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[FeatherGoblinglimmer]

Great mother,
I come to ask that you help those who are dear to me. The ones that have pain that needs taking away, I ask for you to listen and do what is right for everyone in need.

Help Menolly who's life over the past months has been trying beyond belief, and help her son Kian be the social child that he should be.Calm her fears and heal her heart because she is a star in this dark life and I don't want her dim.

Help Druid who has also had a trying time in all this. I know he is hurting and I hope it will stop. He is a strong person and he has helped me and others in times of need. He derserves comfort and calm in these dark times.

Help Sianand get well, so her kidney problems will fade away.Wrap her in warm light and heal her soul. She is an angel who always puts others in front of herself even when she is in need. I love her dearly and want all to be well for her.

I ask for continued calm and strength for my friend Jess whose family i know worry her. I hope the light of love in her life continues in its
current brightness and that she finds happiness in life.

Help my Phill get through today at work. I know today is a hard one for him, that there might be trouble for him. He works hard all the time for me and Milly and himself. Keep him calm in times of stress and blame and i send warmth and love his way and hope all is well.

I ask for strength for my daughter Milly who is getting a new tooth through and i know it is hurting her. She is such a good girl and she doesn't whinge or play up. I love her always and forever and hope that this pain will end soon.

If it be right, so mote it be.
Thank you for listening great mother.

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To my worry stone, i pour my troubles too you and hope too heal them.

I hope my melancholy goes soon. I hate feeling down like this. I would stop taking the injection that i think is having great effect in all this. All the extre hormones play havoc but if i do i will constantly be paranoid about being pregnant again. I know Milly was meant to be but I don't think i could cope again, not yet.As it is I have my paranoid days.

I hope that i can make some more friends soon. I hope i find a mother and baby group i like but there are so few that are actually convenient for me. And what if the mums are all mean or we have nothing to talk about. Will it be like schoo where i inevitabley hid away in a corner wanting to join in but knowing i wasn't good enough.

Lend me the courage to go up to the college to get the info on the courses i was interested in. I havn't been up there since i was last enrolled there and i still get scared to go back.

I hope to have continued patience with Milly in her recent phase. She is coming on so well and i hope it continues.

Thanx for listening, I have to go now, Milly is awake and i hae to take her out her cot.

[FeatherGoblinglimmer]

Stop me feeling like this please, show me the way out Great mother

[FeatherGoblinglimmer]

I feel so alone. I don't do anything anymore. It's not cos i don't want to do anything either.I know i'm whining and i have so much to be thankful for and i bless you for that. I've got a better life than ever before.There doesn't seem to be a way out of this. i'm s tired.

[FeatherGoblinglimmer]

Great Mother, thank you. I talked with Phill last nite and we sorted some stuff out about my recent feelings. He made me feel a lot better. Thank you for bringing someone like that into my life.

I pray today that Pauls car is ok and that it isn't in a bad state as they were robbed last nite. I also pray that Paul and Liz are ok.

[FeatherGoblinglimmer]

The chief of Aesir goddess. She is associated with love, marriage, and motherhood. She is the patron of marriage and motherhood, and the goddess of love and fertility. In that aspect she shows many similarities with Freya, of whom she possibly is a different form.

She has a reputation of knowing every person's destiny, but never unveils it.

She is frequently pictured as being very beautiful, wearing a girdle with household keys and weaving clouds on her spinning wheel. She sometimes dressed in the plumage of falcons and hawks, and she could also travel in the form of these birds.

She participated in the Asgardreid ( hunt) along with her husband.

Frigg's messenger is Gna, who rides through the sky on the horse Hofvarpnir. In some myths she was rumored to have had love affairs with Odin's brothers Ve and Vili.

With her husband, she was the mother of Bragi and Hermod.

After her son Balder began to have dreams that he was in great peril, Frigg traveled everywhere on Earth, asking everything in the world not to harm her son. Once these pledges were made, the gods began to amuse themselves by throwing weapons and shooting arrows at him for sport, since anything they hurled at him would simply be deflected. But Loki, the trickster-fire god, deceived Frigg into confiding that she had excepted a young sprig of mistletoe from taking the vow. Loki immediately went out and gathered a shaft of mistletoe, took it back to the assembly where the gods were still entertaining themselves by hurling things at Balder, and tricked the blind god Hod into hurling it at Balder, who was immediately killed.

Eir, a goddess of healing, was one of her constant companions.

She may have had an affair with Vei and Vili, Odin's brothers. .

She had three attendants, Hlin, Gna and Fulla, all of whom may have been the same deity in a different aspect as Frigg.

hlin.Her name means "protector", and Frigg gave her the duty to protect men and to console grieving mortals.

Fulla. She is the one who takes care of Frigg's coffer and shoes.

In a kenning(poem,) gold is said "Fulla's ribbon".

Her name is related to the adjective fullr that means full.

Volla is probably another spelling of Fulla.


Gna. She is the one who takes care of Frigg's matters around the world. Probably for this reason she owns a horse called Hofvarpnir, who is able to move through air and water.

This is what i have found. I am hoping there is a little more out there. I would like to find out some more info on her handmaidens,more about her hall in Asgard, and maybe even some pictures of Frigg and the handmaidens as so far I have seen none.

I hope people out there can help.

[FeatherGoblinglimmer]

Nor did he ever wash his hands nor comb his hair,
until he brought Baldr's adversary to the funeral pyre;
and in Fen-halls Frigg wept
for the woe of Valhall--do you understand yet, or what more?


(see Hlín)

Then the second grief of Frigg comes about
when Odin advances to fight against the wolf,
and the bright slayer of Beli against Surt;
then the beloved of Frigg must fall.



Vafþrúðnismál

Odin said

'Advise me now, Frigg, I intend to journey to visit Vafthrudnir;
I've a great curiosity to contend in ancient matters with that all-wise giant.'


Frigg said

'I'd rather keep the Father of Hosts
at home in the court of the gods,
for I have always thought no giant is as powerful as Vafthrudnir is.'


Odin said

'Much I have travelled, much have I tried out,
much have I tested the Powers;
this I want to know; what kind of company is found in Vafthrudnir's hall.'


Frigg said

'Journey safely! Come back safely!
Be safe on the way!
May your wisdom be sufficient when, Father of Men, you speak with the giant'



Lokasenna

Prose Introduction

Ægir, who is also called Gymir, had brewed ale for the Æsir, when he got the great cauldron which has just been told about. To the feast there came Odin and Frigg, his wife.

Frigg said

'Your actions ought never to be
spoken in front of people,
what you two Æsir did in past times;
always keep ancient matters concealed.'

Loki said

'Be silent, Frigg, you're Fiorgyn's daughter
and you've always been mad for men:
Ve and Vili, Vidrir's wife,
both were taken into your embrace.'

Frigg said

'You know that if I had here in Ægir's hall
a boy like my son Baldr,
you wouldn't get away from the sons of the Æsir;
there'd be furious fighting against you.'

Loki said

'Frigg, do you want me to say still more about my wicked deeds;
for I brought it about that you will never again
see Baldr ride to the halls.'

Freyja said

'Mad you are, Loki, when you reckon up your ugly, hateful deeds;
Frigg knows, I think, all fate,
though she does not speak out.'


Grímnismál Prose Introduction

Odin and Frigg sat in Hlidskialf and looked into all the worlds. Odin said, 'Do you see Agnar, your foster child, there raising children with a giantess in a cave? But Geirrod, my foster-child, is king and rules over the land.' Frigg says: 'He is so stingy with food that he tortures his guests if it seems to him that too many have come.' Odin says that is the greatest lie. They wagered on the matter.

Frigg sent her handmaid, Fulla, to Geirrod. She told the king to beware lest a wizard, who had come into the country, should bewitch him, and said that he could be known by this sign: that no dog was so fierce that it would attack him. And that was the greatest slander that Geirrod was not generous with food; however, he had the man whom no dog could attack arrested. He was wearing a blue cloak and called himself Grimnir, and would say nothing more about himself, though he was asked. The king had him tortured to make him speak and set him between two fires, and he sat there eight nights.

Oddrúnargrátr

'May all the kindly beings help you,
Frigg and Freyja and more of the gods,
as you warded away the dangerous illness from me.'

[FeatherGoblinglimmer]

I feel refreshed. I have found what i was needing. Thank you. I have found you Frigg. I know you have been calling to me for a while and i have finally found you. I remember when you came to me as a young teenager. I woke up about dawn. I could hear so many birds, the room was so bright and warm. There was an unbelievable sense of calm then at a time when i was so desperate. You came and you stroked my face, you were humming something, not sure what now, i can't remember. You were wearing a blue dress and your hair was a warm brown tied back in a braid.That was and is all i ever remember of when i first saw you. I would like to feel your presence again, it was so loving. I pray you might go to a little boy called Richard who is very ill. Give him that loving warm presence. He doesn't deserve what is happening to him, and i am thinking that i shall send some warm pink light to wrap around my friend Jackie as she is feeling bad at the minute. She takes on so much. I wonder if she is empathic??

[FeatherGoblinglimmer]

Frigg, i want to thank you for sending Sammy back into my life. I am glad that everything is working out well for her and that she has sorted herself out.

Comfort jackie when the pain gets too much. (((((((((())))))))). She takes on peoples feelings and i worry about her.

i am also sending calming energy to my phill as today has been horrible for him so far. I love him and he doesn't deserve anything bad.


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I am sitting in a woody place, there is a lake there and it is so blue. The colours around me are so vibrant, greens from the trees and the grass, and lavender and bluebells. Such a lovely smell. It is calm here and there is no outside noise except birds and insects.
I sit by the lake on a rock that is there. I trail my hand in the water, it is so clear and cool, i drink some and it is sweet. I can see small fish in the lake when the sun shines through the trees.It is warm and there is a gentle breeze that flows through my hair.

There is a cave through the trees. I walk towards it. when i look again i find that there is a gentle waterfall ere.The cave is behind it.

[FeatherGoblinglimmer]

Thank you for sending people back into my life Frigg, and thank you for the help you have given me. bless you. :)

I had forgotten how sweet my friends could be an i am thankful to them.

Ihope Menolly doesn't take what i said to her to badly, but it needed saying. I had to explain myself and it had been long overdue. I hope this doesn't push her away from me even more.

[FeatherGoblinglimmer]

This is what has gone on today Frigg, between my friend Liz and I. You can see what she has put and this has hurt me deeply. I know what i said to her was a bit harsh but i thought she was a strong enough person to take this. I told her nothing but truths and i can't believe she reacted like this. I don't know what i was expecting her to be like Frigg. She ahd always told me that she values the truth. So i told her the truth. I am so, so sorry I have hurt her so much and I hope one day she will see it in her heart to forgive me. I love Liz like a sister and although she is in a trying situation that i do not agree with i have at no point judged her. I have heard from both her and Paul so i think i might just have heard both sides of the story. I know i don't know it all, and there was stuff in that last email she sent me that no, i didn't know. But i wasn't reffering to anything that either her or paul hadnn't told me. I had felt torn from the moment I found out about all of this.Torn between my values and my friends, and torn between Liz and Paul.And i tryed my *REMOVED BY mol* best to keep my values out of this. I tryed to just be there for both of them.

and i also care about there little boy Kian. I know he is a demanding child, and i know Liz must be struggling with him and everything else. I worry about both of them.I know she can't handle the housework.And i have helped so many times because i had been there myself. I am sorry that i have hurt her Frigg. I did not mean too. I love her and i am sorry. I am not sorry i told her the truth though. I could have told her something which sounded so much nicer but it wouldn't have been what i felt.

Please send healing energy to her frigg, give her the comfort she needs. I hope that i have not done lasting damage.

[FeatherGoblinglimmer]

I thought i should just write here all that went on. I want it to stay on my mind because i hate to have wronged her.I feel so bad. I just wanted to tell her the truth.

I hope this won't turn others against me. I would hate that.I hate the fact that i have lost liz now. The one thing i hoped would not happen has. I have feared this since i first met liz.

[FeatherGoblinglimmer]

Frigg, i pray to you that Liz is well and that no harm befall her. I know that i have hurt her. I didn't want to. Please give me the strength not to feel guilty over this and not to play into her as well. If i do that all i said will be in vain, and that cannot be as i have lost that which is dear.I pray also that no one else will be hurt so much by this.

For the lady in the ribbon shop, i pray that her purse turns up for her. it got stolen and she has a lot of attachment to that purse. She isn't worried about the money, but her mum gave her that purse b4 she died and that is one of the last things she has of it.so i pray to you, let her

[FeatherGoblinglimmer]

I almost have everything for my bedroom altar now Mother Frigg. YAY!!!!:fpompoms

I just have to get some elemental candles and a few more things and a nice oil burner and i am done. I cannot wait to dedicate myself to the path properly. I had been waiting for the time that felt right. And now feels right to me.

I hope Jackie feels better, she had to cancel on me and i have a feeling that she had to go help someone who is very down right now. I hope she has learnt to block more.

I am good today. Last nite with Sammy did me an amazing amount of good.

I thank you Mother Frigg for all the blessings you have given me. And i shall strive to take the bad times as best i can.


Send good things that kind bus drivers way. He has been very nice to me and he deserves some good.

Heal those i know who are hurting right now mother Frigg.They don't deserve there pain. Help them to move on to better things:jamsessio


Thank you for the help with Milly. Your strength was as always so so helpful.

[mol]

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[FeatherGoblinglimmer]

I worry Frigg. Something feels so , so wrong. I can't tell what. Something is eating at me. Help me to see what it is so i can do my best to help. I feel as if something has died. I don't think i mean physically or anything. But on the spirit plane maybe. I on't know. But a part is missing. I've tried meditating, just in case it was just me worrying in general.I wonder sometimes if i'm empathic. I just don't know enough. I shall hae to ask those more in the know. I have been having funny aches again. I can't really describe them but you know what i mean.
I bless you for the continuing well being of my friends and that all will be well with everyone. Take away the pain and the guilt

[FeatherGoblinglimmer]

I think the day in B'ham helped Phill and me a lot Frigg. However phill asked me if i am gonna get useds to Milly having a permamnent dad. I will. But it will takle me a while to feel he should take more responsibility. I trust im with Milly and he is ever so gentle. Please give me what i need to do that.

[FeatherGoblinglimmer]

I don't know if i can write here again. It seems like it's not the place i thought it would be. I thought it was just my own. Between me and the gods. Just until i have my altar set up. But it doesn't seem that way.I was wrong to leave those pms up, but i was hurt and venting. I didn't mean to offend. It seems that whatever i put on here is up for constant scrutiny and i don't know whether i can deal with that.

[FeatherGoblinglimmer]

I am fed up with it all...We spent loads off money on stuff for our halloween party and 1 person came. £50 wasted!!!!We'll be in booze for years.There were a couple of people with good reasons why they didn't come but the others didn't....I don't see anyone anymore. Not cos i don't want to, or because of lack trying but whenever i do arrange things something comes up.Someone else needs someone, a crisis or another. Always f****ing something!!!I just feel like i should stop trying cos there is no point... As something ALWAYS comes up. With everyone!!!It takes the P***

The only person who has realised and even cares how deppressed I am about my weight is Phill. I have been trying for 7 months and nothing!!! Absolutely nothing has happened..I feel like crap!!!!!I'm still gaining weight. I have severe trouble finding clothes that fit me in high street stores and have to go to special shops like Evans to get stuff that fits.I look disgusting. All fat and bumpy.My self esteem and confidence has crashed and i don't know what to do anymore.
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Give comfort and soothing to Sammy, Richard and all others touched by his situation.((()))

[FeatherGoblinglimmer]

Well, i know what i need to do, and it shall be hard..Today i am ging to have what i shall truely miss and then i shall have to suffer without... Yule will be hard. It was the only thing that was any good b4, now it shall be without that..I mean it will still be good i know that Frigga, but it will be hard all the same. Give me the strength to deal with all this my lady. Give me the strength to kerb this addiction.

I hope the people involved in the Yule exchange let me know soon... I so want this to work. An it is getting harder and harder.

Give comfort to all that need it My lady Frigga. And give me the strength that i am lacking. My current situation is wearig on me and this time of year always leaves me down. I can't wait to Yule. My spirit is always revived by it.

ps...Milly said mummy today..WOOT!!!

[FeatherGoblinglimmer]

I have decided for now to concentrate on my readings..Finally. I have been taking cursory glances and curios research on several areass, but this will be the one i shall focus on for now.The Yule exchange is going well and i have got the present for my buddy, which is waiting to be sent off. Milly has become a lot more vocal during the last week. Saying a lot more things.:) Thank you for watching over her My lady Frigga.:)

I ask also for continued healing energies for a certain little furry friend of Lamoondove's.. For Lamoondove an her family as well.She seems a truely beautiful person who only deserves happiness.

Also, I ask for guidance in contacting the spiritthat is with me. Since Marmie passed on I have been folloewed by a prescence and i am wondering v.much if it is her.

Merry meet and merry part till we meet again

So mote it be

Feather***

[FeatherGoblinglimmer]

I hope Sable is ok. Lamoondove hasn't been on since last nite and that isn't like her.((())). Help me to curb the habits i am slipping into again. I am slipping. Nothing bad yet, but it could be getting there.:)I don't want to be fat forever.Please sooth my troubled mind till i have the time to focus on myself. Thank you,

Feather

[NightBathen]

Brightest blessing on your alter from a friend you used to share insperation with. I am proud of what your doing. May the Gods visit all of their splendor upon you child.


(I will erase this if it interupts your page, sorry)

[FeatherGoblinglimmer]

No, it doesn't interrupt at all. My thanx for the blessings.:)

I don't suppose i could ask who you are.I'm curious, i have been trying to think who you are but no ideas have come.

You don't have to tell me who you are* just curious* ((())

Again thanx for the blessings and may they return to you threefold:)

Feather

[FeatherGoblinglimmer]

Going to Phills parents today. Plan to do more studying later. Huggles and energy to all who need it. Especially Sable:)

[FeatherGoblinglimmer]

Huggles and Healing for Lamoondove. I hope she gets better soon. Keep her warm and safe((()))

[FeatherGoblinglimmer]

My lady Frigga, thank you for watching over Lamoondove and her furbaby.Keep on doing so until they are better and take my love and healing thoughts to them.

Jackie said she would come over today...We'll see if she manages to com..I am sure she has lots to do so i won't be angry at her if she can't.

Going shopping for essentials and Yule meal stuff today.. I plan to do a nice meal and have a healing ritual on Yule itself.Me and my partner have got each other a present that we can open then..By the looks of his it is a tarot or oracle deck...YAY.

I hope he likes my pressie. Going for breakfast now. Milly is having hers now too.. Hot buttered toast.. and a clementine if she's still hungry afterwards...

My Lady love and Light,
many thanx for the blessings last night,
i open my heart and open my soul,
let the message be clear to me soon.
The dream in my head,
the faery princess....

Help me to understand my lord and Lady.

[FeatherGoblinglimmer]

well, i know the answer from my parents over Yule....They don't want us there. Dad made some excuse about mum and dad working full time being the reason they hadn't returned my calls. They have to be home some of the time...They must have just been ignoring them. bumped into them in the Ko op while coming out of the toy store there. It was strained and difucult and awqwaurd( awful spelling bu tmind has gone blank). They didn't know what to say, and we didn't either. They are ashamed of milly and of me,and of Phill being here even though we aren't married..

Me and my parents don't get on a lot of the time... We are just to different, i'm to opinionated and won't just stay quiet when they are spouting bs.But we at least met up on b'days and Yule and things...i guess that they just don't care any more.I wouldn't be bothere if it was anyone else but they are my parents... *sigh* i just don't know..I guess it will be something i except rather quickly as i never see them anyway, and my new family are great.:)

[FeatherGoblinglimmer]

My Lady Frigga, My Lord and Lady

I come to you on this solstice day,
with thanks in my heart for the blessings, for the things i have,
a wonderful daughter and a partner who would do anything for me,
a roof over my head, food for my family , and a warm place to be.

i want to thank you too for the new family i have.
Phills family are marvellous and are more than i could ever imagine...Thank you.
All my blessings to my friends who have been there for me when i needed them,
especially the ones i no longer see.

At this time of new begginings and immense joy,
my heart belongs now, like it never has before.
and i am glad.

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Phill got me the Brian Froud faery Oracle..It is sooooooooooo gorgeous, and unlike working with any other deck of mine.I so far have 2 favourite cards: The faun and the faery who was kissed by the pixies. Havn't read the meanings yet, am still working on the cards with my own feelings first so i don't let what the book says cloud my intuition.

Gave Phill his ring and he loves it.I am glad because i wasn't sure what he would think.I'm glad it ends up fitting perfectly where it did. I hoped it would.:D

Can't wait for the 25 th. Going over to Phils parents, it's going to be a real family gathering..YAY!
Milly deserves that. And my god is she gonna be spoiled..We are going to have to open some of her presents on the 24th just to make sure we have time to open them all. God knows where we shall put everything. Oh well...A big clear out after xmas i guess.I plan to get some of those stackable boxes.

Its mine and Phills anniversary on the third of January. we are going for a meal and to see
a movia and thenwe are staying the night in a hotel..I can't wait. I've brought some french lace underwear and a new satin nightgown.. I hope he likes.I hope he likes the new outfit i have for the day too.:)

I hope i won't be to short on money. I managed to go really overdrawn this week, thanks to Phills dads presents and my new shoes.I'm not going to worry. i never have to much diffuculty and i thank you my lord and lady for that. I always have the money i need, and you know i am always sensible.

Blessed be my Lord and Ladies, thank you for your multiple blessings, and visit them on all that need them:)

Feather
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[FeatherGoblinglimmer]

Wow, xmas was wonderful...:D

My parents came over xmas eve.. for about 20 mins, which i wasn't expecting. Nice though, if arquard.

We stayed over Phills parents xmas eve through to boxing day and it was soooooooooooo fun. we ended up opening most of our pressies xmas eve, to make sure we got through millies with no problem ( as she had loads). We even opened up some of hers on xmas eve too.She got some amazing stuff,.... and my god was she spoiled.

I ghot several really lovely things. Phill got me my own computer.. Just trying to get the operating system up and running. Phill is putting xp on it. He insists on downloading it though.* sigh* so it shall take a while.

Gotta run.

Blessings to all
((()))

[FeatherGoblinglimmer]

The computer still isn't working properly....:( We installed 98 in the end. I thought great, i can finally do stuff on it... Little did i know i was in for a big dissapointment..

I installed Yuris revenge, that won't work properly, comes up with an error box about 10 mins or so after playing it.

So i tryed installing Balders gater...Which i have been dying to play.. What haoppened.. Gened up my character, started to play. went to talk to one of the priests and the computer crashed.....*HMphh*

Phill reckons that the CPU is to fast for 98 and will run better on xp, as the faster chips were designed for that. What more can i do but take his word for it.. I must say that i have little hope though:( My goddess i hope it works.

I havn't felt like this in a while. So dissapointed. So , i don't know..Numb.

Xmas was so good but since then something has changed in me. I have become so complacent. My lady, let me find what it is i seek again.

Milly is trying my patience so much at the minute too.. My Lady Frigga, please give me the strength to deal with her.

Send my love to Phill too, wrap him in it. This is a trying time for him too. He is so dissapointed that it isn't working. I can tell.

[FeatherGoblinglimmer]

My lord and lady i am sorry for my absence from my devotion. You know i care , you truely do, and you know what i have been feeling . That must change now, i must change back or move on from myself. I have been neglecting them lots and putting myself before there needs. In essence that isn't bad but the amount i have been doing it has scared me. I realised this yesterday. Me and Phill were talking about the computer he got me. The processor in it is bad so we are having to take it back and get a new one. He is planning on going to do it on Saturday, ( our anniversary);he then talked about getting the new one networked and transfering files over so he could format one of his drives. I jumped in and assumed he was going to do all this on Saturday.. After i said it i couldn't believe myself, and i realised i had been saying stuff like that a lot lately. Phill got v. angry i could tell by the look on my face and ran off into the bedroom cause i was upset and shocked at myself and i needed time to think and Phill had given me this cold, angry look saying that he wanted to be alone. I needed to think, and hard too. I couldn't believe what i said. It sounded loike just the thing my mum would say, if she were in the situation and i hated myself for not realising. I sat on the bed and just thought. I couldn't believe it. Me and phill have been having some kind of ...rut( for want of a better term) for a while. Nothing really bad but we have been off with each other.I sat there with many thoughts in my head. was it me? Had i changed somehow , was i just to insecure in myself now? Was Phill getting tired of me? I didn't beliebve that though, because just the other night Phill had told me he wanted to spend the rest of his life with me. I narrowed down our little rut to my upsurging of assuming and jumping to conclusions and damn right annoyingness.

After i figured out this revelation, phill walked in. I was standing by the window crying because i was unhappy at myself and worried about phill. He came over to me, and i apoligised about how i had been recently. He said ok, but ther ewas still anger in his voice. I then went out to coventry. went shopping in lush and got Phill his anniversary pressie. :).

When i got back Phill was there, i was nervous cause i didn't know if he was still angry at me. I didn't want him to be. Shiny happy people was on in the background.It is one of the songs on his sad list( songs he listens to when he is sad). I smiled and said i had got him something. He came down, took me in his arms and said that life was to short for arguing and could we kiss and make up...so we did:)

I am so glad we did. I hate to fight with him.

I had a dream last nite that i think allayed any misgivings i had. Thank you my lady Frigga. It showed him there, in a most new light. And he was strong and we were meant to be. His strong arms held me and i melted into him. He protected me and i protected him. That we were always meant to be together ran through it. #

Hennaed my hair today. My god that stuff is just disgustinfg. Not sure what i think yet but i am wondering whether it is worth the hassle of cleaning it out.

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Millie's really getting on top of me at the minute...It's so hard and i jhave noone to talk to about it , it's not something Phill would understand.i have to go, i wish in my heart i could write more but i can't. I hope those i call friends are all ok.

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Millie's really getting on top of me at the minute...It's so hard and i jhave noone to talk to about it , it's not something Phill would understand.i have to go, i wish in my heart i could write more but i can't. I hope those i call friends are all ok.

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blinkie trying.

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Great mother,
I come to ask that you help those who are dear to me. The ones that have pain that needs taking away, I ask for you to listen and do what is right for everyone in need.

Help Menolly who's life over the past months has been trying beyond belief, and help her son Kian be the social child that he should be.Calm her fears and heal her heart because she is a star in this dark life and I don't want her dim.

Help Druid who has also had a trying time in all this. I know he is hurting and I hope it will stop. He is a strong person and he has helped me and others in times of need. He derserves comfort and calm in these dark times.

Help Sianand get well, so her kidney problems will fade away.Wrap her in warm light and heal her soul. She is an angel who always puts others in front of herself even when she is in need. I love her dearly and want all to be well for her.

I ask for continued calm and strength for my friend Jess whose family i know worry her. I hope the light of love in her life continues in its
current brightness and that she finds happiness in life.

Help my Phill get through today at work. I know today is a hard one for him, that there might be trouble for him. He works hard all the time for me and Milly and himself. Keep him calm in times of stress and blame and i send warmth and love his way and hope all is well.

I ask for strength for my daughter Milly who is getting a new tooth through and i know it is hurting her. She is such a good girl and she doesn't whinge or play up. I love her always and forever and hope that this pain will end soon.

If it be right, so mote it be.
Thank you for listening great mother.

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To my worry stone, i pour my troubles too you and hope too heal them.

I hope my melancholy goes soon. I hate feeling down like this. I would stop taking the injection that i think is having great effect in all this. All the extre hormones play havoc but if i do i will constantly be paranoid about being pregnant again. I know Milly was meant to be but I don't think i could cope again, not yet.As it is I have my paranoid days.

I hope that i can make some more friends soon. I hope i find a mother and baby group i like but there are so few that are actually convenient for me. And what if the mums are all mean or we have nothing to talk about. Will it be like schoo where i inevitabley hid away in a corner wanting to join in but knowing i wasn't good enough.

Lend me the courage to go up to the college to get the info on the courses i was interested in. I havn't been up there since i was last enrolled there and i still get scared to go back.

I hope to have continued patience with Milly in her recent phase. She is coming on so well and i hope it continues.

Thanx for listening, I have to go now, Milly is awake and i hae to take her out her cot.

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lol, i guess i abuse this altar a bit, putting these dolls on and stuff but they're pretty and it helps to put them somewhere thats mine.

I can't really say much at the mo my lady. I'm going through a bit of of chaos. If i was mid age i would call it a midlife crisis. I am sorting my head out eventually. I hope. :)

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lol, i guess i abuse this altar a bit, putting these dolls on and stuff but they're pretty and it helps to put them somewhere thats mine.

I can't really say much at the mo my lady. I'm going through a bit of of chaos. If i was mid age i would call it a midlife crisis. I am sorting my head out eventually. I hope. :)

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My banner that i made has errors.HMMPH

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My banner that i made has errors.HMMPH

[Aleia Darkchild]

A new name, a new start, a new life. i am changed yet renewed. Frikka,Woden , Freyja and the fates look at me and hear my thanks.