weird & instantaeneous result...

[Maia]

chairete!

well, this wasn't technically magick, at the time i was inbetween residences (don't ask) so i don't have any of my tools etc and i wasn't in a spell-casting frame of mind. but anyway, i was lying in bed @ my b/f's, mulling over my (nonexistent) options to solve my housing problem, having a total nervous breakdown...sorry if i sound blase (or just completely mad) but it's all gone a bit pear-shaped recently and, to set the scene, i was completely screwed. 17, homeless, jobless, huge screaming fights with my mum again, can't even go back to college (another long story). so yea, i was going completely mad in my own private hell, and i lay there and prayed.

normally when i pray, it's very structured and ritualistic; even if i'm not in front of my altar, i still use the same kinda format. but this night, i just lay there and...i dunno, ached? for something to solve my problems...and i imagined my gods as being there, all as vague light-forms, rather than as clear-cut images (i'm big on personification also). and it all seemed very powerful.

anyways, my b/f wasn't in the room while i was doing this; i just assumed he'd left me alone to sleep and gone into the front room. and wat i definitely didn't expect was for him to go ask his parents if i cud stay a while- sure, we'd discussed it, but i was kinda reticent (living with ur bloke's family...scary) and he was gonna wait a while until he caught them @ a good time (we all know the tricks for trying to get round parents!!). and then, half-way thru this 'visualisation' or wateva it was i was doing, pouring out my heart to my gods, he came bouncing in, jumped into bed n gave me a hug n said "u can stay."

result! ok, so it was probably coincidence, but any spellwork i've ever done has always worked out as things u cud put down to coincidence...so i dunno. but it was weird, in that i've prayed for a solution so many times and then woken up to same **** different day (to put it crudely)...but it was this whole 'forms of light' thing that - maybe? - triggered this.

sorru if that was rambly or if i sound like a mad teen, but like i said, it was kinda odd. but coincidence or otherwise, at least i've sorted out that whole minor 'roof over my head' situation ;)

eudaimonia
xxx

[indigo rain]

that's usually how i do magick, don't really use tools or ritual so much as i just will things to happen. and i've found when you're really distraught over something, when your emotions are running high and you're feeling really intensely, you can make really cool things happen. congrats on getting a roof over your head. :)

[cydira]

In my mind, there is no difference between prayer and magic. Both are the concentrated use of your energy, prayer is just a different form of magic, in my mind. That said, I'd be inclined to argue that the most effective form of prayer is that spontaneous plea from the heart.

I've done the more structured and the spontaneous form of prayer, I'd have to say that the latter had faster and quite unexpected results. Now, I'm something of a mystic, I'm inclined to argue that god is present everywhere and all we need to do is look with the right perspective. I do think that individual gods are out there, I've had run ins with them, which has made my life interesting to say the least.

But that larger concept of god, the unmanifest is one of the descriptions...

Where was I? I got distracted by a commotion going on outside the house and lost my train of thought. <ponders for a moment> Ah, I was going to say that the larger concept of god, as the pervading essence of the Universe or the Universe at large is the one that I'd say is present at all times and everywhre. We can touch that essence through the individual gods that we encounter, they focus that pervading essence and express it through thier own being. Hence the whole being gods thing. :) But I think this is where the axiom of all gods are one god comes into play. But Now i'm completely off topic, So I'll stop rambling.

One last little note on prayer and magic. A wish is a type of prayer, you coulds say. In the case of prayer or a wish, be careful what you ask for. You want to be very specific in that case because they will result in unexpected things, the more qualifiers you place, the more focused it will be in the direction that you need it to go, most of the time.
Of cousre, that has also been my experience too.

Blessings.