I can't talk about it but..

[WiccanFae]

I can't find the words to say what happened, it makes it too real. But I am deeply hurting, and I need help to deal with it. please...

*edited*
Okay I think I need to say this, will see how long I can leave it up. I was r*ped last night by 4 guys at an elementary school where I went for a walk. Did not know them, never seen them before. They threatened to kill me if I told, but I don't think, hope, that this does not count as telling.

[Avalon]

Energy for you :( If you need to talk to someone, feel free to PM me :hugz:

[Aurin]

Don't know what's wrong... but... :hugz: ... Be well =)

[Pesha]

You need energies and so itr comes to you dear. Be blessed and please feel better. When and if you wish to tell us what happened, we are all here for you. HUGS.

BB
DS.

[Lunacie]

Energy and hugs both sent.

[LacyRoze]

Energy for strength and healing sent to you.:huddle:

[Ahautenites]

**sends healing energy to WiccanFae**

They're not going to know you said anything here. No worries.

Hon, if you have the courage, please TELL someone. Especially if you haven't washed yourself. You need to go to the police and have them bring you to the hospital. You have the power to help keep these guys from ever doing this to anyone else.

What state are you in? Someone from here on the boards might even be able to meet up with you and go with you to see the police. The rapists want you to be afraid enough not to tell, but the MORE people you can surround yourself with who KNOW what has happened to you, the safer you will be.

Also, here's a thread right here on MW that you can go to:

http://www.sdsmedia.com/showthread.php?t=49951

You are not alone.

[Hope]

(((hugs))) and calm and healing, sweetie do tell someone

i know that sounds scary but even if you just go to the hospital or your doctor and get checked to make sure you aren't injured, and they can give you some meds and a confidential person to talk to

love
hope

[Hope]

or here is an option where you can call a toll free # and talk to someone and not even say who you are ((hugs))

http://www.rainn.org/


1-800-656-HOPE (4673)

free and confidential and there 24 hours a day 7 days a week

love
hope

[djmixon]

Sweetie. . .

You need to tell the police. These guys are not going to go to the trouble of finding you and then risking everything to kiill you. It was a threat to keep you silent. . .but there is nothing to back it up, unless you know of something else and you are not telling us.

You need to be checked out and get tested for HIV and VD. These punks could be carrying something and you have now been exposed. You also need to be checked out to make sure you are okay anyway. Also, find a Rape Crisis Center and get some counseling.

Rape is a violent crime not only against your body, but also against your psyche. Please seek some help. . .you need the support not only from us, but also from people there in your community.

And, by telling, you may be able to prevent this from happening again to someone else who goes walking in that area. Do you think they will only target grown women?

Please Please Please report this to the police!!!!!

[Nighthawk]

Umm, you need to go to the police and have them skinned.... Umm, I do not know what to say...

[HorseCrow]

Oh, sweetie :hugz:

Listen to these good and wise people here: you need to go to the police and to the hospital. You have the ultimate power to put these guys off the streets and prevent them from ever doing such an abomination again.

*Strength and healing and the power to tell*

[Mab]

Honey, please.. PLEASE go to a hospital & have yourself checked out. They will call the police if you tell them you were raped, but you NEED to tell the police. Sweetie, think about these men! They will do this to somebody else, too!!!

ooooooooooo..............man..................Warrior Queen is running hot in me today.........oh, what I wouldn't do to them if I could get my hands on them. :flamer:


Energy on the way, but honey I'm begging you to tell somebody. These a-holes aren't psychic......they are doubtfully even fully human if they could do that. :mad:

[Rowan MoonDragon]

OH HONEY! energy and healing are on the way! PLEASE, PLEASE PLEASE go to the police. I'm sure it was just a threat. They usually aren't backed up. If it was at an elementary school they could be targeting young children as well. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE see someone. Plesae know that I am iwht you for strength. I"m SOO SOOO very sorry. ((((((((((HUGS))))))))))

[Lunacie]

Good advice here. I know I would go with you to the hospital and to talk to the police, and even go to court with you. Many cities have Rape Crisis support, look in the phone book or ask the operator. They have rape survivors who have been trained to go through all this with new victims. How about looking for a group in your area? Whatever you do, don't bottle this up out of fear. I was an incest victim who didn't talk about it and boy was I messed up and depressed for many years, until I found a support group for survivors of sexual assault. Energy and hugs still coming to help you deal with this and find a way to get your life back again.

[Gala]

You need to be given the chance for the rape pill and also need to be checked for HIV. I don't know if they can get DNA if you've already taken a shower, but probably.

So sorry for you. I am just concerned about your physical and mental help. They all say they'll kill you that's how they control you. They won't.

[Romani Vixen]

oh sweetie....

they won't kill you... and they';ll never touch you again... but you have to go to the police... now

please....

sendo\ing you energy...

I need to go calm down....;

[Old Witch]

All the advice you've just read is right on.........Help get these monsters off the streets before they rape again..........:hugz: and healing energy to you.......and it would benefit you greatly to talk to a crisis councelor..........

[samiaminsane]

:hugz: Go and turn the bastards in! They can do you no more harm, they deserve to be put away. Sending you healing energies.

[soilsigh aingeal]

:hugz:

[Faeawyn]

Oh honey....Everything has already been said and I agree 110%...Tell the police...take a friend with you if you need to. Ask for a female officer to talk to, get checked out at the hospital...These guys think they've gotten away with it....don't let them.

[Wind_Nymph]

Hey Hun. I know it is hard. You don't wanna think about it but it seems to be the only thing on your mind, right? It won't go away unless you tell someone. And even if it never happens to you again- if you dont go to someone it could happen to someone else. Believe it or not, you have power.. that is why they threatened you, because you have the power to get them in trouble and they know that. It scares them and if I may say so- they SHOULD be scared. Dont let them get away with what they did. If you need to talk I have AIM and Yahoo! I will listen.
Be Strong.
-Jeanie ~!*The Wind Nymph*!~

[Kalika]

:hugz:

Oh, sweetie... please go to the police!

[Hope]

more calm and balance headed your way ((hugs))

love
hope

[WiccanFae]

Just wanted to say thank you to all of you for the support you have given me, I did talk to the police and they took a statement from me. I'm still in quite a lot of physical pain, but not doing so badly mentally. Thanks, family!! :huddle:

[Hope]

((hugs)) for your courage, and calm and healing for your body and soul

love
hope

[Spirit Moon]

:hugz: I know what you're going through. If I knew then what I know now...let out the pain. If that means crying or talking...or both do it. When you don't think you have any strength left ask divinity to help you. She/he will be there to guide and to console. In time the emotional wounds will heal...so I've been told. In the end they'll get there's and when they do it won't be pretty...if not in this life, the next.

[IvyCeltress]

Just wanted to say thank you to all of you for the support you have given me, I did talk to the police and they took a statement from me. I'm still in quite a lot of physical pain, but not doing so badly mentally. Thanks, family!! :huddle:
Braveheart!

[Ahautenites]

Just wanted to say thank you to all of you for the support you have given me, I did talk to the police and they took a statement from me. I'm still in quite a lot of physical pain, but not doing so badly mentally. Thanks, family!! :huddle:

Good. **hugs and sends healing energy to you**

Now, when you go out from now on, go with at least one other person whenever possible, especially as the sun goes down. Be aware at all times of everything going on around you. Stay away from areas that are not well lighted. Take a self defense class. (Oftentimes, your local law enforcement has courses you can take or knows where you can go to get this training.) Never be afraid to ask security in a store help you to your car (if you have one) if you don't feel safe in the area where you've parked. (Frequently, stores will send at least a baggage clerk out to your car with you, if not the actual security guards, whenever you ask.) Always keep in your head the phrase: "Beware!" This serves two purposes. 1. It keeps *you* mindful of what's going on around you, and 2. it will change your body language to make it clear that you are *not* a potential victim, and that you are, in fact, someone who is not to be reckoned with. (Thugs want an easy mark, someone who won't put up much of a fight. If you look like you're going to be too much of a hassle, they'll be less inclined to bother you.) This is especially important for you now. You were vulnerable once, and you don't want to fall into thinking that, well, it happened once, so it will probably happen again. If you do that, then there's a very good chance that it *will* happen again.

You had something very bad happen to you that you were not able to fend off, but that doesn't mean you are victim. Do not think of yourself as one, because it's the equivalent of putting an "Oh, here I am, come and get me Mr. Bad Man" sign on your back.

And before I ramble on forever, I want to encourage you to read all you can on the www.rainn.org website, and any other rape survivor website you can find. Knowledge is power. And if you make yourself as strong as them, mentally, if not physically, you'll be much better able to heal emotionally and you'll be much better able to prevent something like this from happening again.

**hugs again** Okay, I lied.... two last things. Don't be afraid to cry, scream and rage at the world when you need to. Get it all out of your system. And last but not least.... remember that not all men are vile, hateful creatures like those ones. Most of them are reasonably decent.

[OriginalWacky]

[QUOTE=WiccanFae]I'm still in quite a lot of physical pain, but not doing so badly mentally. Thanks, family!!QUOTE]

I'm glad to hear this. There are a lot of us here who have been through very similar things, so feel free to talk here if you need to. (Check the Rape Support thread.) I'm always willing to talk if I'm around, and you can PM me anytime you want. I'll keep you in my candlework for a while yet, while you work your way through it.