I said the H word...and I didn't mean it...please help me!!!!!!

[sweet nothings]

Ok...I've been stressed out alot lately because of my friends having problems and my own problems...but this week (even though theres only been 2 days so far) has totally broken me. Yesterday I broke up with this guy and made him cry...thats the LAST thing I wanted to do...I hate hurting people...and alot of people have been REALLY cold towards me..so I've built up alot of stress in a matter of 2 days...but thats not the problem..

Today I let it out...on my best friend...he and I were arguing about something and I was making it out to be way bigger than it was..but I went past my point of no return and said something aweful. I don't know why but I had an outburst, smashed my hand on the table (splitting open some skin) and told him that I hated him..:wah: I don't know why I said it..because I don't nor could I ever hate him...he's been through alot with me..and has listened to me cry over the phone for hours and hours and then I did this to him...I told him how sorry I was after bursting into tears but he pretty much didn't want to have anything to do with me. I don't blame him. Later he told me he wasn't mad anymore but he needed time to forget what I said. I seriously want nothing to do with myself after the way I treated him...I just want to crawl under a rock...

How do I make him realize that even though my words were probably the worst thing I could have ever said to him, I didn't mean them...and infact I love him more than life itself? PLEASE HELP!

[menolly]

Give him a day or so to get over what happened today and then sit him down and explain to him what was going on at the time, how you were feeling and that you are genuinely sorry for hurting him like that.

Also...
:) *smiles knowingly at sweet nothings* Maybe you should be telling him that last bit, and not us? :hugz: I wish you all the best honey

[sweet nothings]

Thanks Menolly...I'll talk to him tomorrow...and I'll tell him the last thing too :)

[Nighthawk]

I agree.... gotta give space and then apologize....

[Vanessa TPD]

:hugs:

[nomadicdragon]

((hugs)) . He's your friend, once you both calm down and you apologize, he'll understand that you were stressed and forgive you. That's what friendship is all about. The good, bad and the ugly.

[dragonspirit 69]

IF you have trouble saying that to the point that he believes it why don't you let him read you thread ?? Good Luck kiddo

[fireswimmer]

I agree with everyone else. Wonderful friends forgive. Tell him that last part and tell him that you are sorry. If he did not catch on that you were having an emotional fit then he is blind. If you are that close I doubt he is blind.


Lots of hugs and warm thoughts. I hope that it gets easier for you

Fireswimmer

[MoonDust]

you need a :hugz:
don't worry. breathe. let all the negative energy out. give your friend a day to do the same, then talk to him and tell him how you really feel and that you're terribly sorry for having said you hated him.

[celticstorm76]

I have found that sometimes when we let things build up the people we end up hurting are the ones we love the most. My thery on this is, we are comfortable that these people love us unconditionally as we do them faults and all. They say you can't take back words, but I believe saying you were wrong, and sorry goes a lot further then the hurtful words that came out in anger. We are after all human. Just remember this for when your friend has a rough day and takes it out on you, you will be more understanding.
BB

[sweet nothings]

Thank you all for your support :hugs:

He called earlier and let me talk (and cry) and told me that he should have understood the full of how much stress I was under and said he would always forgive me no matter what...so everything's all good...thank you guys so much! You're like my second family!

[mucgwyrt]

Oh bless I love happy endings :bouncysmi

[menolly]

Me too! :huddle:
I'm glad things are good between the two of you again!

[Pesha]

You have recieved good advice and counsel here. I in my humble opinion would say this to you: We all have to blow off steam sometimes. I have said things in anger or frustration and regreated them. But have found that when things cooled off and I had the courage to go back to that person and aplogise, they forgave me and we continued on in friendship. We all say things wew regreat. So we move forward and go on with life. Do not beat yourself up over this. I am sure your friend understood you were stressed and so is willing to talk it out with you and go forward. Many blessing to you. But also forgive youyrself ok. *I just read back a bit and see that all is well for you. I am happy for you hun. Be well.*

BB
DS.

[Earthy]

Aww :floating:
I'm so glad you both sorted things out.
A good friend is there for you no matter what,and he sure seems a good friend.
Lucky you. :)

Earth Blessings.

[sweet nothings]

I know I have told you all once but I'll say it again..thank you so much for your support...I now know where to go when I need advice. :)

[DraconisArcanus]

Glad to see it all worked out for you hun. I know I have said things I never meant but once the wrods are out it's hard to get them back inside.

When I feel myself losing control, I excuse myself to another room, bathroom, outside and take 3 deep breeaths and say to myself...I am not in control....I need to be in control.....I have control. This usually calms me enough to continue and center myself. It might help you. If not you can always use my other standby for when I don't want to calm down....

"The sun is warm, the grass is green, the blood is red and I'm gonna smash a head." Just kidding! Hugs!

Peace!

[crashtime]

hehe...i do this sort of thing all the time...So I feel your pain.

apologize and give it time...it will eventually blow over.