don't tear it away from me

[spooky]

i miss my friend so badly. he passed a little over a year ago. i don't think i will ever stop grieving. i am a little lost with out my partner. i'm falling apart over here. i'm going through a breakup, and i'm all alone. i think i may fall back into some old bad habits. i feel incomplete without bleeding. i should hurt the way he had to. is anybody out there to listen to me whimper?

[rain_fallen_tears]

I'm here, PM if you need to talk! I'm sorry you are in so much pain and I'm sending healing energy your way...:)

[Shanti]

I feel your grief. Please try to be strong. I care.

[Mouse]

Although i dont know what he suffered, i doubt that it was your fault, and no matter how much you hurt yourself you cant take the pain he suffered away..

The pain wont go away, and you will always miss him, but in time it wont hurt so sharply.

I know this sounds nasty but i was/am a cutter, and i hate it when people lie to you just to stop you hurting your self.. i cant/wont bullshit to you..

I will listen to you anytime you need to talk, and if i can help i will... i do feel your pain, and im sorry to that you suffer like this.

You are in my prayers.
Miriam..

[Sabrina]

Dearest Spooky:

Our friends and loved ones who have found their time to move from this earthy realm don't wish us to be sad for the loss. They wish us happy and productive lives. Now is the time when you must look to the life of your friend, and your own life and find the joy and peace for moving forward. Loved ones who pass don't measure our love for them by the length or breath of our commitment to pain or saddness - they wish us to be happy.

I am so sorry that you lost someone so close to you...but we are here..your current friends and we need your strength,too. We need for you to get up each and every morning with the warmth of the sun in your spirit and go forth each day to be the best person you can be. We need you to understand that this loss is not permanent and your friend is still with you spiritually. And we need you to be a happy person. I hope you can try to do these things.

Death is just part of the process and if I had to die today...if this were my time, I shouldn't wish my family or my friends to lament for me....but rather smile and tell funny stories about how goofy I was, how sweet I could be and how strong I was when things in life when astray. And when they think of me I want them to feel my strength and humor...my love and joy for life.....not saddness.

Feeling sad when you lose someone is natural...but you must understand that if it was their time to go...then that translates into it is now Your time to go on without them.
Please don't stay sad.....many people need you that are still here.....

I do...
and I hope you need me too.....

May the God hold and protect you...May the Goddess wrap her love around you today...
and each day forward.

your friend in the craft of the wise
Sabrina

[Pesha]

Dear spooky, we are here for you. I understand what it is like to loose someone. Hugs and lovelight are sent to you dear. And never fear, we are all here for you. Time is a healer and so as it has only been a year, allow a bit more time to pass. We never foreget the ones who pass forward, but in time the pain is healed. I am sorry you are going through a break up. Energies are sent to heal your pain and heart.

BB
DS.

[spooky]

it wasn't thugh. it wasn't his time to go. he was only 19, he was younger than me., i mourn fo him, his pain and his family's. i mourn for the people he will never get to meet, the children he will never have. i'm going through my own rough patch right now, which is a seperate issue, but still affecting me. i've dated this guy for close to a year, he's gottan a bit selfish and i'm thinking he may get abusive. i posted a bit about it in just talk, i think. trying to be storng and telling myself i was fine, nut i'm sad about it too. and my period won't come. i'm late and hormonal and my breasts and huge and tender and i cry all day. and he's ignoring my phone calls, which isn't really breaking my heart but still sucks. i dunno. this pobably isn't the place for this kind of whining, but i don't know where else to take it. thanks all to have responded or thought of me. write if you can, it's really making me feel better.

[WiccanFae]

(((Spooky))) I just joined but I just wanted to let you know that I hear you and I feel your pain. It is so hard to lose someone, especially so young. Feel free to mourn and lament as you will, whether by posting here or crying or screaming or laughing. Yes I said laughing. Laughter can be the best medicine. Try to remember something funny that your friend did, something that you can't help but giggle over.

About your other issue, I am sorry that the relationship with the guy isn't working, but if you think that he may get abusive then maybe it is for the best that he is ignoring your phone calls. You deserve better then that dear one. I know that doesn't make it hurt any less, but just try to keep it in mind. About being "late and hormonal" it sounds stress related, but if you are unsure take a test for your own peace of mind and once you know the results, work from there. Take it one step at a time. Look ahead to one day, and just set yourself the goal of making it through to that one day, and once you do that, look ahead to another day or two and so on and so forth.

Brightest Blessings to you Dear Spooky
(((((((Hugs))))))

[Witchzee1]

I know how difficult it is to lose someone you love and how difficult it is to watch someone you love suffer. :hugz:

May you find peace and comfort in the good memories you shared.

Blessed be

[Akira Khalada]

I know what it is to loose a loved one. It has been five years for me and the pain has yet to leave my torn heart. So I will send you love and energy (((hugs)))