Swifthollow_Poe
July 6th, 2004, 04:06 AM
Hello everyone!
I have just joined this community board, which I found by accident looking for other things Wiccan. I am very glad I have found this little corner of the World Wide Web, and I hope to make many connections!
Maybe I should give a little background. I’m female, 22 yrs/old and I live in Canada. I have chosen the name "Swifthollow Poe" I feel a deep connection with it. It is a name I have never shared with anyone else, but here I feel comfortable to make it public. You may call me Poe for short! :bigblue:
Lets see...
My grandmother is from Norway, north of the arctic circle where the Lapplanders would travel. She lived with her grandfather, (this is starting to sound a bit like Heidi LOL) who raised her with the 'old ways'. She never told me any of this, until recently, when I shared a few beliefs of mine. She told me of her tarot card days and her tea leaves days, and told me she was always pleased with my interest in the Norse Mythology. It was the greatest talk I've ever had with my grandmother, such a special connection. I felt like I was being let into a secret club. We haven’t talked about it since, and I don’t think she is going to tell me much more, but now, it feels right, you know?
Maybe not. You see, the rest of my family belonged to various Christian denominations (Lutheran, Catholic, Russian Orthodox) and to Judaism Faiths. My parents converted to a particular Christian group in which we had a very bad experiences. Since then we have been without religion, and ‘without god’. I have never had a problem with that. I don’t feel a need to join anyone. I don’t need a support group about fear of death. Or fear of God.
I am not a Christian. I have never been baptized, and my parents left while I was still young enough that I hadn’t been ‘indoctrinated’ . My interest in the old practices, is *not* some sort of rebellion against my Christian past. I have just felt for a very long time that this is the right path for me. Earthy, back to basics. Back to the way of my ancestors. The rest of my family has seemed to find their own spiritual tranquility, and I am very happy for them, whatever their beliefs maybe. But I don’t feel that I could show my Wiccan side to them. I think everyone can understand that. :)
I just feel so disconnected. I know so little about these ways. Over the years I have focused my studies on Norse and Celtic Mythology and not about the people who believed them, and their practises. I have been having so much trouble trying to find others in my area, to whom I could share, learn, and grow with. And I have become frustrated. I need others to help show me the path!
I feel a bit silly at times. I think it might be pop culture that does it. Shows like Buffy and Charmed, and the Blair Witch seem to ridicule the Wiccan faith in a way. Stigmatizes it into a teenager’s faze. I don’t mean to put down the shows or their fans; I have enjoyed a few episodes of Buffy myself. However, I’m sure you understand how is effects non-Wiccan points of view.
I do not consider myself a true Wiccan. At least not yet. I am a Wiccan-hopeful, as it were. :D I would like to learn more, feel initiated in a sense. I want to be challenged and feel I deserve a role to play.
So I am here, hoping to make connections, make some friends, and learn who I am and what it means to be Wiccan.
Wow. I have never shared so much with anyone before. I’m feeling a wee bit naked now. :bigredblu
I have just joined this community board, which I found by accident looking for other things Wiccan. I am very glad I have found this little corner of the World Wide Web, and I hope to make many connections!
Maybe I should give a little background. I’m female, 22 yrs/old and I live in Canada. I have chosen the name "Swifthollow Poe" I feel a deep connection with it. It is a name I have never shared with anyone else, but here I feel comfortable to make it public. You may call me Poe for short! :bigblue:
Lets see...
My grandmother is from Norway, north of the arctic circle where the Lapplanders would travel. She lived with her grandfather, (this is starting to sound a bit like Heidi LOL) who raised her with the 'old ways'. She never told me any of this, until recently, when I shared a few beliefs of mine. She told me of her tarot card days and her tea leaves days, and told me she was always pleased with my interest in the Norse Mythology. It was the greatest talk I've ever had with my grandmother, such a special connection. I felt like I was being let into a secret club. We haven’t talked about it since, and I don’t think she is going to tell me much more, but now, it feels right, you know?
Maybe not. You see, the rest of my family belonged to various Christian denominations (Lutheran, Catholic, Russian Orthodox) and to Judaism Faiths. My parents converted to a particular Christian group in which we had a very bad experiences. Since then we have been without religion, and ‘without god’. I have never had a problem with that. I don’t feel a need to join anyone. I don’t need a support group about fear of death. Or fear of God.
I am not a Christian. I have never been baptized, and my parents left while I was still young enough that I hadn’t been ‘indoctrinated’ . My interest in the old practices, is *not* some sort of rebellion against my Christian past. I have just felt for a very long time that this is the right path for me. Earthy, back to basics. Back to the way of my ancestors. The rest of my family has seemed to find their own spiritual tranquility, and I am very happy for them, whatever their beliefs maybe. But I don’t feel that I could show my Wiccan side to them. I think everyone can understand that. :)
I just feel so disconnected. I know so little about these ways. Over the years I have focused my studies on Norse and Celtic Mythology and not about the people who believed them, and their practises. I have been having so much trouble trying to find others in my area, to whom I could share, learn, and grow with. And I have become frustrated. I need others to help show me the path!
I feel a bit silly at times. I think it might be pop culture that does it. Shows like Buffy and Charmed, and the Blair Witch seem to ridicule the Wiccan faith in a way. Stigmatizes it into a teenager’s faze. I don’t mean to put down the shows or their fans; I have enjoyed a few episodes of Buffy myself. However, I’m sure you understand how is effects non-Wiccan points of view.
I do not consider myself a true Wiccan. At least not yet. I am a Wiccan-hopeful, as it were. :D I would like to learn more, feel initiated in a sense. I want to be challenged and feel I deserve a role to play.
So I am here, hoping to make connections, make some friends, and learn who I am and what it means to be Wiccan.
Wow. I have never shared so much with anyone before. I’m feeling a wee bit naked now. :bigredblu