Why?

[I Dont Know]

why is it that I always feel so distaint from all my fellow wiccans/pagans? It's like none of you really care outside of your own circle and friends. But it is my fault since I supress my powers and deny myself of everything. I am nothing and will always be nothing.

[Jenne]

why is it that I always feel so distaint from all my fellow wiccans/pagans? It's like none of you really care outside of your own circle and friends. But it is my fault since I supress my powers and deny myself of everything. I am nothing and will always be nothing.
As to the first, it could be you don't try hard enough, or maybe too much. Try letting go of the problem and giving it up to the powers that be. As for guidance and strength to be YOU.

As for suppressing the powers, why? You sound like you have nothing much left to lose--so I say go for it and be yourself.

As for the last statement, I find when you have that defeatist attitude, it becomes true. Self-fulfilling prophecy and all that...take the opposite tack (or at least a middle road), and I bet you'll find the sun may shine again!

:hugz: I often face this feeling of isolation. I am the type of person that is alone in a roomful of people. But the minute I stop caring, all is better...quite magically...:colorful:

[Radocs]

Yeah.

[Faeawyn]

Why do "you" think you feel distant from other wiccans/pagans?? I see you just joined the board this month...perhaps you'll start to feel more a part of MW after a bit more time.

As for denying yourself...what is it you deny yourself of? Happiness, laughter, friendship?? Are you closing yourself off to these things. Perhaps you could try meditating and opening yourself up a little so that you can experience them. Bring those walls down a little. Laughter is a wonderful thing.

You are not "Nothing". You are everything, and you are a part of everything, and you are valued.

[I Dont Know]

I'm just not able to let myself live in happiness. I feel bad if I smile or laugh. I feel as if I deserve nothing.. like everything I do is pointless because it always ends in pain. So why should I bother? And here i am wallowing in my own self pity. I always do this! And then others think i'm searching for attention... I guess I am, but again, I don't deserve it. I'm so stupid. -_-

[Semele]

It kind of sounds to me like you could benefit from some antidepressive medication. Sometimes depression can grab a hold of you and make the world feel like it has no place for you at all and that everyone else but you fits in somewhere. You are not alone in these feelings and there is a way to feel better. Please see about getting help. A simple visit with your doctor can find a solution that can make a difference of a lifetime..I promise. Please give it a chance.

[Faeawyn]

Semele is absolutely right....altho....her avatar looks like it could use some antidepressant therapy ...lol
You sound like you're punishing yourself for something by not allowing yourself to experience moments of happiness. There's enough negativity in this world without us inflicting it upon ourselves. You "choose" to be happy or sad....make the choice. Then get drugs :)

[Old Witch]

I was just about to suggest the same thing Semele did . Semele is a nurse, she knows these things.

[morrigen]

I too, was thinking about saying somethinng much like Semele did....it's very good advice.

And while going to the Doc's might seem like a big task right now, you will feel so much better when you have done so...

hope things feel better soon.

[Lil Miss Witchy]

I think Semelle put it best :)

(((HUGZ)))

[nomadicdragon]

I agree with Semele..

[Lunacie]

One of the reasons I love the internet so much is that I have a chance to meet new people and make new friends. I met my two favorite Sisters of the Spirit on a discussion board. Give yourself a chance and you may make some good friends here, and maybe one or more really special friends. Maybe even me. :)

Hugz

[Calyx]

You are NOT nothing--everyone is special. Please give yourself a chance at happiness, hon.
And Semele's right. Take her advice and go see a doctor, OK? :hugz:

[amberwolf]

I have to agree with what everyone has been sayong and take a visit to the doctors
I see that you havnt been here very long and maybe you should try to get a little more involved and post a bit more often that way you will make new friends here...You have to put a bit of effort in to get somthing back friends will not just appear its somthing that takes time ,caring and enthusiasm.This board is a great place to meet people try going in the chat room its a really fun way to get to know someone :) (((((((((((HUGS)))))))))

[Lady Jade]

Oh dear!!! I know how you feel and that dark place you are in is no fun at all. the others are right, sound like a trip to the doctor is in order. Sometimes, people take antidepressants for a short time, just to get them to the point of facing the problems that are causing the underlying depression. After dealing with the actual problem, the depression may lift and a feeling of goodness and light will fill you up.

((((HUGS)))) to you and know that we DO really care for you not only as a person, nbut as a member of our very special community.