My weakness as witch

[Faery-Wings]

Lately I have been having some serious issues in my life. As a result I had been getting angry and depressed. And that really sucks, I hate feeling that way. But what bothers me very much, now that I am slightly back on my feet, is that I feel powerless to help myself when I am in "that zone of ickiness."

As a witch, even a simple kitchen witch, I firmly believe that I have a certain amount of power to help, to heal, to change things around a bit. But everytime the chips are down, so to speak, I forgot all of that, and end up wallowing. So now that my head is a bit more together, I am wondering, "Why didn't I smudge the house again, set up shields for myself, grab that rose quartz that has been sitting by my bathroom sink since this started, and so on??" I am attuned to Reiki II, why didn't I make it a priority to work on healing myself? To meditate? To do an anger releasing spell?

I feel that if I am a witch, I should be able to use that at all times. So why don't I?

Do any of you feel this way too? Or do you have a different weakness as a witch?

PS: All non- witches, feel free to answer too! :)

[Old Witch]

I know sometimes I will move heaven and earth to help someone else and never think of doing the same thing for myself........and I don't know what to make of it either........

[Teshuva3D]

Old Witch said it all...I don't know if it's a female thing...in current society women are still ingrained with the concept that we are the nurturers,caregivers,the "fixers" of emotional turmoil in others..
But we don't seem to remember that we should stop and help ourselves too...
Hope you take the time to "heal thyself"...
Tesh

[Calyx]

Ditto what OW and Tesh said!
I guess it just never occurs to me because frequently I put myself last so I can take care of the family. So, yes, the caregiving for others issue. But, I've been down in the dumps lately too, so last night I did a little energy renewal and banishing of negavity for myself, and I feel so much better today it's incredible! And I had the same thought this morning---why on earth did it take me so long to do that for myself? And I am a little upset at myself too. I could have done this a week ago..... :rolleyes:

[Old Witch]

In response to this thread......I went and lit a whole bunch of candles, cranked up the fountain and said a little spell for.........MYSELF......I feel more energized already!

[Teshuva3D]

Well hurray for Calyx and Old Witch!!!
Think I'm gonna take a nice hot bath tonight( instead of the quickie "oh my gods gotta take a quick shower cuzz there's so much to do..blah blah" ) and light a nice candle and some incense to boot..
And if my kid comes to the bathroom door ( as she usually does ) and starts bugging me about stuff...I'm going to stick my fingers in my ears and hum REALLY LOUD..LOL...

[IvyCeltress]

I've bit of wisdom I've been developing:

Before agribusiness, and such, farmers know that that they would have to set aside a certain amount of their crop after harvest so that they use that to plant crops for the next year.

Think about doing stuff for yourself as saving your seed crop so you will have something to plant later on.

I hope this helps.