Xeen
October 15th, 2003, 05:50 PM
Hi all. I hope somebody here has any suggestions beyond what I've tried...
For perhaps a year now, maybe even more, I get these urges to be violent out of nowhere. It always seems to be directed towards small animals, such as the various cats I've been around for the last year and my 2 pet rats. I love animals dearly, and I would cut off my own hand before intentionally harming my rats, but I get near uncontrollable urges to hurt them sometimes.
It almost feels like I'm being posessed (not that I'd know what that feels like O.o). I almost feel like a different person, a very hateful, violent person.
Does anybody have any clue as to what this could be all about? I'm guessing it might be stress, but I'm not going to leave it at that. I have had these urges while in all sorts of moods; happy, sad, nuetral, relaxed, depressed, etc. They've also come at various stages in my life, both stressed and stress free.
Mayhaps it could be on a phsychic energy type level? My bestest friend taught me to put up a white light shield to help block negative things, but I don't think this has helped completely.
I was thinking of constructing some sort of charm or something, just to see if that would help. It's been a week or so since I last had the urge, and I'd rather not experience it again.
Anybody have any thoughts on this?
If wish it was as simple as something like stress.
For perhaps a year now, maybe even more, I get these urges to be violent out of nowhere. It always seems to be directed towards small animals, such as the various cats I've been around for the last year and my 2 pet rats. I love animals dearly, and I would cut off my own hand before intentionally harming my rats, but I get near uncontrollable urges to hurt them sometimes.
It almost feels like I'm being posessed (not that I'd know what that feels like O.o). I almost feel like a different person, a very hateful, violent person.
Does anybody have any clue as to what this could be all about? I'm guessing it might be stress, but I'm not going to leave it at that. I have had these urges while in all sorts of moods; happy, sad, nuetral, relaxed, depressed, etc. They've also come at various stages in my life, both stressed and stress free.
Mayhaps it could be on a phsychic energy type level? My bestest friend taught me to put up a white light shield to help block negative things, but I don't think this has helped completely.
I was thinking of constructing some sort of charm or something, just to see if that would help. It's been a week or so since I last had the urge, and I'd rather not experience it again.
Anybody have any thoughts on this?
If wish it was as simple as something like stress.