I need help.

[WtchyChick13]

Ok, you guys know that I don't normally do this. But I'm starting to get more and more down as time goes on. :(

I know a lot of what I'm feeling right now may be just residual from it being 9/11 week. The depression, the obsession, the insomnia and the nightmares all came right back just like it did when it happened. It was tough to hear a few of the names yesterday as they were being read and my PTSD is just as strong as ever.

On top of that, my cousin in the hospital--just found out tonite. This is her second pregnancy and the second time she will deliver at just 5 months. She and my little guy (her actual son, but he's more like my own) almost died when she gave birth 7 years ago. Now, she's going through a similar difficulty with the extrememly heavy bleeding and will definately have to deliver 4 months early. My aunt is a wreck and is already in a difficult position and now this will just add to it.

I have less than no money right now. I just got word from my bank that my account has hit the negative numbers now and I have nothing to give them to rectify this situation. :rolleyes:

My asthma seems to be coming back with avengence and I'm reduced to using 2 year old inhalers just to help me get a breath. I simply just don't have the money to go to the doctor right now. I had hoped that with the weather getting better (and absolutely beautiful) that my breathing would improve, but it's actually gotten worse! I find myself wheezing and actually HEARING every breath that I take while just watching tv or here on the 'puter. I wake up with difficutly breathing and it takes me more and more time to calm it down before I can get up and moving around.

I need help. I need energy. I just don't have it anymore. I'm tired and exhausted constantly and may even be developing a sinus infection (which I tend to get frequently). I feel like I have nothing in me to fight this anymore. It's like one thing after another and it's been going on so long now that it just seems like there is no end to it.

I'm usually such an optimist. I'm one of those, "everything happens for a reason" people. After a while though, it starts to get to the point where, enough is enough.

This is my favorite time of the year. Sept-Dec 31st. I wait all year for this and got through the rest of the year to get here! I want to be able to enjoy it--does that seem too much to ask?

I'm venting a bit, sorry. I've lit the candles, I've done the spells. I don't seem to be making much head-way and don't know where else to go.

Please guys, if you have any to spare (and I know that there are a lot of other problems to be dealt with out there) could you send a happy thought or two this way??? (That's the NorthEast for those playing the home game. :lol: )

Thank you guys so much. I love you and I'm grateful for you even taking the time to read this ramble. :D

:smooch:

[Gareth]

Wtchy!! :hugz:
Anytime I can help, just let me know. I'm here for you. :)
Just in case I'll ask my wife to send some reiki to you. Hopefully that'll help a little.

I know what it's like to hit negative numbers. It sucks!! :bastard:

One lousy way to look at it is, it could be worse.

[WynnJera]

I am so sorry you are having such a hard time right now ..
energy on the way ....

http://www.evolutionconcepts.com/~wynnjera/images/smallcandleani.gif

[Jenne]

Energy on the way Hon...hope things get better soon!

:hugz:

[WtchyChick13]

:hugz: Thanks guys. :hugz:

[Partly Cloudy]

Happy thoughts coming your way! :hugz:

~Partly Cloudy

:thewave:

[FeatherGoblinglimmer]

I hope you get through this hun..I send healing , soothing energy to you and everyone you know in need right now. Also if you ever want to rant to someone then you can email me or pm me or whatever.:chatty:

[MammaStar]

:loveydove

you got it. ;)

[Old Witch]

:hugz: Energy coming your way........I will light a candle right now......

[Hawk Shadowsoul]

Candle burning. Energy sent. Hang in there.

[Ravens_Tears]

Sending what we can from here hun!:huddle:

[WtchyChick13]

Thank you so much, everyone! :hugz:



(Keep it coming, my back went out today.) :(

[Old Witch]

Energy sent...........

[WtchyChick13]

:smooch:

[DanuMoonrunner]

Energy on its way. This weather is playing havoc with my asthma and allergies too. Also sending some money magick your way.

[WtchyChick13]

Energy on its way. This weather is playing havoc with my asthma and allergies too. Also sending some money magick your way.


Oh thank you so much. :hugz:

[Rae ShadowWolf]

Witchy, I don't know how much I can spare, as Rob and I are still getting closer and closer to losing everything, but I will send what I can.

Its hard. I'm here. Hang in there babe, we'll get through this.

[WtchyChick13]

Witchy, I don't know how much I can spare, as Rob and I are still getting closer and closer to losing everything, but I will send what I can.

Its hard. I'm here. Hang in there babe, we'll get through this.


Sweetie, back atcha! :hugz:

[Flar's Freyja]

You know you're always in my heart

[WtchyChick13]

And vicey-versey babe. :hugz:

[Hope]

((((hugs))))

healing and love!

hope

[Rubi Waters]

Wtchy much love & energy to keep you well and happy. :hugz:

[WtchyChick13]

Thank you guys--you have no idea how much this all means to me. :hugz: :smooch: :hugz:


Now if only I could get some sleep! :wtf:

[WtchyChick13]

Quick update:

My cousin delivered her baby Sunday nite.

He was born on 9/14 11:22pm.

11in. long and weighing in at 1lb 11oz.

He wasn't due until December and right now, he's doing well. They had him on a ventalator initially but he started breathing fine on his own so they took him off of it! He came out kicking, screaming and ready to party apparantly. :lol:


Hopefully, he will continue to gain the strength that he needs and will stay healthy. His mother is doing much better now and she may be going home today or tomorrow. She had lost an incredible amount of blood last week but she seems to have improved considerably over the weekend.

Thanks for the energy guys--it seems to be helping them a lot! :hugz:

[Mdme Morella]

*hugs*
and lots of energy. I will light candles tonite when i get home for you.
good luck dear

[WtchyChick13]

:smooch:

:hugz:

Thanks. :)

[Athena-Nadine]

{{{hugs}}} You have all the energy I can spare, as always, Hon. :)

That's wonderful news about the baby! May he continue to thrive.

I hope you managed to get some sleep last night. If I didn't know better, I'd say you gave me your insomnia. *...laughs...* I was up all night! I've got a cold that kept me up, and I couldn't get rid of this nebulous, frightened feeling that just seemed to be making a home in my chest. It's gone now, thankfully, so maybe I'll be able to get some sleep tonight.

I'm glad to see you're in somewhat better spirits today. :) Hang in there, everything will work out. You'll see. I know you're stronger than this.

Oh--which pump do you usually use?

[WtchyChick13]

{{{hugs}}} You have all the energy I can spare, as always, Hon. :)

That's wonderful news about the baby! May he continue to thrive.

I hope you managed to get some sleep last night. If I didn't know better, I'd say you gave me your insomnia. *...laughs...* I was up all night! I've got a cold that kept me up, and I couldn't get rid of this nebulous, frightened feeling that just seemed to be making a home in my chest. It's gone now, thankfully, so maybe I'll be able to get some sleep tonight.

I'm glad to see you're in somewhat better spirits today. :) Hang in there, everything will work out. You'll see. I know you're stronger than this.

Oh--which pump do you usually use?

Sorry I gave you the insomnia! :T

I did get some sleep last nite--finally. I kinda passed out, went into coma-mode and actually overslept. (My bird was not happy with me today.) :lol:

No getting sick you! We've come this far haven't we??? :D


And I do have to admit, I have NO idea what you are talking about with the pump thing. :rotfl:

(I know it's going to be one of those *duh* moments isn't it?) :sadeyes:

[Gareth]

Sending you more energy Wtchy!
If you need more let me now! :)

[WtchyChick13]

:smooch: BIG SMOOCH! :smooch:

[athena422]

I'm so sorry to hear about all that you've been going through. Energy is on it's way.

[Athena-Nadine]

And I do have to admit, I have NO idea what you are talking about with the pump thing. :rotfl:

(I know it's going to be one of those *duh* moments isn't it?) :sadeyes:

*...laughs...* I meant your athsma pump. Sorry, my fault. I was a bit out of it yesterday.

Yay for sleep! I fell asleep at 8:30 last night and didn't wake up until my alarm clock went off this morning.

[WtchyChick13]

OOOOOOOOhhhhhhhhh! THAT pump! :lol:

I'm using a two year old albuterol inhaler that unfortunately is now almost out. I have to search the house to see if there are any more around. Either that or I'm going to have to get one of those Primatene Mist things. As long as it helps me breathe, I don't care anymore. :rolleyes:


My luck is just getting worse here. It turns out that for the past few weeks, my eBay listings have had picture troubles and I didn't know it. It turns out the server I had my pictures on was going through changes and I wasn't aware. Sooooo, I've just run up a bill at eBay with my listings that no one can really see and I don't have any money coming in now at all!

I'm really starting to freak out here. Here I am going along with my listings--and this time of the year is when I start to reel in customers and then connect them to my site and I find out about THIS happening???

I have nothing. I have less than nothing. And the nothings seem to keep piling up.

Add on to the stress that my mother can't get a sentence out now with out "find a real job" in it and that is killing me. I don't want to be a burden on her anymore, but no one is hiring! I haven't told her how I've been sending out resumes because then, the questions will start on that on an hourly basis and I'm stressed enough as it is without having the constant reminders thrown onto that.

I know that I will get through this and you guys have just been incredible to me. But I think this little period of time is going to take quite a bit longer than I had originally thought. :(

[Athena-Nadine]

I'm sorry, Hon. It seems that these things always pile up unbearably before things finally settle down. At least that's the way it always is in my own life. *...shudders...* You'll be fine. I know you will. :) {{{hugs}}}

Yay! I was so hoping you were going to say Albuterol! I have an extra, brand new Albuterol pump in my house that's maybe a month old. When my baby brother (he's 16) was out here last month he had a really nasty athsma attack and had to be taken to the emergency room. They gave him another pump just in case, but he left it here. He never even opened the box. I asked him and my mother if they wanted me to send it, but they don't need it, and I don't need it since I'm no athsmatic, so I was going to throw it out. The funny thing is that I was going to throw it out the same day I saw your post about yours. If you want, you can PM me your address, and I can send it to you UPS tomorrow. I can get it to your house by Friday. :)

[WtchyChick13]

I can't believe you! (Ok, I'm crying now.)


You are just incredible--THANK YOU!!! :hugz:


(I know that doesn't come close to what I'm feeling, but you really blew me away by this.)

[Athena-Nadine]

{{{hugs}}}

You're quite welcome. *...blushing...* I don't see any reason to throw it away when you need it. I'm just glad I saw your post about it before I did. :)

[WtchyChick13]

You have no idea how speechless you've made me--and you know me---I'm NEVER speechless! :lol:

:hugz: :smooch: :hugz: :smooch: :hugz:

[Athena-Nadine]

You have no idea how speechless you've made me--and you know me---I'm NEVER speechless! :lol:

:hugz: :smooch: :hugz: :smooch: :hugz:
*...laughs...* You'll have it Friday afternoon. Will you be home to sign for it or should I just instruct UPS to leave it in front of your house or something?

[WtchyChick13]

They can leave it. My UPS guy doesn't like me. :lol:

(Ok, so I yelled at him last week, sue me.) :rotfl:

You don't have to do it that way...it's too expensive! Regular mail is ok you know. :)

[Athena-Nadine]

They can leave it. My UPS guy doesn't like me. :lol:

(Ok, so I yelled at him last week, sue me.) :rotfl:

You don't have to do it that way...it's too expensive! Regular mail is ok you know. :)
*...shrugs...* With my corporate discount and all, it's not much more than regular mail. Besides, they're just going to take it out of my paycheck later. Between taxes and all the money I fork over for my benefits :rolleyes: every pay period, I won't even notice a couple of dollars.

[WtchyChick13]

Oh ok. I didn't want it to be too much for you. :)


:hugz:



:fpraiseyo

[Gareth]

You have no idea how speechless you've made me--and you know me---I'm NEVER speechless! :lol:

Speechless!! Now I believe in miracles!! :lol: :razz:

[WtchyChick13]

:2G: And just what are you saying here? :2G:


:lol:

[Gareth]

:2G: And just what are you saying here? :2G:


:lol:
That I believe in miracles!! :razz:

[WtchyChick13]

(Nice cover.)

:rotfl:

[Gareth]

Screw it. I was shocked that you were speechless!! :razz:

[Flaire]

((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((WTCHY))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

I don't have much to send, except hugs. :hugz:
you know I'm always a PM away :smooch:

[Pesha]

Oh my darling I am hugging you so tight. Now a healing prayer and balm for thee and all those in your life is given. May only joy and strong healing light shine on you now. Life can be so lousey. But you have friends here and are loved. So again feel me hugging you and the energies you need are sent.

BB
DS....also known as....

[menolly]

What I have to spare is yours...
Blessings to you and yours...

Menolly

[WtchyChick13]

Thank you guys. Blessings to all of you!

:hugz: :hugz: :hugz:



Hey Menolly...I love Jack and Sally in your sig! :lol:




:smooch: BIG SMOOCHES FOR ALL! :smooch:

[Athena-Nadine]

{{{hugs}}} I hope you're feeling a bit better today. The athsma pump is on its way; it should be there by 3 PM tomorrow. I don't know if you've been getting the rain from the edges of the hurricane where you are, but I figured I'd let you know just in case UPS leaves it out front and it ends up getting all rained on. :)

[WtchyChick13]

:fpraiseyo :hugz: :smooch: :hugz: :fpraiseyo

Well, I'm in somewhat better spirits and dreading the laundry that I have to do today! :lol:

Still having trouble sleeping--I just have no energy to speak of. That's starting to drive me a little batty. :wtf:

Right now, we've got 25-30 mph wind gusts and I actually heard one of my neighbors say, "gee, it seems a bit windy today!" Well duh. These are the same biddies who were so panicked by this hurricane that they decided to wash every article of clothing they owned the past few days and I couldn't get near the laundry room! They are also the type that if you said, "it's windy because of the hurricane" they would object and say "oh no. The hurricane is no where near us." :rolleyes:

So, I figured, they will not venture outside today and I can finally have clean underwear again! :lol: :lol: :lol:


(No coments from Gareth please.) :T

Tomorrow we are supposed to get anywhere from 1-3" inches of rain...with the possibility of more. Since I'm a block away from the L.I. Sound, flooding is the real potential here. Not in my complex because we are on the top of a hill, but where my mother has to drive to get to work it gets pretty flooded pretty fast. (She wants to call in on a "rain day" tomorrow! LOL)

Personally, I love this type of weather. Listening to the trees blowing, breathing in the clean air (as best I can LOLOL) and wearing sweatshirts again? Gotta love it!!! :D

I'm hoping that the rest of the day will keep on course and that I can actually get some things accomplished today. :boing:

[Xentor]

((((WtchyChick)))))

:foopsies: I just spotted this thread. I've got astma as well :blushake:, I know what you're going through, waking up in the middle of the night, panicking :yikes: and struggling for air. :hugz:

I'm sending you all the energy I can spare :sunny:, so you can get through these stormy days and get your strength back. :flowers:

(((((WtchyChick)))))

[materra]

Hon, you are tired because you cannot breath and you are stressed more by it and the situation. It then snowballs and you are in a cycle of stress. The damned depression soon follows. Hang in there okay?

Use the inhaler regularly...there are enough of us with spare inhalers to keep you going. Me for one, and others would help I am sure. So PM me your address. Hey, if I can arrange for inhalers for my ex-husband and former mother-in-law, you would be at the top of my list! :lol: You always have universal energy and warm hugs from me...Use it all.

[Gareth]

So, I figured, they will not venture outside today and I can finally have clean underwear again! :lol: :lol: :lol:

(No coments from Gareth please.) :T

:gagged:

[WtchyChick13]

Hon, you are tired because you cannot breath and you are stressed more by it and the situation. It then snowballs and you are in a cycle of stress. The damned depression soon follows. Hang in there okay?

Use the inhaler regularly...there are enough of us with spare inhalers to keep you going. Me for one, and others would help I am sure. So PM me your address. Hey, if I can arrange for inhalers for my ex-husband and former mother-in-law, you would be at the top of my list! :lol: You always have universal energy and warm hugs from me...Use it all.


Thank you so much cutie. :D

I agree with much of what you said here. I've been finding that when I start to feel the stress of my living situation, my (lack of) bank account and knowing that my business is almost in the toilet right now...I start to have another attack!

And Xentor, that 'waking up in the middle of the night' thing? That JUST started happening to me!!! I NEVER had to wake up because of a lack of air. And now it's on a nightly basis.

I cannot tell you guys how much I appreciate all of the support that I've received here.

When I received Nallia's package on Friday (Poor UPS guy got yelled at again. :lol: ) it brought more than that inhaler, but a reality of knowing that I have a support system unlike any other I've ever experienced.


My life has had twists and turns that would make for a great Made-for-TV (or Lifetime rather) movie and one day when I write the book about it, I will have to send y'all a copy! :D

And while I've had a few individuals that I was grateful for having in my life that I could count on, I've never had a group as large as this that I can truly...truly call my friends.

Thank you. :)

[Danustouch]

Witchy...do you have a nebulizer in addition to the inhalers? I don't have any of the solution on hand at this moment, but if you have the nebulizer machine, when I do get some (though it won't help you immediately, since at the moment, I don't have it on hand, and don't have the money to buy some. But I always get some every winter, because I go through it often due to colds and such), I can set some aside for you. As you probably know, the bottles are extremely tiny, so they won't cost much at all to send. I'll just remember to set a few aside for you to mail to you, whenever I reorder that script.

As for inhalers, I've run out of them quite a few times myself, and nothing sucks worse. I have had to use those primatene inhalers..and they're not the best, but not the worst. My advice about using them, is always use them at the FIRST hint of trouble, not when you're already gasping..

Another thing you can do, is use them AND one of those tablets that they sell...which not only opens you up, but also acts as an expectorant. And remember.hot, .black coffee and iced cold cocacola are an athsmatics best friends (in addition to the enhalers)...

With the sinus problems, it might be difficult, and I know it sounds stupid, but it's something I have to be reminded of when I'm having an attack, because panic can kind of make you forget. But...breathe in through your nose, out through your mouth..slowly. And take hot showers as often as possible, the steam can also help.

[WtchyChick13]

Thanks Danus. I only use inhalers so thanks for the nebulizer idea, but it won't be needed. :)


I've got some good news to report:

1) My dad is sending me some early b-day money to help me pay off the bank, eBay and some of my other bills. It's not a hell of a lot of money, but it will DEFINATELY help!

2) I fixed the photo problems for my eBay listings--so even though my bill just doubled, at least I'll have a fighting chance of selling something this time around!

3) My father also offered to sell some of my jewelry for me at a sale that he will be hosting in a few weeks. He said that many people that come own local galleries and high end salons and it may be a chance to get some exposure and possibly some consignment work. :)

3) My cousin's baby opened his eyes the other day! He lost 3 ounces, but most newborns lose weight their first week. He's now 1lb 8oz. He had a hole in his heart as well, but it seems to be healing with the medication. He's getting stronger every day and here's hoping that he keeps going just as strong!

4) Today is the Equinox. It is one of my absolute favorite days of the year! It is officially starting my favorite TIME of the year and I'm in good spirits hoping that this will all of what has happened above that this will be the start of many more good things to come!!! (It's GOT to get better, right?)

Thank you all for the support and energy that you guys have been giving me--I think it's really starting to take hold now!!! :boing:

Much love to all of you and many, many hugs!!!!!!! :hugz:

[Gareth]

Good to see things are getting better!! :)
(((Wtchy)))

[WtchyChick13]

:smooch:

[Flaire]

:hugz:

[nomadicdragon]

((hugs))

[Old Witch]

:hugz: :thumbsup:

[WtchyChick13]

:hugz: Thankies guys! :hugz:


I'm seem to be getting my creative energies back and have been sleeping a little bit better. (Although I probably just jinxed myself by saying that. :lol: )

Here's hoping I'm on an upswing!!! :boing:


:smooch:

[Xentor]

Keep going, WtchyChick!

[DixieWitch]

Sending energy and positive thoughts your way.

[WtchyChick13]

I had typed this out once and when I hit "reply" I lost my online connection! :eek:

Ok, here it is in a nutshell:

I've got the flu...the weather change has hit me like a brick wall. They painted yesterday and the fumes aggravated my asthma so badly that I almost had to be taken to the hospital. My inhaler is almost empty now and the coughing from the flu hasn't been helping either. And to top it off, it's just freaking freezing in my house! (Ok a bit of a ramble--sorry.)

We don't control the heat here--the management does--so until it goes on, we freeze. My poor birdie keeps hanging out in my sweatshirt or curls up in my hair to get warm! (Ok, that's kind of cute, but I still feel bad.)

I'm so achey right now, the best way to describe it feels like bongo monkeys are hitting me all over with tiny little hammers. (Gareth should have some fun with that visual.) :lol:

I was hoping that the new month would bring better times but so far--no good. :(

I'm sorry that I wrote this. You guys have been so good to me sending energy to both me and the new baby...but I'm so tapped out I think that's a reason I got sick again.

I love you guys and I think I just needed to rant a little. Thanks. :hugz:

[Hoot]

I think I just needed to rant a little.

Rave on! Sometimes it's better than anything a doctor could prescribe. Sending healing energy.

[FeatherGoblinglimmer]

Rant on hun, bear your soul and we'll give it hugs:), Hide your smile and we'll beat it out of you with pointy sticks( The soft kind\) (((((((()))))

[WtchyChick13]

Rant on hun, bear your soul and we'll give it hugs:), Hide your smile and we'll beat it out of you with pointy sticks( The soft kind\) (((((((()))))

:rotfl:


Thanks guys.

We still had no heat last nite--2:30am there I am under 5 blankets and it hits 39 degrees outside. They used to wait until Nov. or late Oct. to turn it on, but c'mon! It's been freaking cold this week!!!

My poor birdie's got cold feets. She had some soup last nite and today I stuck the oven on for a bit to warm up the place so that she could have a bath.

Now she's just cold and yelling at me. :(

Me? I gotta do a LOT of laundry out there in the cold with a 101 temp. (Yep, ranting again. :lol: )

Happy Friday! :huddle:

[Old Witch]

(((((((((Wtchy))))))))))).....Energy sent . You and the Egg try to stay warm!!

[Gareth]

Here Wtchy.

http://www.jackswersie.com/webpages/antiquetoys3a.htm

You'll like it.

[She-Arna]

*sends you a whole bunch of happy thoughts* You seem to be going through aheck of a lot recently!

[Xentor]

Just a thought.

Do you have some relatives in a warmer city where you can stay a while?

Do get well!

(((((Wtchy)))))

[WtchyChick13]

*sends you a whole bunch of happy thoughts* You seem to be going through aheck of a lot recently!

You're so right--I haven't been right since the end of May. (Ok, I've NEVER been right, but you know what I mean.) :lol:

Thanks for the continued support guys. :huddle:

[WtchyChick13]

I'm getting more and more depressed.

Yesterday started out ok. I sent a huge amount of my jewelry to my father who has graciously offered to sell it for me in a sale they are having this weekend.

After going to the Post Office, I went up to my mother's office (it's easier to get home that way) and hang out for a bit. While I was there, I saw one of my ex-es. We are still friends and I was so happy when he moved to this country...but I keep forgetting that he got married in the time that he went back to Ireland to the time he came back. I was so excited to see him yesterday too.

We were also incredibly close friends...I'm just afraid that (just like my best friend) he is going to step back and want me to be friendly with his wife while our friendship dwindles a bit. That's the problem with having more guy friends than girlfriends. When they get married, I get pushed aside because the wives don't understand the friendship.

On the way home, Mom and i got into a bit of a "discussion" about my unemployment status. Like I don't know I'm unemployed.

I understand what she's saying. I was just crying to my father about this last week. I've been unemployed for a few years now and even thought I'm trying to build my own business, I really have no income of my own coming in regularly. She's been supporting me which while amazing, has my self-esteem down to a big old zero.

I'm going to be 33 in a few weeks and have to depend completely on my mother for absolutely everything--food, shelter...everything.

I feel horrible about this every second that I'm here. I feel horrible because she can't put anything away for retirement...can't get a new car which she so badly needs and can't finish having her medical treatments done because there is simply no money to continue. She even had to take out a loan because of this--that killed me.

I've been sending resumes out everywhere but no bites. Not only that, my job references (those I had left) are gone. These two guys, who always had my back, moved across the country. I'm physically inable to do many jobs and not fully trained to do others. But I keep sending them out regardless--doesn't hurt!

I had told my father about all of this last week. I also told him that I haven't been telling my mother about the resume thing because then the daily questions will start, "did you hear anything?" Comments like that. I can't deal with hearing that all the time when the answer will always be no.

But there I was, pinned in a moving car and having to admit to more failure on my end.

I have no real friends here anymore so it's not like I can even get out for a nite and get away from it at all. I don't drive, so I'm pretty limited to my surroundings.

The asthma over the past few days has escalated but I know that's because I'm so stressed out right now that I just can't catch my breath. I'm out of medication and have been relying on breathing excercises to calm myself down. It works for a bit so that's something.

I'm so hoping that my jewelry sells big this weekend. A long shot, but I need to hold onto some sort of hope right now.

The strange thing about most of this is that before "the talk" yesterday, I started having all sorts of thoughts about people from my past. I guess it's my mind's way of trying to keep me sane and bringing me back to much happier times--but my dreams lately have been all about men from my past that "got away" or that I've lost touch with over the years. Needless to say, Google has been my best friend lately! :)

This is supposed to be my favorite time of the year. The time when things usually turn around for me while I look forward to the upcoming holidays. I need to keep holding on to that thought. I need to get my energy back. Once I go into a depression, I lose all of my energy and just want to sleep--but my sleep is not restful and I'm up a few times a nite when thoughts of my life wander into my dream life. I even have trouble just doing daily crap and that doesn't help me either.

I know that lately I've been asking a lot of you guys here. I'm not really asking for any more--just maybe a good thought.

So many people here need energy for various things and I feel so sorry that I just can't share the way I usually do. I barely have any energy for myself and that hurts me as well. I want to be able to give out good vibes to those here who need it and who have been so supportive of me. I'm sorry that I can't 'spread it around' like I used to.

I love you guys--thanks for letting me get this out. :(

[Xentor]

Wtchy, you can type. Have you looked at jobs where typing is necessary?

I've seen the Goblet web site. Did you create the site yourself? Is a job as a web designer an option?

Don't give up hope, Wtchy. And don't stop looking for friends either. You've been around these forums for almost two years (according to the date below your name next to your posts) and judging from your post count you have no trouble in seeking contact.

Perhaps it's possible to get a supportive function in a nearby hospital? Like, I don't know, serving in the hospital cafeteria or working at the counter of the hospital gift shop? Perhaps entering personal data for new patients into the computer?

I'm just spouting options here.

[Athena-Nadine]

{{{hugs}}}

Don't worry about feeling bad, silly woman. You just worry about taking care of yourself. You know I'm always here, and if there's anything I can do, you just need to ask. You always have my good thoughts. There is an offering for you, and everyone else I know who needs it, on my altar at work every day.

{{{more hugs}}}

[Flaire]

Okay, I'm moving down there to get you out of the house. (It'll do us both some good)

:hugz: You know where I am when you need me.

And jewelry selling-energy going your way. :loveydove:

[WtchyChick13]

You guys make me smile. :)

Xentor, thanks for the ideas. I did create thegoblet myself but my html skills are not up to snuff with the big boys. I'm self taught...not formally trained so that's hard to put on a resume. (Although I like what you said about my site!) ;)

I have done some internet consulting around here and have a few clients but most are elderly folks who have no clue as to what buttons to push. (Can we say aggravating?) I taught them the basics and apparantly that was enough because they haven't needed me for a while. I HAVE informed my father though that everytime he either calls me up or asks for help for something computer related, he owes me $40. :lol:

Nallia, love you! :smooch:

Sapph, well, you know. :hugz:


By the way, have I mentioned that we have another new baby in the family? Born yesterday AM 9lbs 2oz. Little boy and cousin to the little one who's got his own thread here. :)

[materra]

Hang in there Lady....we loves you. :)

[WtchyChick13]

:smooch: Loves ya' back! :smooch:

[FeatherGoblinglimmer]

Hugs((((((((( Witchey chick)))))))))), I hope your feeling better a bit now hun...Your in my toughts and i hope you get what you deserve( happiness), good job juju and muchos hugs and support if you want it.:)

[Athena-Nadine]

Love you too, Hon!

Yay! for the new baby! :)

[Flaire]

:hugz: Sounds like you're feeling better today (or yesterday, whenever you sent me PM :T) :smooch: :hugz: