Can I trust the Magick?

[Selenelucina]

I've only recently joined this community, have made my opinion know about a few things, and now I have a question. I've been a GypsyWitch for 54 years, and my "gift" as I've known it, has been as a medical intuitive.
A psychic diagnostician, if you will. I had a pretty good accuracy rate; would NEVER use it for my family, because I didn't want the foreknowledge. Used it once on my son after he was an adult and asked me, because he was having ongoing back problems that nothing seemed to help. I knew he had a kidney stone, told him so, and until the pain became unbearable, he didn't believe me. Since the day we sat in an afterhours clinic for 3 hours, until Momma had a hissy-pissy-witchy fit, and we were finally taken to a urologist and yes, he was trying to pass a stone, he's a believer. My question is this: in the 4 years since then I've been on so many drugs, steroids, painkillers, experimental trash, for my own problems, I have started to doubt my ability to see things clearly. I don't trust my accuracy because I believe it to be polluted from chemicals. It was a gift with mixed blessings, and I'm not sure it's a bad thing if it is gone, but - when does the trust come back in our basic abilities as people who know we can accept the gifts of magick and use them wisely? I'm still on pain meds & probably will be until I go Home.
Do I agree to help, with the disclaimer that I'm just as likely to be seeing something incorrectly, or do I just stop doing it althogether? I'm not guaranting that I'll TAKE your advice, LOL, but I'd sure like to have it, especially from anyone with a medical background.
And the thread runs on - as mostly a kitchen witch, just as likely to do ritual with a bread knife as my athame,
are any of my magickal doings "clean" since my body is
drugged? I've asked this in a Pagan Ethics class, and gotten stunned silence.

[Red Dragon]

I'm just an ol dragon, but firmly believe that a gift from the spirits is ours. Whether we choose to use it or not depends on ourselves, but it's not somthing that goes away. We alone choose to repress it. I feel that in your case, if you are using it with good intentions, there is no harm. As with any magick, there is never a firm guarantee. Even medical professionals are not always right. You need to remember that spirit is untouched by drugs or illness, and always shines pure and bright. After all, isn't it the only thing that remains when this mortal vessel is no longer needed? Look inside of yourself and see if this isn't true. It's really up to you, If you feel you wish to use your gift, do so. I will think of you and ask the goddess to send you help, both with your delema, and more importantly, your health. Perhaps others will do the same and our next message from you will be a happier one.
Blessings!

[Selenelucina]

Thanks, Red. You have no idea how much reading that helped. We each have so many "identities" and that has been a large, if unnanounced, part of mine. You've given me some peace. I've been given the blessing of a positive nature; even in illness, there are always gifts, and I have found so many, in the kindness of strangers. But sometimes it becomes hard to keep shoveling in the barn full of ponypoop, when the pony never shows up. I appreciate that you took the time to share your beliefs. Be Well, 'ol Dragon. I think I'm going to be watching for you. A Blessing on your Head.
Selene

[gunner]

i'm new here selenelucina but i'd like to try to answer/help. the magick is part of yourself so the real question is "do you trust yourself" and your answer is that you do, your self is not the meds you have to take and if your heart is good then your magick will be too. keep faith in and with yourself. blessed be
"gunner"