Oh Gods...

[WolfWonderess]

Okay. One of my good online friends left a suicide note in her online journal. I didn't see it coming at all, and I wasn't able to talk to her over the weekend. But, there it was...last night, at 8:33 PM, she wrote a suicide note, claiming she would be dead in the morning, that she wouldn't cause a scene...I saw the note this morning.

I don't know if it happened or not, and it's...tearing me up. She never seemed suicidal before, always cheerful and happy, and then...there it is. I don't know what happened or if she really went through with it, and won't know until later. In the meantime...well, I don't know what else to do other than pray, and leave a desperate message in the comments section of her journal.

So, yes...any prayers you can send her way would be most appreciated. I don't know if she would like magick used on her, as she is Christian, and I don't know her situation...but any prayers would be sorely appreciated. Thank you so much...

[Avalon]

I will certainly pray that she is all right...have you tried searching for other message boards, etc. where she may have posted?

[WolfWonderess]

Another online friend of mine, who is also close online friends with her (and also very distraught), looked at another board she is a part of, and apparently, she quit that board last night.

*hugz* Thank you so much, Avalon.

[Sylvan]

Nothing to say... :( Hoping for her to be fine....

[Avalon]

Check your PMs, WolfWonderess. :)

[menolly]

Oh my!!!
I hope you find her safe and sound :hugz:
Prayers for you & your friend, sent with love, hugs, calm & blessings.

[Yasmine Galenorn]

Okay. One of my good online friends left a suicide note in her online journal. I didn't see it coming at all, and I wasn't able to talk to her over the weekend. But, there it was...last night, at 8:33 PM, she wrote a suicide note, claiming she would be dead in the morning, that she wouldn't cause a scene...I saw the note this morning.

I don't know if it happened or not, and it's...tearing me up. She never seemed suicidal before, always cheerful and happy, and then...there it is. I don't know what happened or if she really went through with it, and won't know until later. In the meantime...well, I don't know what else to do other than pray, and leave a desperate message in the comments section of her journal.

So, yes...any prayers you can send her way would be most appreciated. I don't know if she would like magick used on her, as she is Christian, and I don't know her situation...but any prayers would be sorely appreciated. Thank you so much...

Have you thought of contacting her ISP, if you know it? In cases like this, they might be able to track her down and see if she's okay. Depending on where she has her weblog, they might be able to track the IP addy that she logs in through.

It's so hard, never knowing in cases like this.

Yasmine

[FeatherGoblinglimmer]

Gosh hun!!!

I hope your friend is alright.Healing and calm sent to you and your friend and all who are worried.

[AuroraSilvermist]

Sending energy her way...and yours! :hugz:

Good suggestion about contacting her ISP. Or...does she use a journaling site like Live Journal where she would have to become a member to post? Contact them! Perhaps this is a desperate plea for attention and help, and she's really still okay. Maybe something can be done to prevent her actually going through with it. :ugh:

[Faeawyn]

You poor thing. You must be terrified. I'm so sorry for you and your friend. Hoping everything works out and she's ok :hugz: prayers sent.

[Semele]

Definately sending energy and prayers. Online journals have frequently taken the place of very private journals, something that I have yet to fully comprehend, but with that comes some obvious obstacles. Often times we use our private journals to write out things and even test the boundaries so to speak and see how we can deal with our own emotions. People may even write out suicide notes several times to see how they sound and even do this many, many times over the course of their life and they even fantasize and daydream how different friends and family will or would react to the news of their suicide or just the idea that they were contemplating such an act. I hesitate to say attention getting tactics, for although that is what it is..it isn't a child like tantrum but a true need that a person has. I guess what I am trying to say in my sleepy stupor is that that is a very real possibility that your friend was writing out emotional plays and didn't act on it. She will need lots of attention and love though..but you already know that. You are a good friend to worry and immediately seek prayers for her. Hugs to you and her as well.

As a side note, she does know exactly who frequently reads her journal, so she knew you would read it and that means she trusts you..that is a compliment.

[WolfWonderess]

Whew...thank you so much for the suggestions, thoughts and prayers. I hadn't even thought about checking the IP address--I wasn't quite thinking straight. But I am VERY happy to report that she is well, she didn't take action. *deep sigh of relief*

Apparently, she and another friend had gotten in a small fight, but that fight had...sent her emotionally over the edge, as she has other things in her life she is dealing with that is causing conflict. However, as Semele suggested, it seems like just an act to get attention, or a cry for help...and I am so relieved it is just that and not the other option. I hope she knows now that she truly does have people out there that love her...and I will be offering her any support she needs.

Whew...geez, that was indeed a very trying experience. I've never seen a potential suicide note before, and especially not written by a friend (and I think it's even scarier since she's a long distance friend, and there is thus no way for me to physically be there for her), and...geez, I don't think words can describe how relieved I am.

Thank you so much for all your support, everyone! :huddle: I am truly grateful.

[Avalon]

I am glad everything turned out for the best. :hugz: