Caitlin's Personal Altar. (wee)

[FaerySong]

*Walks down a forgotten path, comes to a treestump by a little pure stream. sets up a primitive altar with a red candle, an image of Brigid. Lines the stump with blackberry vines. lights the candle and a peaceful incense, looks distraut and depressed.* Brigid, gracious Triple Goddess, I ask that you lend me your strength. *has red marks on her arms* 3 months have I gone without this, 3 months I held true to the vow I made to myself. This week I snapped. I couldn't stop it. Lay your fiery arrow upon this shadow, let it leave me. May at least 3 more months go by without this frusturation. I trust in you, and I will do my best. *reflects how she felt when she did it, and how she felt after. stubs out the incense, thanks Brigid, snuffs out the flame*

[FaerySong]

Alright Mother, so far so good, I think I'm getting better. Maybe it was the anxiety kicking in. Thank you for holding my hand during this, but it can't be over yet. Please stay by me, and keep me from anything stupid.

[FaerySong]

*lights the candle and incense, smiling in front of the Brigid Image* today was so much easier, I think I'm recovering from it. Grades are better, that's always good. Friends are nice, thats peachy. My crush prob. won't realize it...but thats alright I can deal with that. Family is so-so, but that's fine. I can hide in my world of books and fantasy. Thank you, Lady, for this strength to accept these things.

[FaerySong]

Mother, Father, I am really really afraid. I am getting bad feelings again and I feel like i am going to take it out on myself. I don't want to bleed again but it seems that is the only way! Please please I am pleading with you to help banish these thoughts! *kneels before the alter*