Dragonstarr
June 25th, 2004, 03:30 PM
Hi everyone,
I am new here. I am going through a time of change and realizing many things. My family has always been the disfunctional kind, I have been full of bitterness towards everyone in my family , particularly my mom. I am just recently learning how to deal with the pain of an abusive childhood....for the first time ever I have begun to remove myself from my pain and i realized that i have been perpetuating my own pain for a long time and not only that...I have been constantly inflicting emotional pain on my mother out of my bitterness. And now instead of seeing someone I cant forgive, I know see someone who is in a lot of pain, from the pain I have been causing and the pain my other siblings have caused out of theirs and mine inablity to forgive and move on also. If anyone could please put in some energy, thoughts of peace and forgiveness i would appreciate it...it kills me now that i am beginning to see things more now.... that these pains are being perpetuated when they dont have to be. I really dont know my part in this except that i must continue to remove myself from my pain and treat my family with love and forgiveness but i know i cant make anyone else in my family do the same....I just hope that they can come to the point of stopping their own pain from ruling therelives. It is a horrible thing to relive the pain of something that happend so long ago EVERYDAY...which is what i was doing, and i am still not completely over it...its a process but i hope that my other family members can begin the process too so that their can finally be some healing. Thank you for all your time.
Blessings,
~Dragonstarr
I am new here. I am going through a time of change and realizing many things. My family has always been the disfunctional kind, I have been full of bitterness towards everyone in my family , particularly my mom. I am just recently learning how to deal with the pain of an abusive childhood....for the first time ever I have begun to remove myself from my pain and i realized that i have been perpetuating my own pain for a long time and not only that...I have been constantly inflicting emotional pain on my mother out of my bitterness. And now instead of seeing someone I cant forgive, I know see someone who is in a lot of pain, from the pain I have been causing and the pain my other siblings have caused out of theirs and mine inablity to forgive and move on also. If anyone could please put in some energy, thoughts of peace and forgiveness i would appreciate it...it kills me now that i am beginning to see things more now.... that these pains are being perpetuated when they dont have to be. I really dont know my part in this except that i must continue to remove myself from my pain and treat my family with love and forgiveness but i know i cant make anyone else in my family do the same....I just hope that they can come to the point of stopping their own pain from ruling therelives. It is a horrible thing to relive the pain of something that happend so long ago EVERYDAY...which is what i was doing, and i am still not completely over it...its a process but i hope that my other family members can begin the process too so that their can finally be some healing. Thank you for all your time.
Blessings,
~Dragonstarr