Del

[RubyRose]

It's finally happened. The time I was dreading. I lost Del today. I was so busy, I checked on her periodically, and she was fine. Then I went to the hairdresser, and my mum did the same throughout the day, and she seemed like she was just being quiet. So when we all got back from town, I checked on her, and went to give her some more food, and the moment I looked at her, just lying there, I knew she was gone. Actually it was the blankness in her eyes, that told me so. I actually thought I saw her breathe, maybe I did, I'm not sure. I'll bury her tomorrow morning. It's too dark and cold here to do it now, and I think I'll just break down in tears if I do.
She was so cold when I picked her up, that was a strange feeling. I feel really bad I wasn't around in her final moments...
Okay, the tears have started again, I'm going to loose myself in some mindless television show, for a while.
RubyRose

[Ahautenites]

**hugs** You did all you could for her, and she knows it. She knows you loved her, too, and she will watch out for you. You can probably expect a dream visit from her within a week to let you know she's all right. I still get visits from mine. (Had one just last night, as a matter of fact.) She'll be there, watching over you and waiting for the time when you will be able to see her again.

**hugs again**

[RubyRose]

**hugs** You did all you could for her, and she knows it. She knows you loved her, too, and she will watch out for you. You can probably expect a dream visit from her within a week to let you know she's all right. I still get visits from mine. (Had one just last night, as a matter of fact.) She'll be there, watching over you and waiting for the time when you will be able to see her again.

**hugs again**

Thanks. I don't know about the dreams, although now that I do think of it, I have received one from my bunny that died, it was so vivid, I actually woke up expecting to find him still alive. So its a possibility.
I'm glad I got the chance to let her know I loved her, I probably said it out loud a thousand times, to her, more so than I ever did with the other two, and I think thats mainly because back when I first got Del, I thought she'd live for three years, so I thought I'd have her a while. My youngest Rat Rowan, was only 11 months when she passed away, with no warning, then Seraph, my boyfriends rat, when from a stroke. We later learnt, much to our horror, that by being forced into having them live outside, we inadvertantly killed them. Because they weren't used to it. That broke my heart, even though I knew that it must have been the cause. But what could I do? I had no other option, my parents just wouldn't allow three little rats to live inside, in my bedroom.

But after Rowan, I just brought the other two inside, because I couldn't bare it. Them being outside in the cold.

Okay I stop talking for now, I'm rambling, at least I'm not crying.

[Shanti]

Oh Ruby, so sorry. Del answered your question. At least you dont have to go through that desision anymore. Del released you and himself. No more suffering. Now healing. Its hard, I know. We are here for you and I wish I could hug you and cry with you, but I will cry anyhow. Gosh, I have watched you go through this for so long I feel like I know you and Del. The tears I am crying are for you and Del and with them I send peace and love. Take your time hon. I'm here. Del's watching over you too. ~hugs~

[Shanti]

All your sweet hearts are with you through this. You couldnt change anything. But I saw strength in you and love and hope. You did your best and tried soooooo hard. That is good and you are loved by the sweethearts you so much cared about in bad circumstances that were out of your control. When you were at a point of being put in a position that you couldnt control, you didnt give up....you did your best under thoughs circumstances and thats all we can do!! They know that. ~hugs again~

[RubyRose]

:wah: Somebody had to do it. Shanti, you just brought me to tears, okay yeah I'm still crying. I don't want Del to be gone. Okay, a little part of me is glad I don't have the stress anymore, but I miss her, and I still have yet to bury her. It's not fair.

...

Okay, I've stopped crying now. And I'm suddenly stuck for words.

[IndigoRat]

*hugs* I'm so sorry to hear about Del, it's always hard to lose a beloved pet. :/ And like someone mentioned, i'm sure she'll still visit, my rat Indigo still visits in dreams from time to time. Feel better. :)

[RubyRose]

*hugs* I'm so sorry to hear about Del, it's always hard to lose a beloved pet. :/ And like someone mentioned, i'm sure she'll still visit, my rat Indigo still visits in dreams from time to time. Feel better. :)

Thanks. :hugz:

[Felidae]

:hugz: I'm so sorry, sweetie.

[Shanti]

~hugs~

[Rowan MoonDragon]

Sweetie, I'm so sorry. I'm sure she'll visit. My cat pops up when I'm scrying. I miss her terribly, but having her visit occasionally does help. ((((((((((Ruby Rose))))))))))

[RubyRose]

Thank you.

[Black RiverWolf]

im sorry ruby you tried so hard but she is better now i know you miss her dearly but you willk see her again its the special ones that never leave. i get visits from nestle my mare all the time. im so stillso sorry for you ((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))

[Ceffyl]

(HUGS) You loved your Del very much, and she knew that. She passed in a house where she was loved and cared for. The Gods called her home, quietly, peacefully. Remember all of the wonderful times you've had with her.

(hugs) I lost my Basette in June. Hugs to you and your family.

Ceffyl

[RubyRose]

Thank you.