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silvermist09
October 3rd, 2010, 12:08 PM
So I'm not really sure what exactly is going on with me. I don't know if I have empathic abilities, some other type of ability, or if I'm just going nutty. I'm hoping some of you here with more knowledge and experience can help me out. I'll tell you everything that's happened for me, so forgive me if this gets rather long.

Ever since I was a child, little odd things would happen for me. I can't tell you how many times a song would randomly pop into my head, and then I'd turn on the radio and that song would come on. On a few occasions, I've had dreams that I guess you could say were premonitions. Nothing big, but the one that stands out to me most is once when I was a child I had a dream that I was in a house laying in a bed and there were hundreds of rats all around me on the floor. After I woke up and went into the living room, my cousin turned on the tv and put on some talk show and one of the guests on the show was a lady that has hundreds of pet rats that she lets roam loose around her house. I also have a constant static-type noise in my head that I hear (I don't know if that's related or just some weird medical phenomenon). Even in pure silence, I hear this staticky hum in my head....similar to the type that a TV would give off. As I got older (in my 20s) I started experiencing some depression and anxiety issues. I always thought it was just me, or possibly genetic. My mom also has anxiety issues (mom is another story, she definitely has some abilities). It was always so random....I'd be perfectly fine one minute, the next minute I feel overwhelming sadness and I can't stop crying. The doctor put me on meds back in February and that helped somewhat, but I stopped taking them a month later and I've been great since. Actually, I've been better off the meds than I was when I was on them. Thursday night my boyfriend and I were hanging out at a friends house and we were all talking about abilities and such (one thing my friends all have in common is that they are mostly all Wiccan, and they mostly all have some type of abilities...which I find very interesting) and I started getting a horrible pressure in my chest, then out of nowhere I started feeling both angry and sad, when just a few minutes before I felt great. It was all I could do to keep from flipping out on my boyfriend when he was drumming his fingers on the couch, then when he stopped I had to keep the tears from coming. It was seriously the strangest thing I've ever felt. As I'm going through all this, they are talking about the presences that are in the house. They all sensed some kind of dark presence. I had no idea what was going on. Later on, one of my friends was telling us how he has empathic abilities and what that's like, and it got me to wondering if that's what I was feeling. Last night something similar happened, we were in a very crowded place (a place that we go to regularly) and everything was great. I was having a good time and I was happy. All of a sudden I felt kind of depressed. I sat there for awhile playing a card game on my phone, trying to distract myself in hopes that it would help, but eventually I couldn't take it anymore and I had to go outside for some air and some peace and quiet. Both times, it felt like it came out of nowhere, and it felt like it didn't belong to me...like I could rationally think to myself that it made no sense because a few minutes before I was fine, but I couldn't stop it either.

Also, I tend to pick up on energies fairly easily. I can walk into a room and sense if there's negative energy, or if something is bothering someone, I can usually sense it. I don't know if this is a normal thing or not, it's just always been me.

Any insight?

Phoenix_Falls
October 3rd, 2010, 12:37 PM
sounds like psychic abilities + empathy to me. Do you wear any jewelry? One thing I've found is that, as an empath, I need to stay away from jewelry that has quartz in it. Especially clear quartz as it has a tendency to amplify things to the nth degree. Also, you may want to learn some meditation techniques which should help you out some as well.

silvermist09
October 3rd, 2010, 01:19 PM
i do wear a necklace everyday that my boyfriend gave me. it's some kind of stone, i'm not sure what it is. it's heart shaped and it's clear with purple in it. i asked my boyfriend to see if he can find out what type of stone it is.

silvermist09
October 7th, 2010, 12:19 AM
pretty sure it's amethyst

Phoenix_Falls
October 7th, 2010, 01:06 AM
pretty sure it's amethyst

hmm. Well, I personally have never had an issue with amethyst, but then, I tend to be rather sensitive to stones and don't keep any currently. If I can recall correctly, one of the properties of amethyst is that it helps with understanding hidden knowledge, which I suppose would fall under the realm of psychic abilities. It also is said to increase mental powers and abate drunkenness.

Some stones I've had pretty good luck with when I need shielding: amber, citrine and especial onyx. If I were you, I'd take the necklace off, just for a few days, maybe a week. Store it someplace where you won't come into contact with it daily or put it in a jewelry box (preferably take the jewelry already in the box out if you intend to wear it) and see if that lessens the occurrences. If it does, it's the necklace, in which case I'd get one of the above mentioned stones, maybe in a ring or a bracelet to wear with the necklace to counteract it a little bit, at least until you get the hang of mental shielding/meditation on your own.

If it's not the necklace, you may just be having a psychic/empathic growth spurt. Which in that case, same thing, get one of the above mentioned stones (I have nothing but fantastic things to say about onyx in this regard) and learn how to meditate/ground yourself and mentally shield yourself. If indeed you do have some empathic abilities, which it sounds like to me, this will be imperative. While it's possible that you may not develop these talents for your own reasons, empathy has a funny way of getting away from you and it can make being in crowds (or really, being around other people in general) very stressful. Good luck, lemme know how it goes!

silvermist09
October 7th, 2010, 05:44 AM
thank you so much for your help and advice :) I will try finding some onyx and go from there.

Phoenix_Falls
October 7th, 2010, 05:48 PM
thank you so much for your help and advice :) I will try finding some onyx and go from there.

no problem! Hope everything works out to your advantage =D