Pagan Adolescence at 30?

[wen_skinneth]

I don't know if anyone else out there is going through a sort of adolescence. I have been a complete wreck ever since I started looking into different spiritualities. I had been an atheist for a very long time. But I am drawn to the earth based green witchery. Has anyone else out there had a difficult transition period? And, if so, how did they work through it. Thank you for your time.

Wen

[Merrie]

I think we all went/are going through a transition, and I bet not a one had it easy. It gets better!!! Well, so I'm told. I'm still in mine. But, you know, it doesn't always suck. A transformation is never easy...but the results shoild be great. :)

[Mooncrow]

Try at approaching 40 lol yup still in it.


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Mooncrow

[Kaylara]

Well, I think that all transitions like this are hard. I think that you need to work through it with yourself... We are here to help with any questions, but right now you need to decide for yourself where your path will take you...

Kaylara

[MistOfTheSea86]

I have had many problems with this... As some may know. Like constant battles with faith... Pretty Much Christianity and Paganism, but I have also had it with Atheism... When you transition, it is like a constant fight for what is right in ur heart. Like a demon is there stabbing it and there is a constant voice of reason... They conflict and at times the Demon Wins and you are stuck there questioning everything to do with faith or your spirituality. My only escape was to do some serious soul serching in the past... Like to figure out, if there was anything that led me to where I am... And there was, and my faith was renewed. Of course I still have them now and then, but I know better how to deal with them... Hope this helps:cool:

[Isis]

Well all I can say is I hear ya!!!!!!!! I'm proud of my new faith, yet I dont know what the hell I'm doing half hte damn time, the other times I'm just plane ole confused about gods and goddesses.

Other nights I just plain dont feel like setting up my alter, but somehow, from my Catholic upbringing I feel like I'm doing something wrong, or not doing enough. I don't write in my book of shadows everyday. I've decided to take this year and a day journey, and right now I"m flipping out because well I don't know if I'm going to make it in that alloted time.

I've never really performed a seriously formal ritual, it doesnt appeal to me in the least. However, I know what I need to do to do it, but I dont. Does this not make me a witch? Or does it make me a bad pagan?

I'm confused as all get out about holidays, moon cycles, even my own damn period is off....I have no clue what's going on. The only thing I know for sure is the solace I feel in my heart at the beliefs that I have.

Ok, is it glaringly obvious that I've got uncontrollable PMS or what?

Isis