Why?

[Lady Tana]

Goddess I have never been one to question too much the why and wherefores of how my road is laid out. I have accepted and followed and carried on.
The road I am following now is one that I am starting to think too difficult for my abilities. I see no other path, I can find no solution. I trudge along day after day wallowing deeper in the mire that has surrounded me.
I know that it is a trial and that I will be stronger when I find my way to the end but right now I am having a hard time believing there is an end to this.
Being the strong one SUCKS and I am getting very weary of it. There is no one for me to turn to and ask for help but You.
Help my feet to find the correct steps to end this suffering and confusion so that my family can once again be self sufficient and on our own without having to swallow pride to the point that it chokes us so horribly.
Im running out of silver linings for the kids. I know they know how bad off it is right now and I hate that they have to live through this yet again just as we were beginning to have happiness.
Please Goddess......