Life

[RubyRose]

<sigh>
I think my world as I know it has now crumbled. You know, I always thought I'd never be sad or angry if my parents got a divorce. I always thought that thats what would be best, and that my father should have left my mother long ago, because of all that she'd put him through. And now ... !? I really don't know.
She's threatening to leave, or is leaving. My dad doesn't want her to go, but no amount of talking seems to be making any difference. And I'm stuck somewhere in the middle, without an idea of whats really happening.
I can't believe this.
God! I wish these past weeks hadn't started. I wish she'd never decided to give up drinking, or cut down, or whatever the hell it is she's trying to do.
They can both be as stubborn and stupid as eachother at times. Its funny at times.
Ah I don't know, this sucks.
Lately she's been just unreasonable, nothing we do is any good, and then she throws this at us, while we're still reeling from everything else. She can't even be nice for 24 hours. I got abused when I got home from working late last night, and I thought she'd be in a good mood this morning, and I was wrong ...
Ruby

[Jaroson]

Hey

If she's given up drinking or has cut down then she could be in major withdrawal which would affect her mood and completely throw herself off the emotional stability wheel. Even the threats of leaving could be caused by this.

I don't know if this will help you but there are associations which help people who have to live with people who are alchoholics or suffering from alchohol withdrawal

http://www.hexnet.co.uk/alanon/alateen.html

I hope this helps.

[RubyRose]

Thanks. All I feel like doing right now, is curling up into a ball and pretending this isn't happening. Okay, who am I kidding. I suck at pretending things like this aren't happening. Wish I could though.

[Blondie]

I've been through similar circumstances - my dad is heavy into alcohol, and has consistantly mentally & physically absued my mother. A few months ago, it drove my mother to a nervous breakdown and it hit me harder than I thought it would.

Things have cleaned up for the most part since then, I think it really slapped my father in the face. Thank Hecate.

Keep strong. You'll learn from this, and anything else in life for that matter. Try to look at things as learning experiences.

In the end, you'll do fine. And if you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here!

[RubyRose]

Learning experience. :lol: I don't need anymore learning experiences. I want my preditable life back. The one where I knew what to expect from everybody around me. I can't deal with this. I don't want to deal with this. But I have to be here, and I can't do anything.
I hate it.
I used to have to work on eggshells around my bf when he was going through his period of depression, and now I feel as though I have to do it here.
I not explaining this properly, I'm all over the place. I don't even know whats going on

[Blondie]

We're here to learn. You do need to learn.

Feel what you feel. Experience it. Don't walk on eggshells.

[RubyRose]

Okay my mistake. I don't walk on eggs around my mother. Actually she knows damn well how I feel. I don't want her to leave anymore than my father does. The only thing I'm walking on eggshells about is coming out and asking, just how dire a situation their marriage is. I don't want that to crumble either.