redheadwitch
February 20th, 2003, 07:17 PM
:( hmmmm... here is your reading, Quito...only one problem...
for some reason i had written down that your birthday was in the year 1976! which is obviously not what you had written. so if this totally doesn't sound like you in the least little bit, let me know and i will try again...the birthday doesn't usually matter much for me, i usually pick up on people's energy...but i have been known to read someone else instead of who i'm trying to read! (ooops, right phoenix!?)
anyway, here it is...let me know...
1.Ace of cups: you then~
in this past life you were a male, both wealthy and secretive. i think you had a dual life; so either you were a spy, or an undercover policeman, or a crook who came home to his wife every night. not sure yet. you participated in a local church, and everyone believed you were upstanding and faithful to your belief. but you didn't really believe, you went to make your wife happy and to continue the fake identity you created. i am using the secrets tarot...in many decks the ace of cups is flowing with emotions, or is held by a hand, suggesting an element of humanity and intimacy.
this cup is just bare, suspended, alone. it is beautiful, yet empty. you were a very loving husband and friend, yet the real you was completely unknown by your loved ones. this was because of your job, sure, but also because fundamentally you wanted to have a barrier between you and others. i don't think it was because you were insecure, but because you valued what you were doing more than personal relationships. the greater cause sort of thing.
2. 5 of Coins: your live overview~
this card comes off as deceiving instead of poverty. you put on an outward show that couldn't be disputed, while you were actually quite something else. i believe you married into the family you did for political reasons, or to access information for those you worked for. you didn't really need love...because that was just the way your personality was.
you didn't LACK emotions, you just didn't get tied up in things. you saw your bigger purpose and always kept it at the forefront. so you deceived your wife and her family, but you were genuinely a good husband. you got as much love from the situation as you could and needed. while there was no one in your immediate realm that suspected you for anything, someone from your past did come into your life later and you had to do some quick fixing to make sure this person didn't reveal who you were.
3. 10 of Coins: your surroundings:
again, very wealthy. you made others content. i think you probably had a number of houses and places to live, but i think you only had the one wife and family. it may be that you worked for your "home country" and were living in another country. i don't think this was warfare, like you weren't getting secret information for a war, but you may have been sneaking information that was being kept from your country for medicinal reasons. like there was some major development in the medicine fields in this country your wife lived in, and it wasn't being shared...it was kept secret. so this may have been, say, Germany you moved to during or before World War II. some situation like that...and it seems your country needed some information badly to help fight off a pox or some quickly spreading disease that was killing off much of your land. so this was a mercy mission for your homeland.
4. Lovers: your relationships:
don't be fooled! i don't think you were a big ladie's man then! you were an exchange artist...what you needed you got, because you understood that everyone needs something, and they are usually willing to supply something in return for what they need. so this card is more along the lines of "service" than love. the relationships you had were functional...they provided what you needed (a cover like your marriage, information, money, etc.) in exchange for whatever you gave in return (a safe family, safe voyage somewhere, etc.) probably the only person you really considered a "friend" was the person in direct command over you for your country. no idea who that was, but this person may have had a short time in this life as well...as a mentor, teacher, etc. but that is not saying they have for sure shown up in this life.
5. 3 of Wands: your death:
you didn't have a great death...you were murdered. someone caught on to what you were up to and killed you.
this was after you were able to amass a great amount of information, so your country actually still benefitted from what you did, but you were killed. gosh, the interesting thing is, it seems to me you were older, and that you had already done your work. like you had retired and were living a really normal life, when all of a sudden, someone found out about your past and had you killed.
i feel like it was either a drowning, or staged to look like an accident. so they could have killed you any number of ways, but made it look like an accident.
6. 2 of coins: is this past life affecting you now?
this may be saying that you have had some major path questions in your life...perhaps about your identity, religious beliefs, or maybe sexual orientation. not that we all haven't had these, but you may feel more confused or lost or at a place where you could go either way on a lot of issues. if you question yourself about every little thing you do or decide, it is likely because of all the deceit from that life. you spent so much energy then making up lies and stories, while trying to keep to your goal...in this life you may have a hard time figuring out what your goal is or how to stick to it. this is certainly something you can overcome with time, but you have to understand the dual aspects of your nature and who you are now. you have to accept your good qualities, and those you consider "bad" and mold them into one cohesive being in order to really get on your path and go full force. does this make sense?
7. 6 of cups: fears you carried into this life:
that life you chose a noble cause as your main purpose in life. for this life, you may have carried over a fear of family and love. i keep wanting to say that you want a family, but are afraid to follow up with it for fear you will not be what you think you need to be. i don't know if that's true, but since i keep wanting to write it, i had to.
what i see here is a tendency to be a chameleon...so that what other people feel, you agree with. or you can mold into any crowd by becoming more like them...but you really just want to be yourself. as though you have had enough of being what others want, and you want to just be you. do it! there are opportunities for you to have fulfilling relationships if you look beyond what you think you see, and just allow yourself to be you, and allow the situations to occur naturally.
8. Hanged Man: challenge/goal
this goes along with the previous card.
you must learn to let things happen to you. in that life you had to control things, or use everything around you to your advantage. that was the key then; you USED everything. in this life, it seems you will do best if you ALLOW things. allow them to happen to you. go with the flow. allow people into your life. allow yourself some room for failure. you don't have the threat of death hanging over your head in this life (at least, i don't think you do??!!)
so just allow life to happen. as you do, you will see things in new light, and find new paths, new ideas, and directions that will bring more meaning into what you do and love. there are some buildings in the background...high rises and then what reminds me of a pyramid. does this mean anything at all to you? are you an architect? student of archaeology? of egyptian lore? don't know why i needed to bring it up...
9. 4 of swords: talents you carried over
ok, so you'd still be a good spy! or government agent, police officer, etc. you also may still protect yourself from becoming too emotionally attached to anyone. this could work against you, so try to open up to others when it feels relatively non threatening to you.
*** sometimes i am really on, and sometimes i am reading the wrong person! i don't know which it is here, you'll have to tell me...but i'm getting a "Lita" or "Lena" or "Lira" i don't know...seems like an L name. what is going on with that?
10. queen of swords: summary:
hmmm...i'd have to say, i think you have a number of past lives that were female, and that the qualities and abilities you had in those lives have carried over to this one...like you may understand women a lot better than most men are able to. or that a lot of significant people and teachers in your life have been women.
you probably have a certain amount of intuition and empathy that typically are attributed to women.
this might also be signifying that you have lost someone close to you that is female. i guess there are a couple of things i'm thinking about this card, and would like to discuss them with you, but feel it may be better to do that via pm's.
anyway, there is a strong sense of strength and wisdom here, but it seems you are shy to use them. NOT afraid, you don't look at all afraid in this card...rather like you aren't sure it's your place to stand up and do whatever it is.
you are hesitant, or waiting for better circumstances, or waiting to the last moment so you don't hurt anyone.
but whatever this "weapon" or sword or whatever is, it is part of your path, and you must learn to live with it and use it daily. it is a part of you, and the more comfortable you become, the less "shy" you are about it, the more freedom you have to use it in the way it is meant for you.
wow, does that make ANY sense to you? so vague. again, i have ideas of what is going on, so if you are open to discussion, please pm me.
that is all i've gotten. please let me know if this makes ANY sense or if it sounds crazy!
for some reason i had written down that your birthday was in the year 1976! which is obviously not what you had written. so if this totally doesn't sound like you in the least little bit, let me know and i will try again...the birthday doesn't usually matter much for me, i usually pick up on people's energy...but i have been known to read someone else instead of who i'm trying to read! (ooops, right phoenix!?)
anyway, here it is...let me know...
1.Ace of cups: you then~
in this past life you were a male, both wealthy and secretive. i think you had a dual life; so either you were a spy, or an undercover policeman, or a crook who came home to his wife every night. not sure yet. you participated in a local church, and everyone believed you were upstanding and faithful to your belief. but you didn't really believe, you went to make your wife happy and to continue the fake identity you created. i am using the secrets tarot...in many decks the ace of cups is flowing with emotions, or is held by a hand, suggesting an element of humanity and intimacy.
this cup is just bare, suspended, alone. it is beautiful, yet empty. you were a very loving husband and friend, yet the real you was completely unknown by your loved ones. this was because of your job, sure, but also because fundamentally you wanted to have a barrier between you and others. i don't think it was because you were insecure, but because you valued what you were doing more than personal relationships. the greater cause sort of thing.
2. 5 of Coins: your live overview~
this card comes off as deceiving instead of poverty. you put on an outward show that couldn't be disputed, while you were actually quite something else. i believe you married into the family you did for political reasons, or to access information for those you worked for. you didn't really need love...because that was just the way your personality was.
you didn't LACK emotions, you just didn't get tied up in things. you saw your bigger purpose and always kept it at the forefront. so you deceived your wife and her family, but you were genuinely a good husband. you got as much love from the situation as you could and needed. while there was no one in your immediate realm that suspected you for anything, someone from your past did come into your life later and you had to do some quick fixing to make sure this person didn't reveal who you were.
3. 10 of Coins: your surroundings:
again, very wealthy. you made others content. i think you probably had a number of houses and places to live, but i think you only had the one wife and family. it may be that you worked for your "home country" and were living in another country. i don't think this was warfare, like you weren't getting secret information for a war, but you may have been sneaking information that was being kept from your country for medicinal reasons. like there was some major development in the medicine fields in this country your wife lived in, and it wasn't being shared...it was kept secret. so this may have been, say, Germany you moved to during or before World War II. some situation like that...and it seems your country needed some information badly to help fight off a pox or some quickly spreading disease that was killing off much of your land. so this was a mercy mission for your homeland.
4. Lovers: your relationships:
don't be fooled! i don't think you were a big ladie's man then! you were an exchange artist...what you needed you got, because you understood that everyone needs something, and they are usually willing to supply something in return for what they need. so this card is more along the lines of "service" than love. the relationships you had were functional...they provided what you needed (a cover like your marriage, information, money, etc.) in exchange for whatever you gave in return (a safe family, safe voyage somewhere, etc.) probably the only person you really considered a "friend" was the person in direct command over you for your country. no idea who that was, but this person may have had a short time in this life as well...as a mentor, teacher, etc. but that is not saying they have for sure shown up in this life.
5. 3 of Wands: your death:
you didn't have a great death...you were murdered. someone caught on to what you were up to and killed you.
this was after you were able to amass a great amount of information, so your country actually still benefitted from what you did, but you were killed. gosh, the interesting thing is, it seems to me you were older, and that you had already done your work. like you had retired and were living a really normal life, when all of a sudden, someone found out about your past and had you killed.
i feel like it was either a drowning, or staged to look like an accident. so they could have killed you any number of ways, but made it look like an accident.
6. 2 of coins: is this past life affecting you now?
this may be saying that you have had some major path questions in your life...perhaps about your identity, religious beliefs, or maybe sexual orientation. not that we all haven't had these, but you may feel more confused or lost or at a place where you could go either way on a lot of issues. if you question yourself about every little thing you do or decide, it is likely because of all the deceit from that life. you spent so much energy then making up lies and stories, while trying to keep to your goal...in this life you may have a hard time figuring out what your goal is or how to stick to it. this is certainly something you can overcome with time, but you have to understand the dual aspects of your nature and who you are now. you have to accept your good qualities, and those you consider "bad" and mold them into one cohesive being in order to really get on your path and go full force. does this make sense?
7. 6 of cups: fears you carried into this life:
that life you chose a noble cause as your main purpose in life. for this life, you may have carried over a fear of family and love. i keep wanting to say that you want a family, but are afraid to follow up with it for fear you will not be what you think you need to be. i don't know if that's true, but since i keep wanting to write it, i had to.
what i see here is a tendency to be a chameleon...so that what other people feel, you agree with. or you can mold into any crowd by becoming more like them...but you really just want to be yourself. as though you have had enough of being what others want, and you want to just be you. do it! there are opportunities for you to have fulfilling relationships if you look beyond what you think you see, and just allow yourself to be you, and allow the situations to occur naturally.
8. Hanged Man: challenge/goal
this goes along with the previous card.
you must learn to let things happen to you. in that life you had to control things, or use everything around you to your advantage. that was the key then; you USED everything. in this life, it seems you will do best if you ALLOW things. allow them to happen to you. go with the flow. allow people into your life. allow yourself some room for failure. you don't have the threat of death hanging over your head in this life (at least, i don't think you do??!!)
so just allow life to happen. as you do, you will see things in new light, and find new paths, new ideas, and directions that will bring more meaning into what you do and love. there are some buildings in the background...high rises and then what reminds me of a pyramid. does this mean anything at all to you? are you an architect? student of archaeology? of egyptian lore? don't know why i needed to bring it up...
9. 4 of swords: talents you carried over
ok, so you'd still be a good spy! or government agent, police officer, etc. you also may still protect yourself from becoming too emotionally attached to anyone. this could work against you, so try to open up to others when it feels relatively non threatening to you.
*** sometimes i am really on, and sometimes i am reading the wrong person! i don't know which it is here, you'll have to tell me...but i'm getting a "Lita" or "Lena" or "Lira" i don't know...seems like an L name. what is going on with that?
10. queen of swords: summary:
hmmm...i'd have to say, i think you have a number of past lives that were female, and that the qualities and abilities you had in those lives have carried over to this one...like you may understand women a lot better than most men are able to. or that a lot of significant people and teachers in your life have been women.
you probably have a certain amount of intuition and empathy that typically are attributed to women.
this might also be signifying that you have lost someone close to you that is female. i guess there are a couple of things i'm thinking about this card, and would like to discuss them with you, but feel it may be better to do that via pm's.
anyway, there is a strong sense of strength and wisdom here, but it seems you are shy to use them. NOT afraid, you don't look at all afraid in this card...rather like you aren't sure it's your place to stand up and do whatever it is.
you are hesitant, or waiting for better circumstances, or waiting to the last moment so you don't hurt anyone.
but whatever this "weapon" or sword or whatever is, it is part of your path, and you must learn to live with it and use it daily. it is a part of you, and the more comfortable you become, the less "shy" you are about it, the more freedom you have to use it in the way it is meant for you.
wow, does that make ANY sense to you? so vague. again, i have ideas of what is going on, so if you are open to discussion, please pm me.
that is all i've gotten. please let me know if this makes ANY sense or if it sounds crazy!