bring me to life

[13thChylde]

i cry when i'm in the shower
i cry after i take them to school
i cry at work
i cry on the way home
i cry while eating dinner
i'm crying now

please show me how to fix it
everything is so screwed up
nothing in my life is how i want it to be
nothing

[Faery-Wings]

Let it be so.

[Rockprincess]

Can you give a specific example of something that isn't right, and how you would like it to be? Maybe you need an objective opinion to see some options for how to change things for the better. You CAN do it, you just might need some help clarifying. :huddle:

[Rockprincess]

Oh, excuse me, I didn't realize this was in the Altar forum...I didn't mean to intrude.

[13thChylde]

Thanks, chryssi and Rockprincess :huddle:

You're not intruding at all :)

[Nighthawk]

i cry when i'm in the shower
i cry after i take them to school
i cry at work
i cry on the way home
i cry while eating dinner
i'm crying now

please show me how to fix it
everything is so screwed up
nothing in my life is how i want it to be
nothing

Sorry, perhaps it is a phase... perhaps you could do something nice for yourself each day... and feel better little by little....
Come on guys, help me out here

[13thChylde]

I wish that it was a phase, but it's actually the bitter, heartbreaking circumstances in which I live.

Thanks for the wish, though.

[13thChylde]

Please give me the strength to focus on my work, I have lots of ends to tie up and can't concentrate.

Please don't let him start again....I cannot go through that all over again.

I would rather be without him. Please, can you have aliens abduct him?

~ your broken faery

[13thChylde]

(places 13 daffodils on the altar and bows)

Thank you so much for the rainbow...and I am researching Iris.
I believe she has something to tell me. I will try my hardest to listen.


He has been very productive and nicer since his outburst on Sunday.
But I do not love him, Goddess.
Please let someone who can love him find him.
So that he will not be so vindictive when I am ready to go.

I just had a very enjoyable lunch with some coworkers. Thank you for my friends that I have at work. The friendships I've made here are some of my dearest...even though I don't care much for the job, I love the people.

[13thChylde]

(tears falling)

May I please have some clarity on whether I should even consider going to see her?

It is such a long way to go, and it would take away from my children...money and time with me. Plus, I'll admit, I'm nervous about going to Bali. Terrorism and bird-flu are not something I wish to have contact with. But...I love her so much....so so much.
I just wish she could meet me in Ireland.

I wonder if all the times I pull the Death card....is it my relationship with her that is supposed to end? I just wish I could look at this objectively, but in reality, I need a 2x4 on this one. I do not want to be selfish and I am tired of crying. I will always love her...but she deserves to have someone in her life. Someone who is physically there, not a million miles away.

Please grant both of us clarity.

[13thChylde]

just now I drew a single card, with no question in mind...

Your Card: The Lovers



This is a card of love, joy, and happiness, of emotional fulfillment and satisfaction. Though the image represents a romantic couple, the joy of the Lovers shines on all aspects of love and compassion. This image also looks back to an earlier meaning of the Lovers: making a decision. In many historical Tarot decks, the Lovers depicted a man choosing between two women. Here it is a young woman who chooses.

In readings this card indicates, simply, love. Love for another, love for humanity, and most importantly, love for ourselves. It may also indicate the need to make a difficult choice. The key to choosing wisely is to recognize the importance of the choice, and to make it lovingly.

[13thChylde]

I'm going to CRAFT any negativity that tries to feed on me away.

Cancel
Rephrase
Affirm
Focus
Train

If things don't change financially, there's just NO WAY I'll be able to afford Bali, plus my children's vacations, and they're going to Disneyworld if it's the last thing I do!!

She seems to be a touch distant lately. I know that she gets that way as a shield, but I'd really like to talk sometime about our future...or perhaps lack of future. She seems willing to wait until my children are grown so that we can be together, but I don't think that's very realistic or healthy for either of us. She deserves someone who isn't married, who lives nearby, who can love her the way she deserves to be loved. I wish with all my heart that I was that person, but I know I'm not.

Grant me wisdom and strength.

[13thChylde]

(13 is skipping around with an armful of daffodils and crocuses, which she places on the rock altar)

THANK YOU for lifting the huge rock that was squishing my heart. I'm way too small of a person to be carrying around that extra weight, and the sadness is so heavy. I feel so much lighter today. I've been skipping down the halls at work...I wasn't grouchy or rushed even though we all overslept by an hour this morning, and the munchkins even made it in before the bell rang!

I just know that everything's going to be okay....
The equity loan will go thru, and that will help me with paying off the c-cards.
Dakotah hasn't been depressed lately, and is becoming more of his old self.
Steve is much nicer.
Savannah is always my light, I pray she never changes.
Indrani and I will see each other, when time and money allows.

(bowing and blowing kisses, 13 skips away)