spirits and meditation problems

[xblue420x]

I'm not new here or anything, but couldn't think of where to post this. So if anyone wants to move it feel free to do so.
Awhile back I asked about these shadow spirits in my house...http://www.mysticwicks.com/showthread.php?t=38208

Well, First off I wanna say that my meditation skills arent very good, I'm working on it but its really hard for me cuz I have adhd and alot of other things goin on that make it hard for me to sit still or concentrate on something(or nothing) for a long time. Usually when I meditate I don't really feel or see anything. I feel the presence that I always feel around me, but nothing other than that.
Well I was meditating and planning on doing a spell to be rid of bad habbits and addictions, the room was really dark, with only 2 candles lit, and my door was like to the left of me. At first everything was like it normally is, but then all of a sudden I started feeling this different presence in front of my door. It was really really creepy. I kept looking over there but didnt see anything. I had a feeling that it was a really big man watching me..I dunno why but I think he intended on hurting me in some way. Maybe not physically, but I just got that bad vibe. I didn't scare me in the sense of like 'I'm afraid to go in the water cuz a shark will eat me' but it made me very uneasy.
Ever since then its been like 5x harder to meditate, its like I think he's gonna be there if I turn off the lights. I'm fine when I'm just sitting/laying/sleeping in the dark, but when I try to meditate with the lights off I just cant do it. And on top of that its hard to meditate with the lights on because theres alot more distractions! I'm pretty sure that what I felt that night was the tall man shadow spirit I was talking about in the other thread, I want to talk to him and find out why hes here and if he means any harm and all that but I don't know how. I have tried meditating but yeah, the meditation thing isn't going well at all. I have done negativity banishing/releasing spells and what not, so I'm pretty sure if he meant me any harm he woulda gone away after that, I still wanna talk to him though.
Any advice?
Thanks alot guys
Blue

[Faeawyn]

I respect the fact that you're afraid to meditate in the dark again....but perhaps if you tried again, and simply asked him...what do you want from me? Alot of times, spirits communicate telepathically. If you could just clear your mind after you ask the question, and listen with your inner self....maybe you'll hear the answer. Then again, always go with your gut feelings....and if you don't get a good vibe off this guy, it may not be a good idea to try to communicate with him at all. Sorry I'm no help :)

[lunachic420]

You cannot effectively banish something if you still actively desire it. If you wanna get rid of him/it you have to stop putting any energy into wanting to communicate with him...Otherwise you have to decide the best way to communicate with this entity if you really want to. I don't know what your experience is, but if you have fear do not try anything alone. Fear is the worst entity out there.
Blessed be and Namaste!

[xblue420x]

I guess I should have worded that differently..I'm not afraid of this guy..I just dont like it..When I try to meditate in the dark now it's not that I'm scared that he'll be there..I just think he will be, and I can't get that thought outta my head even when I try focusing on my goal at hand or whatever. I'll be fine for the first few minutes but then its like 'Well, its almost pitch black in here, and this guy is like a shadow, so maybe hes here and I just cant see him, I wonder if hes in the room, maybe hes in the hallway, maybe hes not here at all, I wonder if hes gonna ever talk to me, I wonder if hes ever gonna leave the house, maybe he comes and goes as he pleases, maybe hes stuck here, I wonder who he is' I just cant get him out of my thoughts, so I can't concentrate on anyting else.
When I first started really noticing him I did the banishing-this was before I even concidered talking to him. I think hes been here for a really long time, me and my sister both used to see him and another guy and a girl when we were younger..they always used to pull the shower curtain down and open all the cabnets in the kitchen. After I did all the banishing spells and negativity things is when I figured that if hes still there then I should try to talk to him.
Now that I'm thinking about it more I don't think he meant to harm me, cuz if he wanted to he could have a million times by now. Maybe he just wasnt very happy with me? I'm not sure. But thanks for your thoughts. I'm gonna try again tonight, hopefully I'll get somethin from it.
Thanks again, both very helpfull :colorful:

[Faeawyn]

I think you're right. He didn't want to hurt you...just get your attention. Good luck to you and let us know what happens :)

[Laurelei]

I have a similar problem, which has it's own thread on the New Pagans forum. The spirit bothering me is... a crazy snake woman to be honest. She's got a bad habit of just standing in my room and STARING at me when I'm meditating.

I also have the same... problem, in that she makes me feel uneasy but I'm still intrigued. I actually went looking for her on the Astral plane once to try to speak to her and reason with her and I got attacked. Now I'm afraid to Astral Travel in my room in case I see her again (I can't see her in the physical).

However, I've found that casting a circle round my bed before I sleep/meditate is a great help. I also try to avoid floating round my room when I Astral Travel, and instead zoom straight outside my house. When I felt particuarly vulnerable, like when I got attacked, my Dragon friend came and slept in my room. He's about the size of a tiger and more than capable of ripping her up.

Just my 2 chocolate coins, anyway.