I'm tired

[Deranged Hermit]

To whomever's listening out there, God, Mother Nature, I'm not sure.
I'm emotionally exhausted. The harder I try, the more I seem to fail. I'm tired of being a crappy mother and wife. I feel so sorry for my kids because they deserve so much better. I don't have any energy left, physically, emotionally or spiritually. Something's gotta give.

[Nighthawk]

:hugz:

[Earthy]

Judy,you know that we are two peas in a pod,and i know completely how you feel.
truly i do,i have been where you are,even feel what you're feeling at this moment.
Don't give up,my soul sister,my heart is with you and i'm sending all the strength i can muster.
I love you.:hugz:

[blugirrl1]

hey earthy is there room for another pea in the pod?

Judy, i felt every word of your post like it was coming from me. i know things should be better, just feel powerless to change them. something's gotta give. love and light. blu

[Boogins]

:hugz: and energy to all of you.

[Rowan MoonDragon]

:hugz:

[Deranged Hermit]

Thank you for the support of my kids and the good people here.
Thank you for the phone calls last night, that showed the other side of the fence, and how bad it could really be.
Thank you for Tor, who tells me to smile, even if I don't feel like it.
I'm not going to try so hard for awhile. I need to realize I don't have control over everything.

[Deranged Hermit]

Why does my father feel the need to make sure I know that he's disappointed in me? He's got a fun new life of his own. I'm 36 years old, and I've had enough of it. I'm glad my mom doesn't have to go through it anymore. I'm not going to either. This is the last time I let it get to me. Please give me the strength to follow through.

[Nighthawk]

:hugz:

[Earthy]

You will find the strength deep within.
there are only so many times you can be hurt before your spirit says, "enough".
Be strong..and know that you are worth more than that,and loved more than that.:hugz:

[Deranged Hermit]

There are so many in so much pain. I feel so helpless and useless. There's nothing I can do. Even in my own tiny little world, I'm too fearful and worried all the time to be of much use. If there is cause to worry, help me figure it out so I can deal with it. If there isn't, help me to let it go...all of it, so I can have a life again.

[Brynn]

:hugz:

[Faery-Wings]

Mother, continue to lend your strength and healing to DH. Let her know that she is a strong woman and good mother. Let her know that she is not alone.

[Nissala]

Mother, continue to lend your strength and healing to DH. Let her know that she is a strong woman and good mother. Let her know that she is not alone.


so be it :hugz:

[Sleet]

Let her know that she is not alone.

Exhaustion (not just sleepiness, but I mean utter, complete emotional and physical drain) in parenting is extremely common - but it can make you feel so terrifyingly alone, because all you ever hear talked about in public is "Oh, aren't children wonderful?" And if people do mention the difficult side, it's as a joke.

I spent many a night wondering if I was some sort of freak, a horrible human being for barely having the physical, emotional, and spiritual energy to do the bare minimum required of a father. I didn't start to recover until I realized that lots of parents go through that.

You aren't alone. _Never_ forget that.