sick and stuff

[xilfa]

I live in a small town. the people I grew up with are the children of my parents friends. I went into the store to get something to eat durin my break and when I was checking out the cashier (a friend of the family) did the usual, "how are you today?" my response was "I'm okay, how are you?" she looked at we for a minute was like, "really? cause I hear that you are sick." dang. busted. my mom told her about my brain tumor, anemia, ovarian syst thing. *sigh* "what are they going to do about it? CAN they do anything about it?" "well I'm going to the neurologist next week. and we'll see from there." then she got teary and grapled on to me in the middle of the grocery ... she started to sob. this is the story everywhere I go. everyone knows and they look at me like I'm going to be gone soon. I don't know if I have the strength to do this. positive energy please?

also some for my family, they are apparently more effected by this then they let on, especialy my mum.

[Élistariel]

My grandmother works for a neurologist, who is also a family friend. I think you'll be fine. The brain tumour is gonna be a doozy, I can tell you that right now. You may wish to start looking for a wig. Anemia is just a lack of iron in the blood. One of my hometown librarians used to be anemic. Keyword - used to. The cyst doesn't sound like too much, that can be removed. In the extreme-extreme incident where they would have to remove it, you could have your eggs frozen.
Best of luck to ya hon.
:hugz:

[Melissa]

Do you know if the brain tumor is cancer or not?

I'm sorry to hear your family and you are going through this. I'll be sure to pray for both you and your family.

[Pesha]

Positive energies and healing flowing to you!

BB
DS.

[GryphonGirl]

I live in a small town. the people I grew up with are the children of my parents friends. I went into the store to get something to eat durin my break and when I was checking out the cashier (a friend of the family) did the usual, "how are you today?" my response was "I'm okay, how are you?" she looked at we for a minute was like, "really? cause I hear that you are sick." dang. busted. my mom told her about my brain tumor, anemia, ovarian syst thing. *sigh* "what are they going to do about it? CAN they do anything about it?" "well I'm going to the neurologist next week. and we'll see from there." then she got teary and grapled on to me in the middle of the grocery ... she started to sob. this is the story everywhere I go. everyone knows and they look at me like I'm going to be gone soon. I don't know if I have the strength to do this. positive energy please?

also some for my family, they are apparently more effected by this then they let on, especialy my mum.
Well, of course Xil, by the way I like your new banner!!! Anyway lots of :hugz: :hugz: and energy to you.....I do see you are much stronger and making more connections here now, I like to think you have found something good here at MW. Keep on keepin' on, girl.........:colorful:

[Faeawyn]

I'm so sorry sweetie. Positive energy, love and healing on the way. I'm sure you'll be fine. And we're here to support you whenever you need us :hugz:

[soilsigh aingeal]

Energies coming your way :hugz:

[xilfa]

Do you know if the brain tumor is cancer or not?

I'm sorry to hear your family and you are going through this. I'll be sure to pray for both you and your family.

don't know about it being cancer or not, my PCP wanted to wait a year and see how much it grows, but I decided I wanted another opinion. she was like, "well MOST of the time its not cancer..." and I need more than that.

[xilfa]

Well, of course Xil, by the way I like your new banner!!! Anyway lots of :hugz: :hugz: and energy to you.....I do see you are much stronger and making more connections here now, I like to think you have found something good here at MW. Keep on keepin' on, girl.........:colorful:

I think I have found soemthing good here. I just need to not be so touchy. :-)

[nomadicdragon]

((hugs)) & energy

[Melissa]

don't know about it being cancer or not, my PCP wanted to wait a year and see how much it grows, but I decided I wanted another opinion. she was like, "well MOST of the time its not cancer..." and I need more than that.

A year? What if it is cancer? Isn't it better to get the tumor out now rather than later so that the cancer doesn't spread?

[Anahita]

Lots and lots of healing and coping evergy to you!!!

And maybe focusing on the intent behind the emotional displays of other people will help you deal with them. They're probably just trying to show they care, even though it's in a decidedly non-helpful way.

I hope your consultation with the neurologist is helpful.

- Anahita

[xilfa]

A year? What if it is cancer? Isn't it better to get the tumor out now rather than later so that the cancer doesn't spread?

yes, you'd think so. this doctor is particularly ignorant. thats why for the second opinion. :-)

[LadyOak]

Hugs and Energy to you.....

[AutumnRose_43725]

Positive energy on its way to you along with hugs of comfort....I'll keep you in my prayers.

[xilfa]

I was in boston all day again today. poked and prodded. here and there. and ya know what? dude! thats what, a big resounding DUDE!

I was in with the food police (dietition) and she was like, "why can't you test like you're sposed to?" "why can't you eat like you're sposed to?" "why why why?" and i kind of ho hummed for a bit and she pressed and I was like, "well its hard to be concerned with testing when you don't even have motivation to get out of bed and when you'd rather hurt yourself then breathe." she looked at with her mouth wide open and was like, "I'll be right baaaack"

long story short they tried to put me away again. seems different rules apply to people who need to be mentally stable or else they wont take care of this little thing, like life threatening diabetes, and then they'll die. tricksy.

they shipped me over to the mental health ward to be evaluated. rock and or roll. the crazies circled around the new meat like starving wolves at the feed. I talked openly with the shrinker... told her things that I haven't opened up about with ANYONE before. she wanted me to go into the hospital too, but she said she'd leave it up to me. in or out patient. I choose out, but for a minute I actually thought about it. for a minute I was real with myself. I can't trust myself sometimes. what I hear isn't always whats said. what i see isn't always whats there. and whats in my head would make the bravest person wet themselves. and its all mine. for a minute I almost decided to go away.

I'll be a Spring Harbor out patient though. spring harbor, they make it sound like a fairy land. sunshine and rainbows, just hold on or they'll take you.

*sigh* paranoia.

[Lilith79]

I'm sorry to hear that things are going rough for you. I am sending energy your way to get through this.

In regards to the Spring Harbor thing, most places like that name them that way on purpose-like they're trying to sugar coat the idea of the place, but I think it's meant in a positive manner so those who need that help might think positively. I wish you the best of luck. :huddle:

[Rowan MoonDragon]

I am so sorry to hear about whats going on. I do agree with you that a second opinion is needed. Energy and love are on the way. I wish you the best of luck.

[xilfa]

my headche is ... mind wrenchingly bad today. the pain is shooting through my head and down the side of my face... when it gets this bad my eye and cheek on that side are not very responsive and I have trouble moving my arm as much on that side. I can't do this anymore.

[lednevir]

blessed be!

[Tea Leaf]

I’m so sorry to hear about your illness.
Healing energy and strength sent to you.