Erigion
January 23rd, 2003, 05:35 PM
Great Divine,
Please help me. I am in more pain than I can even allow myself to feel. I am SO scared. My paranoia is partly founded but it should not be taking over my thoughts like this. I can't live like this. I feel so bad. I don't want to talk to my friends. I can barely work. I can not stop looking over my shoulder. Part of me wants it resolved, part of me wants it delayed forever. All of me wants to be able to live in the meantime. I feel so guilty for even feeling the slightest glimmer of happiness. I feel so unworthy. I can't talk to anyone about this. I've tried. All it does is make me feel worse. :(
But I can still talk to you. . . Please show me the way. Please help me feel better. Please give me the strength to help myself. Please guide me to a peaceful resolution that I can live with. l
I would end it myself. But I know, I have too much to offer. I have too much to do. I will not waste what you have given me. Please help me!
Lasto beth nīn!
*SIGH*
Please help me. I am in more pain than I can even allow myself to feel. I am SO scared. My paranoia is partly founded but it should not be taking over my thoughts like this. I can't live like this. I feel so bad. I don't want to talk to my friends. I can barely work. I can not stop looking over my shoulder. Part of me wants it resolved, part of me wants it delayed forever. All of me wants to be able to live in the meantime. I feel so guilty for even feeling the slightest glimmer of happiness. I feel so unworthy. I can't talk to anyone about this. I've tried. All it does is make me feel worse. :(
But I can still talk to you. . . Please show me the way. Please help me feel better. Please give me the strength to help myself. Please guide me to a peaceful resolution that I can live with. l
I would end it myself. But I know, I have too much to offer. I have too much to do. I will not waste what you have given me. Please help me!
Lasto beth nīn!
*SIGH*