Today, my life hit rock bottom...

[la tortuga]

For three years, I've had hormone imbalances that caused me to nearly bleed to death and I've been on two medications. The most recent one has just failed me. Today, my life hit rock bottom. Ah, well. I suppose that now I know what doesn't work, it will lead me to what will work, which makes me happy. I can't help but be momentarily upset about my situation, though. I don't think anyone could take this situation and flip it into the greatest thing that has ever happened to them. Well, I tried to make the best of it and I brought my favourite copanion, Orange-Haired Troll, to school today to kind of cheer me up. Then I left him in Latin class. I feel bad for abandoning my favourite little guy, although he is an inanimate object. The worst part is that I don't have school tomorrow and so for the first time in 10 years, I won't have him with me on my birthday. Ah, well. I've got two other Trolls, Blue-Haired Troll and Pink-Haired Troll to keep me company on Sunday.

... Why I posted this, I have no clue... Ah, well. At least I can identify the reason of my sadness. Most cannot.

[la tortuga]

The best part about today was that I had monkies in my shoe.

[nomadicdragon]

((hugs))

[la tortuga]

Thank you. I still miss my favourite troll and my ability to live a normal life, but thank you. I feel slightly more loved than a few moments ago.

[Faeawyn]

:hugz:...ummm...monkies in your shoes??

And :colorful: HAPPY BIRTHDAY :colorful: I think :lol:

[la tortuga]

My socks have monkies on them. That was a reply to my friend, Starr sitting on my right, who asked me what was a GOOD thing about today, so I not only said it, I typed it out, too. Thanks! I'm having a GIR pinata and I'm turning 15!!! WHOO, go me! I'm getting... old...

[Romani Vixen]

why don't you call the school first thing in the morning... have someone set it asside for Monday? and Happy birthday...

[la tortuga]

... because the teacher took it up and put it on a shelf. He's very font of toys, and I e-mailed him and left him a message on his chalkboard. I couldn't find it when I went in there, so I just did that. Plus I told his wife to let him know what the message meant because I can't write very neatly. Thank you, I'll be 15 years old, which makes me kind of happy, because 5 is a perfect number in my opinion and 15 is a multiple of 5... Also, you can situate 15 candles into a pyramid form, which is something I took in consideration when I asked for my cake. Yes, I'm a freak...

[Élistariel]

I hope you get your troll back. I know how you feel.
*story time*
In elementary school about 3rd or 4th grade, I was in the afterschool YMCA program. We were playing on the playground. And I was on the parallel bars. The bars were hollow, and for reasons unknown, I crammed by yellow haired diapered troll doll into one of the bars. She got stuck. Then the uh, lady called us to go back inside. So I figured I go back the next day and get her. She was gone the next day. :sad:

[Pesha]

Feel better dearone. HUYGS to you and enegeis for you to feel the light of life and to feel better.

BB
DS.

[la tortuga]

Thank you very much. I have to go to the doctor on Wednesday after school, which doesn't bode well. I kept laughing during my examination the first tme. That poor, poor doctor...

[MoonDust]

:hugz:
Happy Birthday.
15 is not old. and neither is 23 (I haveto keep telling myself that)

[The Shadowy Dawn]

::hugs::, hormones suck. ::rips hormones form body:: :;places hormones in a jar:: :;places jar on fence:: ::SHOOTS JAR::

Good luck though

[la tortuga]

:hugz:
Happy Birthday.
15 is not old. and neither is 23 (I haveto keep telling myself that)

Thanks for that. I guess I'm kind of young, but that just makes my illness worse, because I was afflicted so young. I wasn't even 12. It makes me kind of sad, but I guess that if I was supposed to be sick like this, then I guess I'll stay this way. Nothing has fixed it yet, maybe nothing will. Ah! No reason to get sad, now. It's my birthday! Why should anyone be sad today, especially me?!?!?!

[la tortuga]

::hugs::, hormones suck. ::rips hormones form body:: :;places hormones in a jar:: :;places jar on fence:: ::SHOOTS JAR::

Good luck though

Thanks. :lol: You might have wanted to keep those. Life sucks without them. Trust me.

[soilsigh aingeal]

:hugz:

[la tortuga]

My medications that I was so excited about helping me through my lack of efficient hormones has stopped working and I have to go see the doctor yet again. It makes me sad because nothing has proven effective and it seems like this new medication has only made me take about three years worth of steps backward. I'd been hoping on this new medication working, even planning with that in mind, and now I may not be able to do as planned and do all of the great things I've wanted to do and gotten so excited about for this summer. I'm going to have to start a new medication, but I'm getting more and more worried about this because I'm running out of medications that are safe for teenagers to take, so what happens when I run out? I have a billion and a half questions on my mind right now and they're moving so fast that it seems as if my head is spinning so fast that it's going to twist right off. I just need some support. Everyone close to me seems to be my age and they can't understand what it's like to feel like you've got a problem that is usually fixable but suddenly with you, it can't be.

[Dorchadas Síofra]

**hugs** and **brightest blessings** healing energy sent

[la tortuga]

My illness has relapsed. How many medications have I been on? I can't even count. I'm beginning to lose hope. Maybe I'll bleed to death. I stopped worrying about a relapse, and then it suddenly happened today. I'm very upset, I thought this medication would work. I posted this board when I had a relapse last year... and then I had another, I posted it here, too... and now I've hit my third since I came to MW... When will this stop? When will I have to stop worrying about this? I thought this would be the lucky one, it was so powerful at first and now it seems like my body is becoming stronger and busting through it, and that's not healthy, it's dangerous. If this keeps going, I won't be able to do what I've always planned to do with my life, and I can't bear that, can't deal with it... This is it, I don't think that if I have another relapse of this, I'm not going to be sane afterward... I burst into tears when I found out, and I'm still crying.

[Faerin]

Don't give up hope! :hugz: *healing energies for you*

If you like to work with stones and crystals, try getting any kind of bloodstone jewelry. It may sound kooky to some people but it works on helping the bleeding stop. I have hormonal problems and would bleed bleed bleed whenever I got my period (sorry if too much info) but I got a bloodstone anklet and the problem just *poof* went away. I know it doesn't substitute for doctors and medication, but it may help.

[Teresa]

:hugz: Sending you healing energies !!! Happy Birthday too hun !!

[la tortuga]

Don't give up hope! :hugz: *healing energies for you*

If you like to work with stones and crystals, try getting any kind of bloodstone jewelry. It may sound kooky to some people but it works on helping the bleeding stop. I have hormonal problems and would bleed bleed bleed whenever I got my period (sorry if too much info) but I got a bloodstone anklet and the problem just *poof* went away. I know it doesn't substitute for doctors and medication, but it may help.

Wow, I'll try that because it's exactly what I have. In 7th grade, when this started, I bled for 4 months straight... Thanks! I'll have to try that!

[Faerin]

Wow, I'll try that because it's exactly what I have. In 7th grade, when this started, I bled for 4 months straight... Thanks! I'll have to try that!

has your doctor put you on birth control yet? I would be surprised if he/she hasn't tried that.

[OriginalWacky]

Into the cauldron with you, stirring round and round.

I wish I could give you the answer, and tell you when it will stop and what will work. Unfortunately, I can't. I can, however, relate a bit, since I've had some pretty severe monthly issues, and an incurable disease (though my case isn't so severe as to be possibly deadly).

Blessings to you and yours.

[magick_faerie]

For three years, I've had hormone imbalances that caused me to nearly bleed to death and I've been on two medications. The most recent one has just failed me. Today, my life hit rock bottom. Ah, well. I suppose that now I know what doesn't work, it will lead me to what will work, which makes me happy. I can't help but be momentarily upset about my situation, though. I don't think anyone could take this situation and flip it into the greatest thing that has ever happened to them. Well, I tried to make the best of it and I brought my favourite copanion, Orange-Haired Troll, to school today to kind of cheer me up. Then I left him in Latin class. I feel bad for abandoning my favourite little guy, although he is an inanimate object. The worst part is that I don't have school tomorrow and so for the first time in 10 years, I won't have him with me on my birthday. Ah, well. I've got two other Trolls, Blue-Haired Troll and Pink-Haired Troll to keep me company on Sunday.

... Why I posted this, I have no clue... Ah, well. At least I can identify the reason of my sadness. Most cannot.

im sorry to hear about your troubles, my energies sent to you. I really hope life gets better for you, my thoughts and blessings are with you. Dont worry, Troll will be with you again on Monday.

Brightest Blessings

fae
xxx

[la tortuga]

4 different kinds! I have one bleeding time and then they never work again, so I got put on this kind that gives you your period once every 3 months and it worked great, I had earned it and now it's kind of burning out now... :(

And I've been to 3 different doctors. *shrug* It's hard to find someone who would be willing to examine/treat a 15-year old if she wasn't pregnant, you know?

Edit:
Just the problem with BCP is what if I have to be on it for the rest of my life? O.O I mean, that means I won't have kids without going anemic! MEEP! :( That would suck really bad, and I want kids... I want kids so bad that I WILL be a Nurse Midwife... I mean... I have an infant sibling and it only made me realize that I was more maternal than I had previously thought and now it makes me feel so horrible that there's a possibility that I won't be able to have kids :(

[ObsidianSunrise]

:hugz: Don't lose hope hun. I went through much the same thing as a teenager. Only my mother refused to even consider BCPs. (Said it would encourage me to have sex, if you can imagine!) My 'problem' seemed to straighten itself out in my early 20s and I have two wonderful children.

You are still young yet and your body is in a state of fluctuation and will be for awhile yet. Do continue to work with your doctor. Sometimes it takes four or five trials to find a med or combination that will work.

Sending healing and comforting energy for you. I'll will keep you in mythoughts.