Eowyn
April 2nd, 2004, 02:36 PM
Alright... I have had one of these crappy days.... So bare with me here.
It started out yesterday after my mom had a meeting with my welfare officer, she needed help to fill out something and they talked and I got home, and my welfare officer had left and my mom called me in the kitchen and said:
"Well Emelie... I talked to your welfare officer as you know and she said something that made me understand something..." First I thought it was like a comment about me dealing with Wicca and all that but no... "She said why you might have a mess in your room is because you dont have an enegry to keep things around you neat such as your room." that was a poor translation on the last but. "... and that forgettness you can have is also something to do with your... you know" *she's not talking about Wicca or something, something else I rather not say* and then she said that the welfare officer was there if I wanted to talk but I feel like I want to talk to someone but I dont want to go infront of my mother and say: "I want to talk to my welfare officer" because then she's going go like 'ohh sweetheart what's wrong' which is sweet but I dont want that right now. And Im gonna get like 'I feel bad' sign on me. And then I went to school and our teacher was away so a few of the "popular" kids on the school held in the gym, which I just find them shallow and mean (I have went in the same class with one of them for soon 8-9 years). And we had this game and one of them got a bit carried away with being leader (we had basket and I suck at it) so after every miss we got to go 5 puch ups every time we missed and it was really a pain because Im no good on PE *because of a reason I dont want to tell either* and I hurt my knee and I had got pain in my leg and started to limp as I do then.
And I rested for the rest and I started to think and I realized that I was never going to fit in and then the thoughts of a being a freak and all that.... It just sucks and it's getting worse...
Im not posting this to get really any sympathy just to write myself off a bit... I hope you dont mind
It started out yesterday after my mom had a meeting with my welfare officer, she needed help to fill out something and they talked and I got home, and my welfare officer had left and my mom called me in the kitchen and said:
"Well Emelie... I talked to your welfare officer as you know and she said something that made me understand something..." First I thought it was like a comment about me dealing with Wicca and all that but no... "She said why you might have a mess in your room is because you dont have an enegry to keep things around you neat such as your room." that was a poor translation on the last but. "... and that forgettness you can have is also something to do with your... you know" *she's not talking about Wicca or something, something else I rather not say* and then she said that the welfare officer was there if I wanted to talk but I feel like I want to talk to someone but I dont want to go infront of my mother and say: "I want to talk to my welfare officer" because then she's going go like 'ohh sweetheart what's wrong' which is sweet but I dont want that right now. And Im gonna get like 'I feel bad' sign on me. And then I went to school and our teacher was away so a few of the "popular" kids on the school held in the gym, which I just find them shallow and mean (I have went in the same class with one of them for soon 8-9 years). And we had this game and one of them got a bit carried away with being leader (we had basket and I suck at it) so after every miss we got to go 5 puch ups every time we missed and it was really a pain because Im no good on PE *because of a reason I dont want to tell either* and I hurt my knee and I had got pain in my leg and started to limp as I do then.
And I rested for the rest and I started to think and I realized that I was never going to fit in and then the thoughts of a being a freak and all that.... It just sucks and it's getting worse...
Im not posting this to get really any sympathy just to write myself off a bit... I hope you dont mind