LittlePerson
April 21st, 2004, 07:22 AM
I did a meditation last night. I'd heard someone talk about meditating with a stone. Since my last meditation did nothing, I thought I'd try it. I used my rose quartz.
I said a prayer to the mother and father and said I was opening my heart and my mind to the Goddess. I've wanted to meet her personally and really get to know her. (Matron Deity thing sort of).
I focused on my breathing. The stone became warm and tingly in my palm. I became more relaxed. After what seemed like forever, I saw a forest and in it, someone dancing. But I couldn't make it out. It was as if the image was zoomed out.
As it zoomed in more, I saw a little girl who was about 3 going on 4 yrs. As cute as anything and she was naked and had a pretty leafy green garland in her hair. She had soft curly hair, much like I had when I was a little girl.
I asked her if she was the Goddess and she said no that she was a messenger from the Goddess and my inner child. Asked her what her name was and she said "It's April, silly. I'm you." Then she reached out and I took something bright green and glowing as she told me she had a present for me. I asked her what it was and she said "you'll see". Keep in mind here that I could still hear my breathing and the blackness behind my eyelids was still there and I was aware of my conscience. I wondered why it didn't seem like it was me there personally but more of a dream with my image in it doing the action. Anyway, I kept on.
Then she said "I can't tell you what it is. Only you know what it is." As if I were making the present into something tangeable. Then she began to skip away out of sight. I sat down on a rock and opened my hand. It was a little green glowing caterpillar. I looked away and looked down again. Now it was a green glowing butterfly. Since this was so dream like, I couldn't clearly see details. But I saw it fly out of my hand and circle around me dropping what seemed like green glowing dust.
I looked up and from no where came two forms, kind of elven like and tall and naked too. And they got on either side of me and we began to walk.
I heard the little girl in the distance shouting "be free!" "Be free!" Then I said to the creatures, but I came to see the goddess. And they said, and I could almost feel myself thinking this at the same time, "She feels she is not ready to see you yet, that you are not ready to see her yet." And I said back to them, we had stopped walking,"I have to go back, I have to go to sleep now." And they said "Okay."
And that's when I came out. I was really relaxed and sleepy and a little disoriented.
The thing is, I thought we're supposed to really be immersed in meditations and visions and experience them first person. But, this wasn't and really felt more dream like. And it's almost like I knew what was going to happen next. Did I just make this up? Or was it really my subconscience talking? If I did make it up, was it still a message that was meant for me through divine inspiration? I could use some answers. Oh, and what do you all make of the green butterfly and my message?
Thanks and blessed be.
I said a prayer to the mother and father and said I was opening my heart and my mind to the Goddess. I've wanted to meet her personally and really get to know her. (Matron Deity thing sort of).
I focused on my breathing. The stone became warm and tingly in my palm. I became more relaxed. After what seemed like forever, I saw a forest and in it, someone dancing. But I couldn't make it out. It was as if the image was zoomed out.
As it zoomed in more, I saw a little girl who was about 3 going on 4 yrs. As cute as anything and she was naked and had a pretty leafy green garland in her hair. She had soft curly hair, much like I had when I was a little girl.
I asked her if she was the Goddess and she said no that she was a messenger from the Goddess and my inner child. Asked her what her name was and she said "It's April, silly. I'm you." Then she reached out and I took something bright green and glowing as she told me she had a present for me. I asked her what it was and she said "you'll see". Keep in mind here that I could still hear my breathing and the blackness behind my eyelids was still there and I was aware of my conscience. I wondered why it didn't seem like it was me there personally but more of a dream with my image in it doing the action. Anyway, I kept on.
Then she said "I can't tell you what it is. Only you know what it is." As if I were making the present into something tangeable. Then she began to skip away out of sight. I sat down on a rock and opened my hand. It was a little green glowing caterpillar. I looked away and looked down again. Now it was a green glowing butterfly. Since this was so dream like, I couldn't clearly see details. But I saw it fly out of my hand and circle around me dropping what seemed like green glowing dust.
I looked up and from no where came two forms, kind of elven like and tall and naked too. And they got on either side of me and we began to walk.
I heard the little girl in the distance shouting "be free!" "Be free!" Then I said to the creatures, but I came to see the goddess. And they said, and I could almost feel myself thinking this at the same time, "She feels she is not ready to see you yet, that you are not ready to see her yet." And I said back to them, we had stopped walking,"I have to go back, I have to go to sleep now." And they said "Okay."
And that's when I came out. I was really relaxed and sleepy and a little disoriented.
The thing is, I thought we're supposed to really be immersed in meditations and visions and experience them first person. But, this wasn't and really felt more dream like. And it's almost like I knew what was going to happen next. Did I just make this up? Or was it really my subconscience talking? If I did make it up, was it still a message that was meant for me through divine inspiration? I could use some answers. Oh, and what do you all make of the green butterfly and my message?
Thanks and blessed be.