Mari
August 10th, 2001, 05:05 PM
I am 21, have been raised in the catholic religion and nothing in my entire life has been so easy to understand as some of the pagan faiths, I have recently encountered though research. I have no interest in ceremony, yet I am very spiritual. I guess I incorporate a little of everything in to my faith, and I have always wondered how some can be so easily taken into religion, without questioning a thing. I guess I feel as though my faith is stronger, because I can question it. I recently became “friends” with my younger brother, whom is 19, and to my surprise he is very much like me…I guess to spit it out, there is something different about me that I have never been able to find in anyone else besides my brother. There is the simplest understanding of things, yet which may be the most complicated things in human behavior. I don’t know what? It just is, and my brother understood what I was saying. See I feel crazy when I speak of it like I am making it up but yet, why have I only had a few long term friends, I am always helping someone, people are always asking my advice, this isn’t a choice it just happens. I am always sharing “god” or the source, or meditation or yoga with someone. I guess I would like just a simple opinion, I don’t think I am crazy, I think I am quite normal. I was once much closer to myself, but with school and work and life. It is difficult to fit art and writing and time alone in the picture. I sound a bit frantic I am sure, pieces can you believe it. Not very watery?!
What I would really like to attain within my self is solid control and strength with my own emotions, and the ability to use what is already there to the fullest potential. Just to help. I think this sort of gift or curse is passed. Some woman in Europe told my aunt, whom is very catholic, she had healing hands. And my grandma whom died when I was too young to know her, I think was the same. She was beautiful and eccentric and full of energy.
Sorry about the novel~luv kathryn mari
What I would really like to attain within my self is solid control and strength with my own emotions, and the ability to use what is already there to the fullest potential. Just to help. I think this sort of gift or curse is passed. Some woman in Europe told my aunt, whom is very catholic, she had healing hands. And my grandma whom died when I was too young to know her, I think was the same. She was beautiful and eccentric and full of energy.
Sorry about the novel~luv kathryn mari