Really need some energy this week :(

[mucgwyrt]

I have a doctors appointment tomorrow, because I'm tired all the time.

When I was 10 I had a year where I was unable to get out of bed; I would try to get up and I would fall on the floor.
I had blood tests, which came back negative. I was told to rest.

When I was 15 it happened again - I couldn't walk more than 5 metres before I had to sit down through absolute exhaustion.
Again the blood tests came back negative and I was told to rest.

For the next five years I was tired all the time, verging on exhaustion, but not as bad.
Now I feel its getting worse again, only this time I have a full-time job I can't take 6 months off of.

I'm scared because my oldest, closest friend isn't talking to me right now because she's taking it personally that I'm always too tired to go out with her.

I'm scared I'm on the verge of getting really ill again, and being bed-ridden again.

I'm scared because I can see it coming and there's nothing I can do about it.

I'm scared of the effect 6 months of exhaustion will have on my job.

I'm scared it will affect my relationship with my boyfriend even more than it has so far.

I'm scared I wont ever be able to rely on my health enough to buy a house, incase I can't work and can't pay my mortgage.

I'm scared the Doctor will tell me what he did last time:
"We could find out what was wrong, but there wouldnt be anything we could do anyway, so theres no point. Get lots of exercise, lots of rest, and come back if you need antidepressants".

(I'm not sure I could cope if they did.)

I'm scared I'll be so worn out from the week that I'll just sit there and take their bulls*it all over again.

It seems so petty to ask for energy when there's so much suffering in the world, but I've been tears every night for the past fortnight, and I dont know how much more I can take :(
I'm so scared that this is 'it' for the rest of my life.
I'm scared they can't or won't help me ever, and that I'll have to live my whole life in cycles of exhaustion :(

[Faeawyn]

I'm so sorry Macha :(. Don't be concerned about asking for energy hun...you can have all that I can give :hugz: :huddle:
check out this site and see if anything is helpful.
http://www.cfids.org/

[RubyRose]

Aww. :hugz: and healing energy sent.

[Pesha]

Let go of the fear as it binds you up. Blessings and energies are sent to help you thru this time.

BB
DS.

[mucgwyrt]

Well, I went to the doctors last night.
My boyfriend came with me, so he could ~insist~ something was done if they tried to fob me off again.
But the doctor was really understanding, and I've been referred to an M.E./Chronic Fatigue specialist!
Waiting lists are really long so it may take up to 18 months to be seen, but I am still SO glad, just to feel that something IS being done and people ARE listening to me!! :floating:

Thanks everso much, to everyone who's been so supportive!

I've been celebrating ever since *glee* :fprtyman3 :boing: :fpartyhat :clapping: :ringaroun :cheers: :bouncingb :dancy: :smile: :thewave: :veryweird :flowers: :hahugh: :bouncybob :fpartyman :fpompoms :bouncysmi

[KoKoMe]

Why are you tired all the time?
Emotional ?
Physical?
Spiritual?

Ask yourself some questions and take down some notes.
What time of day?
What event just took place?
What were you thinking off?
Is it an outside force ? Draining you emotionally ?
Are you travelling at night and not aware of it??

This will help.

Sending energy is wasted unless it is sent witht the right intent.
Start with a good nights sleep.
Can't sleep . try some oatstraw tea.
Get off the caffine products
Get some sea kelp and put it on your food like salt.

Give yourself some pyschic protection
Put a golden aura around you and surround that with darkness
Fear is an emotinal vampire . Stay strong inside.
If you are religious pull on the strength of your beliefs.

I would send you energy as a jump start so you can start
using your own.
You have power inside you untapped.
Open it up and start using it.

Sorry to hear you have been going through this for so long.However I do agree with Grace,you need to find the source of what's making you feel this way and go from there.You have the power inside you to do this.
BB
Kokome

[mucgwyrt]

Why are you tired all the time?
Emotional ?
Physical?
Spiritual?

Ask yourself some questions and take down some notes.
What time of day?
What event just took place?
What were you thinking off?
Is it an outside force ? Draining you emotionally ?
Are you travelling at night and not aware of it??

This will help.

Sending energy is wasted unless it is sent witht the right intent.
Start with a good nights sleep.
Can't sleep . try some oatstraw tea.
Get off the caffine products
Get some sea kelp and put it on your food like salt.

Give yourself some pyschic protection
Put a golden aura around you and surround that with darkness
Fear is an emotinal vampire . Stay strong inside.
If you are religious pull on the strength of your beliefs.

I would send you energy as a jump start so you can start
using your own.
You have power inside you untapped.
Open it up and start using it.

Yes, you're right, I can see that now with a bit of perspective.

I suffer from Physical tiredness, which drains my ability to deal with my emotions.

I hadn't even thought about the possibility unintentional astral-travelling might wear me down too.
I'm not a big fan of caffeine (and I dont eat sugar), but what does Sea Kelp do?

[Witchzee1]

Hope they can find what's wrong and get it fixed so you can feel better!

:hugz: and healing energy!

[Witchzee1]

Well, I went to the doctors last night.
My boyfriend came with me, so he could ~insist~ something was done if they tried to fob me off again.
But the doctor was really understanding, and I've been referred to an M.E./Chronic Fatigue specialist!
Waiting lists are really long so it may take up to 18 months to be seen, but I am still SO glad, just to feel that something IS being done and people ARE listening to me!! :floating:

Thanks everso much, to everyone who's been so supportive!

I've been celebrating ever since *glee* :fprtyman3 :boing: :fpartyhat :clapping: :ringaroun :cheers: :bouncingb :dancy: :smile: :thewave: :veryweird :flowers: :hahugh: :bouncybob :fpartyman :fpompoms :bouncysmiThat's wonderful news! I guess I should have read the whole way down before my first post. :hehehehe: I'm glad something is being done. Hopefully they'll be able to see you soon!

Blessed Be!

[Grace]

Kelp is an immune boost . ...loaded with minerals ...
You are not alone ..look at all the people who responded who never having met you find your spirit so wonderful and worthy of their time..

[DeerWolf]

Adding healing energy and a prayer that you are able to get to the Dr. quicker than 18 months. Continue to th have hope and belief and keep your head up.

:hugz: and :smoochypo

[mucgwyrt]

Thankyou all so very much :hugz:
I've had a few really good days, still been rediculously tired and worn out (I've had a tummy bug I just can't shift for over 3 weeks now!) but I've also felt really centred and calm inside, just knowing that I ~do~ have an appointment, something ~is~ being done, and that loads of people care! :D