Danustouch
July 18th, 2001, 12:25 AM
Ever have one of those situations that make you both ecstatically grateful, and thankful...and Saddened greatly at the same time?
Like...one of those situations where you've healed the bird, now you have to let it fly?
Well..I am going through one of those things now. With a friend of mine. We had a very deep history together. Lots of twists and turns. Sorrows, and Joys. We had a bond, that could not be ignored (looking at our astrological profiles only confirmed what we already knew)..we are both Gemini's (though that's not what matches our charts)..and feel that we are the missing Twin of eachother. It's a Yin and Yang friendship. He grounds me, I make him fly. Anyway...when I met my hubby, I moved away with him, and my friend and I kinda had to part ways. My hubby was very uncomfortable with the thought of Frank and I getting together, if he wasn't around, and knowing both of these guys..I knew they would NEVER be able to tolerate eachother if they met (umm..huge egos!)..so..dared not risk it. So..we kept in touch by the phone, and through email for a while. But..soon, Frank began to feel that he would never see me again, and started urging me to make arrangements to see him. I refused to, out of loyalty to my husband. And it hurt his feelings. We didn't talk for about a month. Then I wrote to him, and explained that I felt we both needed to move on with our lives. Our friendship was precious, and would always remain so. But, somehow, our very friendship was keeping us from prospering in our own lives. That at one time, the friendship was healthy, and was OK. But sometimes, people need to move on, go separate ways, to pursue their own personal needs, and lives. He understood. All of a sudden, he went on a spiritual quest of sorts..to find himself. He's been traveling all over the U.S.A. And has no plans to return home, any time soon. He's met a girl, and is in love. Is inspired, and has a brand new life. In his email to me tonight, he told me that he never would have done this, if it weren't for me. Now, he's following his dreams. He's following his heart. He's becoming, the real him. And he is telling me, that if he'd never known me, he'd never have questioned his life, and never have looked for anything deep. He'd have gone along with the flow. But I made him examine his life.
This of course, is extremely flattering. But on the other hand, it's making me very sad. Yes..the parting of ways has occured. But...there is still a part of me that has yet to come to terms with the fact that though we will always carry eachother in our hearts...things have changed, and moved on. And he's far away now...living his own life. He doesn't need me anymore.
God..I know it sounds melodramatic. But..could you all please pray for me. This is really a difficult situation for me.
Like...one of those situations where you've healed the bird, now you have to let it fly?
Well..I am going through one of those things now. With a friend of mine. We had a very deep history together. Lots of twists and turns. Sorrows, and Joys. We had a bond, that could not be ignored (looking at our astrological profiles only confirmed what we already knew)..we are both Gemini's (though that's not what matches our charts)..and feel that we are the missing Twin of eachother. It's a Yin and Yang friendship. He grounds me, I make him fly. Anyway...when I met my hubby, I moved away with him, and my friend and I kinda had to part ways. My hubby was very uncomfortable with the thought of Frank and I getting together, if he wasn't around, and knowing both of these guys..I knew they would NEVER be able to tolerate eachother if they met (umm..huge egos!)..so..dared not risk it. So..we kept in touch by the phone, and through email for a while. But..soon, Frank began to feel that he would never see me again, and started urging me to make arrangements to see him. I refused to, out of loyalty to my husband. And it hurt his feelings. We didn't talk for about a month. Then I wrote to him, and explained that I felt we both needed to move on with our lives. Our friendship was precious, and would always remain so. But, somehow, our very friendship was keeping us from prospering in our own lives. That at one time, the friendship was healthy, and was OK. But sometimes, people need to move on, go separate ways, to pursue their own personal needs, and lives. He understood. All of a sudden, he went on a spiritual quest of sorts..to find himself. He's been traveling all over the U.S.A. And has no plans to return home, any time soon. He's met a girl, and is in love. Is inspired, and has a brand new life. In his email to me tonight, he told me that he never would have done this, if it weren't for me. Now, he's following his dreams. He's following his heart. He's becoming, the real him. And he is telling me, that if he'd never known me, he'd never have questioned his life, and never have looked for anything deep. He'd have gone along with the flow. But I made him examine his life.
This of course, is extremely flattering. But on the other hand, it's making me very sad. Yes..the parting of ways has occured. But...there is still a part of me that has yet to come to terms with the fact that though we will always carry eachother in our hearts...things have changed, and moved on. And he's far away now...living his own life. He doesn't need me anymore.
God..I know it sounds melodramatic. But..could you all please pray for me. This is really a difficult situation for me.