I am so nervous

[Goddess Rhiannon]

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[Kaylara]

Ummm... May I ask why? :)

[DragonsChest]

Ditto.....

[Goddess Rhiannon]

I originally posted that I was leaving to go see someone in a couple of hours....I deleted the post.....cause I did not know if I should word it the way that I did. I am going to see my ex....we still love each other greatly....but he is still married. We talk on the phone all the time. My heart hurts so much, I just figured that if we saw each other....face to face.....that we can both make some sort of sense out of the whole thing.

[Nekhet]

I know the feeling, my lady...all too well....

I too have the one whom still holds a piece of my heart...my soul...everything that I am...

But...alas...it must go both ways....

I know your anguish...your feelings...the jumble of emotions...random thoughts...

I am with you...as we all are...and wish you the best...

[alesay]

Ohhhhhhhhh Me too.... Same thing... married, i threw him away... Crap like that... I've been dating my boyfriend for a year, and i honestly thought that my "ex" had my entire heart... and that it officially broke when i watched him get married.... But i was wrong... When my current boy dumped me... and i thought i'd lost the best thing that i've ever had... THEN it broke... and it hurt.... Weird... i could have swore the other guy was my soul mate... Guess not ;)

Good luck sweetheart!!!

[Goddess Rhiannon]

She stood shivering, on this tear filled night......knowing deep down, that she should not feel this way.

She knew that her heart should not have been so receptive.....to what should have been....a one night stand

Lonely.....she cries
torment eating at her.....
every moment....thoughts of him, consuming her life.....

She wants to forget......but her heart wont let her

She breaths a deep sigh
knowing that tomorrow....will produce
yet another new set of tears.....

She drifts off......into a peaceful sleep

And then someone began singing in the darkness, causing her to awaken,
with the knowledge....she was doing the right thing.
Her feelings were true.

The love she kept secret was real.

People questioned it's existance
wanting her to run....away from him.
But in fact, it only made her want him more.

She wants him.......now
She needs him.......always
She feels him......
deep inside her, even when apart.

She loves him, but it's much, much more
it's an affair of the heart
although painful at times.....
you have to admit.....it's nice
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[morrigen]

:hugz:

Sometimes, someone gets in, who lives in your heart forever. I have no advice...yet there's so much I could say...

You will do what is best at the time, it's the onnly thing you can do.

Good luck, hon.

[Muireannach]

*Hugs* Treasure the memoires and take care of yourself.

[Lynda]

I had the same problem.. I lost him to my depression and drugs... we never spoke for 3 years.. then I found him again, online and we met again.. it was wonderful.. now we are together and I will never leave him again.. for that time he pined for me and I hit bottom.. got clean and better... now we are at the same level.. and I am happy.

Whatever you choose to do someone will be hurt.. since he is married again you said. there is no easy solution to your situation.. May the Goddess bless you with an answer.

[Faeawyn]

I hope noone gets upset with me for this....but don't forget about the wife either. I've been the wife that was devastated when finding out her husband was seeing another woman. I'm sorry to mention it, but it could be bad bad karma if she gets hurt by all of this. Your ex needs to make a decision.....and when he's free, you can pursue your feelings for each other.
But I've also been in love with a married man before, and he got deep in my heart and I've never forgotten him.....but we never acted on it. We respected his committment to his wife...It's soooooo hard. I'm sending energy your way...to help you in whatever direction you choose.

[Lady Jade]

Everything will work out as it is meant to be. I am sorry that you have so much pain associated with this situation. I too have a lost love who holds my heart unknowingly, but we must move on to what is actually attainable and not torture ourselves about what could have been and what ifs.

Good luck, you are in my thoughts.

[Mab]

I originally posted that I was leaving to go see someone in a couple of hours....I deleted the post.....cause I did not know if I should word it the way that I did. I am going to see my ex....we still love each other greatly....but he is still married. We talk on the phone all the time. My heart hurts so much, I just figured that if we saw each other....face to face.....that we can both make some sort of sense out of the whole thing.

He is still married? As in, he's been your bf, but he's been married to someone else the whole time? Not judging. Been there myself. Can totally understand where you are if that's the case. Mine is separated now, though, and we're still having issues with getting it together b/c of his soon-to-be-ex & his daughter.

[~*Ginger*~]

(((Goddess Rhiannon))) :hugz: