting along much lately either... :dis: We both have different ideas of what I should do, and so forth. *sigh* And we're both stubborn, so we're not really getting far.





*sigh* I've been falling into my rut again lately....Of course, I'm not the one that minds it so much...It's everyone around me that's telling me to move on..... Why can't I stay in my rut? I'm comfortable there....

[Stacy]

((((Flair)))) Relax.. you and you.. separate for some time.. don't think.. just feel..

So see what "me" feels and wants and than see what "I" wants and feels and try understanding WHY they feel that..

You can be the negotiator, you know (been that many times).. So, you can help both sides agree what to do first and what to do second (right after the first)..

[Thistle]

She's 21, Flaire. It's funny you mention stubbornness. She's as stubborn as I was when I was her age. . . I'm less stubborn now than I used to be. But it's so hard to see your kids make the same stupid mistake you made. Even though you know they have to live their own lives and make their own decisions and their own mistakes. You see what's coming, because you've been there yourself. Experience is the best teacher. Sometimes it's the only teacher. But you never want to see your kid hurt, no matter how old they are.

Stubbornness can be useful, but finding a balance between standing your ground over something important, and being able to be be flexible and finding a mutually acceptable compromise is *so* hard! Especially when you're both strong people with your own ideas about things.

I hope you and your mom can keep the lines of communication open, Flaire. Keep working at it and focus on the positive. ((((Flaire))) I wish you both the best.

[Flaire-FireStar]

Thanks.. :)

We talk...But get no where when we do.

[Raevyn]

:ack:

[Stacy]

My head hurts!!! :wah2:

[Thistle]

Aw, Flaire, that's so sad. "Growing up" is hard on everyone, and you've been through a lot lately anyway. For what it's worth, I really didn't realize how hard my own growing pains must have been on my mom until this happened. At this point, I realize that unconditional love is the most important thing. I just hope it's not too late.

Keep trying, and don't get too discouraged. I'm sure your mom loves you. (((Flaire)))

[Stacy]

Don't like myself today.. wanna run away out of my skin..

[Flaire-FireStar]

((((((((((Stacy))))))))))


I think we all get days like that.

(((((((((Thistle))))))))

:smooch: Thanks...

[FaerySong]

Aww I'm glad I had a positive influence, Thistle!!


:wah: my friend is starting to hate herself now, and I'm trying to help her, but I don't know, she won't listen to me. And I JUST went through what she is...it's ripping me apart....

[Thorferrer]

It's not surprising that she won't listen, at least not at first....(she is probably still trying to isolate herself) as humans we tend to admit to ourselves that we have a problem, but then look down on ourselves for it, when really the problem is nothing more than an eternal conflict. I am sure we all wish we'd have listened that one time when we we're going through a certain tough time that someone else had already been through, but we never seem to. (anyways, I am drifting off topic*shrug* ).

So the next best thing you can do is stay really close to her. As a friend, keep watch for signs of her behaving in ways that might become dangerous to her physical health, and if you can't talk her out of something, someone else most likely can......don't make yourself her only safety net, have another one lined up, just in case. The phone # to the local crisis line might be a good thing to carry around in your back pocket for a little while, and if you find yourself needing that safety net, call the crisis line with her, maybe talk to them first and then ask your friend to take over the conversation, or ask her to pick up a phone on the other line, while you speak to the person on your friends behalf .....just make sure you hang up once your friend is comfortable with speaking to that someone else, because your pressence might make her uncomfortable. (It is often easier to speak to a semi-stranger than to a really close person, for fear of looking bad/weak to the person you know). Planned parent-hood, if you have them in your area, might help too (they are really friendly people....even if it isn't sex related, they can often help by supplying a free phone # where professional help is waiting).

Hope this helps FaerySong

[Thistle]

((((FaerySong)))) I know how you feel, hun! People just can't hear it until they're ready to. But that doesn't make it any easier for you.

((((Stacy))) Hang in there, I hope it gets better for you soon.

[IsisErin]

I'm so sad I don't know what to do! Anna's friend has taken her own life.... I don't know this girl but I know she was my age, and just the thought that someone like me could be unhappy enough to do this is awful! You always hear about it happening to other people but this is really close to home. I'm sitting in a computer room looking at all the people around me and wondering about all their thoughts I will never learn about. I hope none of them are feeling as bad as Anna's friend. I wish she could have got some help. I'm so sad for Anna because I bet her mind's racing, thinking 'Is there something I could have done?' and no matter how much we reassure her, she'll always wonder.

[Stacy]

(((Flair))) & (((Thistle))) :heartthro :heartthro I feel much better today..

(((Isis)) I completelly undertsand what you mean.. Hope you feel better soon :heartthro :heartthro

[Flaire-FireStar]

Oh goodness, Isis! :eek:
((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))) :(


I'm so sad for Anna because I bet her mind's racing, thinking 'Is there something I could have done?' and no matter how much we reassure her, she'll always wonder.

Yes. I bet it is going through her mind so much. I know I often think about that about Mike's death too.... But there's not much we can do now, and I absolutely hate that.

All I can suggest is to be there for her. To be a shoulder to cry on.

((((((((((Anna & Isis))))))))))))

[Thistle]

Oh, Isis! (((hugs))) When something like that happens, it's such a shock. I hope both you and Anna feel better soon.

[FaerySong]

((((((Isis))))))) I know how brainracking that is...my cousin and his stepbrother (my stepcousin) killed themselves a year apart, my cousin hung himself last year (I believe). I myself was [ ] that close to doing the same around September of late. All I can say is be there for Anna, and keep a watch on her, that is a highly dramatic thing for her and to you. ((((((Hugs to everyone))))) thank you thistle and Thorferrer

[FaerySong]

heh oh yeah I was so caught up in responding that I forgot why I had come here. Today and last week I did something I haven't done in 3 months. I got so overwhelmed and disappointed in myself and angry that I cut myself again. I found out my nails are deadly, and I can scratch scrapes into my skin, almost making myself bleed. It scares me that I didn't have any more control to stop it. So I am walking scared, and I am not sure if I am ok or not now....sorry to trouble anyone with this rather unimportant bit of information, but I had to write it down to get it out....*sighs*

[Flaire-FireStar]

I know nails can be a pain in the (word).... I have a cut on my left arm from one - it got pretty deep..... and has left a scar.

Have you tried putting your frustration into something less destructive? Like writing poetry, or a story... Or doing exercise? I know it's hard to do at the moment when you feel so disappointed in yourself.... Though, I've never cut myself, I've come out with bruises on my face from being so angry at myself. I used to use it as a way to punish myself for doing something that I knew I coudl do better. Mind you, I still get urges to smack myself up againsed a door frame, or punch a brick wall...But really, it gets you no where.


(((((((((((((Faery)))))))))))

You know you can always PM me if you need to rant, okay? :heartthro :smooch:

[Thorferrer]

I found that a punching bag works well. I like it because it is hard enough to hurt some if you really wail on it, but not hard enough to break anything......pillows were too soft and just ate me up even more. Flaire is right. There is usually a less permanent way of redirecting the negative feelings. Also, think of someone who loves you (if you have someone really close, it works better). I think about my longterm girlfriend and what it would do to her if I took action to my thoughts. I can't imagine leaving her alone in this cruel world. That hurts more than anything and usually quells most thoughts of inflicting serious injury upon myself.

[FaerySong]

yeah I know...I already have scars from a year of doing that. And then I'm now really angry with myself because I was too weak and went ahead with it. I draw or write poetry when I get upset most of the time, but this was just one time.... *sighs* LoL g2g to school ttyl

[Thistle]

((((Faery)))) Keep trying to redirect your negative feelings into something else, and don't beat yourself up about it if you slip up. Forgive yourself, and don't give up. Each time you decide not to do it, it will get a little easier to resist. Reward yourself for your successes, and don't expect too much of yourself too soon. I find taking a long walk is good when I'm upset or mad at myself. I hope this helps some. (((hugs)))

[Flaire-FireStar]

I think about my longterm girlfriend and what it would do to her if I took action to my thoughts.

Mike made me promise I wouldn't hurt myself anymore... In the first week, I never realized how much I beat myself up until I made myself stop and take a more peaceful method of venting.

I guess that's what got me to quit it... Just stop and think about what you're about to do.

And I'm sure it helped that I had him to rant to. Plus my online journal really helped too.

[Quidam]

First of all, it's good to be back after....what's it been? 5 months? I took a long break. I'm not sure I'm any better for it, but c'est la vie.

I'm not sure if this is a 'need to cry' or 'need to scream' situation. Possibly both.

My father, as some may know, is an incredible jerk. My friends don't seem to get it. They all have these great dads that, sure, might be a little problematic, but at least they know that he loves them. They tell me "oh, he can't be that bad." like I'm exaggerating or something. I'm not. For once I wish I could just cry to someone like I used to be able to.

I can't really blame them though. I'm not even sure about my dad. Sure, I dpn't doubt he loves me, but he doesn't really do much consistantly to back it. A gift here or there. Every once in a while something big. And I do appreciate that. But it's HARD to get close to me and he's DAMAGED that road. He wants me to make it all better and that's his job. He doesn't understand that. He never will. Why should I waste my time trying to put a square peg in a round hole?

I mean, he's so unpredictable. I could tell him something and he'd be completely fine with it, or he could blow up in my face. Or he could come back to me days later after being fine with it and blow up in my face. And I'm not talking about typical teenage dad-uses-full-name-at-kid. I'm talking about red in the face, let's go for a drive, why aren't you normal, shrinking me down to the point where I would disappear with one more cut. And I have to talk to him about it at my counceling appointment Thursday. I'm scared as anything right now. I don't want to do it. I don't. I can already feel myself getting sick.

Another thing, as if my dad wasn't weighing heavily enough on my mind, a previous boyfriend of mine has decided, out of the blue, that he doesn't want anything to do with me anymore. If I'm quoting him correctly, "I'll be very dry and blunt about this: I think it'd be better if we just didn't talk to eachother anymore. We're two different people from two different lives."

What now? He's in college in England right now, so I don't get to talk to him much, next I'd get to see him is when I'm 18. We didn't have much of a romance thing going on, but we were like, best friends. And now he does this? I left without saying goodbye and haven't talked to him since. That was just a few days ago. I'm still pretty mad and really down about it. I mean, the boy's a genius, but he's really really lacking when it comes to thinking things through in conversation. I admit, I'm not the greatest either. But that was his thing to do and he didn't and it really cut deep. I know i can forgive him cause he's one of those guys that is just so charming you can't stay mad at him.

I'm afraid that he's drinking too much. He's allowed to drink in England and because of that, when he has money, drink he does. Normally, I wouldn't have a problem. I've had a bit of a drinking problem myself and that would be hypocritical. But I can't get me hands on liquer as easily as he can. He goes getting drunk once a week, yeah, I'm gonna worry. I just thank the gods he doesn't drive! But with his problems with his temper lately and his drinking, he's acting like my dad. I don't want him to be that way and I don't want to make my mother's mistakes. I know I can't change him, but if he's showing signs of an addictive personality, I want to help him before it's too late.

Lastly, my @#$%ed up love life. It is driving me up a freaking wall. On one hand I have Sarah. She is a great person and a really good friend. I've had a crush on her for some time now. On the other, I have Matt. Wildly funny, everything about him is just....I can't find anything bad about him! I burst into sobbing when I saw him on a date with another girl. Turns out he goes on a lot of dates. He's pretty picky. He's come to be known as a 'player'. I think he's just picky and there's nothing wrong with that.

I am so friggin torn between Sarah and Matt and I don't know what the hell to do. I've tried praying to Aphrodite, I've tried medicine bags, everything I can think of. It's not working! And I can't talk to my mom about it because she doesn't believe in bisexuality! You're either one or the other. THAT'S IT. She thinks that Bisexuals are gay people who are confused or straight people who want to be gay for the fashion statement. Because there WERE no bi people in HER day. *fumes* :rant:

So that's my reason to cry. If anyone has advice, it's appreciated.

[Pesha]

Sometimes I want to just cry becaaue I miss working as a nurse so dang much. I hate being alone without someone in my life. It makes me cry alot at night.

BB
DS.

[Psyche Ague]

I'm scared for my roommate because she's so depressed. I see myself in her sometimes and I would never wish that on anyone. She looks for temporary fixes and escapes and even wants to start cutting herself again.

I really want to give her all the knowledge I gained in the past year so she won't do this to herself anymore.

[ArKane]

:hugs: Sometimes its good just to have a good cry for no reason just to get all your frustuctions and worries out of your system. It's not a good idea to bottle it up because it can come out it really bad ways. :hugs:

[SilverMaiden]

I cried all day last thursday and friday.

I cried because I'm afraid that something is seriously wrong with my Nanuk. I cried because I'm not ready to say to good-bye to him if I have to. I cried because I have so many plans for us and I don't know I can make them happen now. I cried because I just love him so much. I cried because it will be weeks before I know what I can do or choose. I cried because I am afraid and I don't want to hurt and I don't want to lose him and I don't want him to suffer. I cried because I have to make some sucky arse decisions and I love him too much not to make those decisions and love him too much to make them too. I cried because I'm afraid to be wrong when it comes to him.