Coincidences?

[cosminv]

I want to tell a strange history that intrigues me a lot. Long time ago (I was 14 years old that time) I had a bad accident and a 1.14 minutes near death experience. Well, as a “good” sequel of it was an empathic capacity and a sensibility towards mysticism. But, and this is my problem, I experienced some bad influences: each time somebody hurts me emotionally and I have resentments something bad will occur. And it happens each time. The first manifestation happened to the doctor that caused my accident (a typical case of mal-praxis): his son dies one year after; some epiphysis grows suddenly from his cervical region thru his brain. Some three years after the good doctor dies in a cardiac attack. Other case: one of my grandfathers offend my mother and myself very nastily and unprovoked. Since than, I hated him (I adore my mother so I take personally any offend address to her) and 6 months later he died for colon cancer. And the list goes on. I found 4 examples of deceased persons and many more of wasted lives after unprovoked attacks against me. Each time theses attacks were very serious and I felt deep negative feelings towards them. Each episode caused a turn of my life and serious and long term emotional damage.
Are they simple coincidences? Can it be a connection between my outer-space experience and these events? Am I a channelor for bad energies? Can I project my feelings so hard that they provoke physical or emotional damage to others?
Sorry for my too long message. I never discussed this matter outside my circle of close freinds before but I feel here (on MW) like home so I dare to expose this "dark side of me" to the light.

[ashling]

Cosminv:
I don't have any answers for you, but believe that you have come to the right place to find them. I am not sure whether it is a good thing or not for these things to be happening. At any point in time, had you ever strongly wished it upon them? Even if you had, I am not sure it was you. It could have been a protective deity who has you under their care, or it could indeed have been an unfortunate coincidence. The only good I can find in this is no longer are these people directly causing you pain. But, eh, a word of advice...please be careful. Anger is a strong emotion. Hatred is a powerful force.
Best wishes.
Ashling

[Ahautenites]

**smiles** I maintain that people only die when they are supposed to. And I would say that if people repeatedly die within minutes or hours of you being ticked off at them, *then* you might worry. However, seeing as months and even years go by before your channeled "retribution" occurs, I'd say you haven't got much to worry about as far as being a channelor of bad energies.

[Raevyn]

First, I must agree with NeferSesemet. I believe that the Will to survive is so innate and intense for most people that it's nearly impossible to unintentionally cause them that much harm.

Further, at least in the cases you mentioned one involved someone who was older and obviously was an angry person (which in itself is known to cause health problems). One involved a person who died through a very common problem (cardiac stuff). As to the doctor's son, I have no clue. I keep thinking you're talking about some sort of growth that went from his cervix through his head ;) though I'm sure that's not right lol. It's likely a coincidence.

Honestly, were I you, I wouldn't worry about it.

[Malkosha]

tend to agree with the above posters ... but with the addition of some advice.

Negative feelings and emotions can do much worse than reach out and touch someone. They can reach out and touch you. When you become angry, and we all do, all that negative energy can stay inside you and build in intensity. Soon your thoughts become negative then your life starts to take on negative aspects. Like a circle of destruction, cause feeds events until your life spirals out of control.

Unless you intentionaly channel bad vibes ... and you say you don't ... then they have no where to go but inside. If you find yourself angry alot or feeling depressed think about learning to control your emotions and keep a positive attitude. If its just the normal "life has kicked in the butt today but I'll come back tommorrow" scenrio, then don't worry, don't blame yourself for others misfortune and don't forget to have fun.