Three cards for Dagda

[rantnraven]

I need to explain that I was shuffling and shuffling and shuffling. Then began to draw three cards. I had no one in mind at the time, however, when I drew the second card, Dagda suddenly popped into my head - even before I even noted what the card was.

So here goes...

1 Past - Ace of Swords
2 Present - Two of Cups
3 Outcome - Ace of Cups

Past - I see a certain amount of loneliness. Not a lack of relationship but, perhaps, a lonliness within a relationship. I also scense loss and longing in this card. Yet, there appears to be some understanding of the event and it's okay.

Present - A relationship. A strong one but, there seems to be some isolation within. Maybe a loved one is holding you back from something you want. You go along with it because you don't want to loose this one. Your color right now is Yellow.

Outcome - Blue. Look for it. I see a great uplifting of spirit but, it cannot be done alone. I see seven to nine friends - close or, no - willing to help in this reconing (don't know why that word popped up). This is not an upheaval but, rather, a enlightenment.

The fact that two cup cards appear inspired me and I see a child in your near future. It may not be your own but you will love him/her nontheless. This child has something for you.

Whew! I have read my words and wonder where all of that came from!

Feedback needed,
Rant

[Dagda Moon~Lily]

Thank you Rant!

As far as the past and present goes, you are very accurate!

As some of you know, I would give most anything to be with my ex~ as I feel we are destined.....but he has somethings to reconcile within himself before that could be. I know he has some really deep feelings for me, it's in his every action....but he won't voice them....to stubborn and goes against what he thinks he wants. (Men, go figure! lol) As far as I can tell with him, he just wants to get me into bed, but there is no offer of a relationship or anything else. I won't sleep with him for a couple of reasons: Jamie (current boyfriend)....I'm a monogamous person, I want more from Stan than just sleeping with him...I want his heart, and I don't want history to repeat itself...if I did sleep with Stan while with Jamie, Stan would eventually feel guilty and tell Jamie and it would be over between Jamie and I. (This happened between Jamie and Stan in the past)

Present: I am with someone really great. We have a good relationship, but it is the ex~ that I long to be with. I feel aweful about thinking about the other guy so much, but I just can't help it. This new guy just doesn't fill the void I feel the other has left me in. Since Stanley left (the ex~) I have felt lonely.....even though I'm in another relationship. (Just trying to go on at this point.....and I don't feel it's working very well) I don't want to lose Jamie. Jamie is great to me and loves me deeply. I love him, ...just not to the same extent. He's my security right now. He's what gets me up every day, and makes me feel like going on. I know he's not going to hurt me as Stan did. Why give up a good thing just to sleep with some who may not want me in his life? (It's also weird....Stan is trying to talk me out of seeing Jamie, but isn't offering anything......or is he?? He's pretty ademant that I should not be with him. Guys, give me some insight here....!!) :confused:

As far as the future goes....I'm stumped. :D I want another child badly. Thought of this occupy my thoughts alot lately. My son is 9 years old, I'll be the big 3-0 this year, and I want a daughter. ....the quirky thing is....when Stan left me for his ex~ they got pregnant right before they split up. Could this be the child? I wonder. (This child will make his 4th) I love his other children like they were my own. Occasionally, his eldest daughter will stay the night with me. (Her mom is really great about it, and they both want to see me back with Stan) So, in any case, a child in the future is wonderful news to me! :D :D


There is so much more to the saga of Dagda and Stanley, but I'll save it all for another time. <cheesy grins> :D

Thank you once again Rant! Let me know if hearing any of this offers more insight to the reading. :p



~D