Can i ask for some help please?

[ladyrowan]

I was wondering if anyone could do a reading for me?

Got to make a decision in the next week or so about a course of study i've been accepted for. It'll mean lots of hard work for about 6 years, and there are several good reasons for doing it, and several good reasons for NOT doing it!

I make a different 'final' decision about it each day!

Don't like to ask for help usually, but i'm now totally confused, and Bloodstone gave me the idea to ask.

Have noticed other people have given their birth sign, mine's Pisces.

Blessings

[Myst]

Will do that when I get back from the mall :)

[ladyrowan]

Originally posted by WillowRaven
Will do that when I get back from the mall :)

Many thanks. No rush, it's gone midnight and i'm going to bed now!
Happy shopping

BB

[Myst]

3 from the Faerie Oracle.

The Singer of Transfiguration, Himself, and the Bodacious Bodach.

First impressions - the singers are almost always lovely. I find they usually have simple, concise meanings, usually from your higher self. And transfiguration, that's pretty self-explanatory. Himself looks like Pan incarnate to me (Pan as in Lord of the Greenwood, not necessarily the other one). Bodacious is a mischievious bugger, mucking about. I have a feeling you already have weighed the pro's and con's so well and you know the decision is entirely up to you.

This Singer represents "joy of success after a time of struggle", a "new way of life has been accepted and being integrated".

Himself suggests a lot of energy in the reading and he energizes the other cards around them. He indicates victory, triumph, and confidence, as well as protection.

Now the Bodach always suggests tampering or "helpful fixing" (if you saw the card you'd see it clearly). Someone somewhere is meddling in this issue. This person means well, but you need to figure out who it is and you need to tell them just what for.

My impression is that you've probably spent a long time weighing and weighing and even if financially or risk wise it might be easier not to take the plunge there's a deep dark part of you that longs to do it anyway. If you don't do it you'll always be wondering if you could've. The person who's meddling might even be you doubting yourself, or someone around you who "subtly" suggested you can't do it. You can do anything you put your mind to and you need to realize that is far more basic and real then truth - it's just a fact!! = and you know the rewards will be great.

Note the two first cards CLEARLY suggest you will have victory, even though it will be hard, it's only that Bodach undermining your confidence that is in your way.

If you're like me you need to weigh things over and over and in the end you've got to just realize what you want is what you want and you deserve to achieve it.

And as a side note, I always enjoy reading your posts and speaking with you - I find you're brilliant and friendly and powerful so I have a lot of faith in you. I also know there are lots of other people here at MW who are behind you all the way.

I hope this was helpful in some way - it seemed to come very clearly.

[ladyrowan]

Many, many thanks for that Willow Raven, very kind words :sunny:

I can understand every point you've made, how do you know me so well?? hehe

The course is an Open University Honours degree in Environmental Studies, with Earth Sciences. I can get all the help i might need from work (The Environment Agency), as most people there already have similar degrees plus years of working knowledge. We also have a comprehensive library - very useful.
I'd dearly love to do it because, although I've been interested in these matters for a long time, there is so much more to learn. It will also help me progress at work - there's only so far i can go without a degree. (My only professional qualifications are in law, not much help!)
As for Bodach!!! Well, as soon as I read about somebody meddling, I thought "that's probably a part of me". Always been plagued by self-doubt (long story - from childhood), and i'm thinking -"can i really do it?"
Everyone i've told has the greatest confidence in me - but I've been very careful not to tell the wrong person, i know what the response will be!

Yes, I've been weighing it up for about 4 months, during which time I've picked all the courses I want to do (very hard - if i do all the ones i wanted to, i'd have 2 degrees!), booked a provisional place for the first year, and then registered for it properly! I'm due to start the first course in September, so got to make up my mind whether to cancel it all or go ahead!
I've been videoing all the relevant Open Uni TV programmes to get a head start, have collected info from work, and bookmarked tons of stuff from the internet!! If i was an outsider looking at that, I'd think "she obviously wants to do it, whats the problem?" haha

I can get financial help for the first 2 years because of my circumstances, but after that it'll be up to me. A bit of a worry but i'd sort that out when i get to it, i might be able to get sponsorship from work.
It will take a lot of time; they estimate about 20 hours a week, for 10 months a year (and right through the summer!), for 6 years. It's a huge committment. Not sure how i'd handle that; I had a breakdown shortly after finishing my law exams, although it wasn't entirely because of the studying (I'm sure they helped keep me sane for a long time)
It will mean that for the last few years of my sons living at home I'll be up to my ears in books, but then, they're spending less time at home now anyway, and my youngest (16) is about to start A-Levels, then University, so he'll be busy too. (We could graduate at the same time!)
It will leave little time for a social life, but i don't mind that too much - been a bit of a hermit for the last 4 years anyway, a few more won't make much difference. But in the last year or so I've met so many lovely new friends, nearly all pagans, and i thought i was the only one around here! Would have to try and find time to keep in touch.
By the time i get my degree (it's those first two cards - notice i didn't say 'if' - there's confidence for you!!) I'll be 53; will be studying right through the menopause!
Will not be able to spend much time at Mystic Wicks, and I've only just found you!!

But it will wonderful really knowing the subject that is so close to my heart, and i'll be able to put that knowledge to good use at work - everyone there is so passionate about the Environment that i can't see me ever wanting to leave them.

So, taking all that into consideration, and seeing your reading which seems to be saying 'go for it' it looks like i'll probably do it,..... i think!!
And you're very right when you say i'd be forever wondering if i don't do it, and i just know it would make me feel a complete failure

Sorry to have rambled on, first time i've written it down and i think it's helped a bit.
Again, many, many thanks for taking the time for my reading (funny thing, I knew what you'd say! think i just needed someone to confirm it.)
:sunny:

[ladyrowan]

Willowraven, just thought I'd let you know, I've just sent off the first cheque for the first course. I start on September 1st!

No turning back now :eek: hehe

BB

[Myst]

Good for you! Brightest blessings in your endeavours - I know all of your friends here at MW support and believe in you!

[ladyrowan]

Thank you, and thanks again for the reading!

I'll now have to learn to manage my time well enough to let me carry on with my latest addiction - MW !!! hehe

BB