Dresden
February 14th, 2003, 09:16 PM
I first discovered Wicca when I was eleven, during one of my escapes to the public library. I used to practically live there when I was younger, and I'd wander through the history section searching out information on mythology. My dad introduced me to Greek mythology when I was six, and I became obsessed very quickly.
I stumbled across Wicca accidentally, and began to spend every summer day in the library, reading all the Wicca-related books I could find and taking notes on everything. My first BoS was a five subject notebook that I divided into sections (mythology, spells, rituals, etc.) The interest waned when I reached thirteen, and I decided to convert to Christianity. So I started going to confirmation classes (on my own. My mother refused to pay for them. She and my dad are both atheists.) I very quickly realized that Christianity wasn't for me and left. I began studying Wicca once again, but then my life got rather screwy and, long story short, I ended up without much of a spirituality.
I went through some rough times, which I won't go into detail right now. I am currently nineteen and living in England (I was born in Chicago). I've been feeling spiritually unfulfilled for quite some time now, and have become more and more cynical towards other people. This has begun to scare me, since I've been focusing more and more on the negative aspects of people and the world in general, which of course has a negative aspect on my life. Upon visiting my mother in D.C. for Christmas, I came across my old books on Wicca and was flooded with nostalgia and longing. I brought them back here with me, but didn't pick one up until a few days ago, and I've decided to make it a permanent commitment this time.
I already feel so much better. There is a warmth and a deep sense of comfort and contentment having made this decision. My moods have already begun to mellow, as I'd been filled with frustration and pent up anger for awhile now. I just feel like this is the right thing to do, and I feel like I am finally ready, after so many trials, to make this commitment.
Thank you for listening.
Dresden
I stumbled across Wicca accidentally, and began to spend every summer day in the library, reading all the Wicca-related books I could find and taking notes on everything. My first BoS was a five subject notebook that I divided into sections (mythology, spells, rituals, etc.) The interest waned when I reached thirteen, and I decided to convert to Christianity. So I started going to confirmation classes (on my own. My mother refused to pay for them. She and my dad are both atheists.) I very quickly realized that Christianity wasn't for me and left. I began studying Wicca once again, but then my life got rather screwy and, long story short, I ended up without much of a spirituality.
I went through some rough times, which I won't go into detail right now. I am currently nineteen and living in England (I was born in Chicago). I've been feeling spiritually unfulfilled for quite some time now, and have become more and more cynical towards other people. This has begun to scare me, since I've been focusing more and more on the negative aspects of people and the world in general, which of course has a negative aspect on my life. Upon visiting my mother in D.C. for Christmas, I came across my old books on Wicca and was flooded with nostalgia and longing. I brought them back here with me, but didn't pick one up until a few days ago, and I've decided to make it a permanent commitment this time.
I already feel so much better. There is a warmth and a deep sense of comfort and contentment having made this decision. My moods have already begun to mellow, as I'd been filled with frustration and pent up anger for awhile now. I just feel like this is the right thing to do, and I feel like I am finally ready, after so many trials, to make this commitment.
Thank you for listening.
Dresden